Why can't I control myself?
My mouth speaks words
That I don't mean,
That I shouldn't say
Because its only going to
Hurt me in the end.
My dead eyes scream secrets
That I try to hide-
Reveal that I'm not okay
When I try so hard to be.
My legs shakily cry
When there's a ringing in my ears
Of past
Crashes,
Cries,
Screams,
That I cannot escape.
My throat chokes me
As I force myself to
Ignore the urge to starve,
Whispering cruel demands in my ear
That I must follow.
My restless mind
Eats me alive,
Every day a loosing battle
That drains my blood
So I'm nothing but:
"Scars"
"Fat"
"Ugly"
My hands destroy me
When I'm strangled by
The sinister hands of a shadows
That grows bigger and bigger
In preparation for my final decision,
To disappear.
I’m out of control
Mar 20
Mar 20, 2026 at 12:55 PM UTC
Why can't I control myself?
My mouth speaks words
That I don't mean,
That I shouldn't say
Because its only going to
Hurt me in the end.
My dead eyes scream secrets
That I try to hide-
Reveal that I'm not okay
When I try so hard to be.
My legs shakily cry
When there's a ringing in my ears
Of past
Crashes,
Cries,
Screams,
That I cannot escape.
My throat chokes me
As I force myself to
Ignore the urge to starve,
Whispering cruel demands in my ear
That I must follow.
My restless mind
Eats me alive,
Every day a loosing battle
That drains my blood
So I'm nothing but:
"Scars"
"Fat"
"Ugly"
My hands destroy me
When I'm strangled by
The sinister hands of a shadows
That grows bigger and bigger
In preparation for my final decision,
To disappear.
I’m out of control
