I'm mourning the person
I never became
The one who was normal
Who didn't carry all the blame
My younger self would dream
Of many friends and happiness
But all I am now
Is a lump of unsteadiness
I'm mourning the idea
Of the person I would have liked to be
The one that could have been me
The one
That isn't
I never became someone
My younger self wished to be
Saw the things she wanted to see
Instead I feel all this pain constantly
Is that what she survived for?
She did not survive for me to be miserable
She survived for more
She survived for someone
I never became
Jul 30, 2025
Jul 30, 2025 at 4:46 PM UTC
I'm mourning the person
I never became
The one who was normal
Who didn't carry all the blame
My younger self would dream
Of many friends and happiness
But all I am now
Is a lump of unsteadiness
I'm mourning the idea
Of the person I would have liked to be
The one that could have been me
The one
That isn't
I never became someone
My younger self wished to be
Saw the things she wanted to see
Instead I feel all this pain constantly
Is that what she survived for?
She did not survive for me to be miserable
She survived for more
She survived for someone
I never became
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