For months,
I woke to a good morning
from the favourite person in my life.
Now I wake trembling
at my own shadow,
wondering if she is safe,
wondering how heavy her heart must feel tonight.
And I know this distance
is for her safety.
I know silence can sometimes protect
what love cannot reach.
Yet God,
how cruel it is
to become isolated from the only soul
you spoke to more than yourself.
We went from sixteen hours of conversation
and eight hours of dreaming of each other,
to only three hours of restless sleep
and the rest spent grieving someone
who is still alive.
Because she is not gone.
She is not lost.
She never betrayed anybody,
never broke hearts,
never carried cruelty in her hands.
She only loved softly.
Too softly for a world
that fears tenderness this much.
And knowing someone this perfect exists
ruins peace entirely.
Because once your heart learns
what home feels like,
everything else becomes unbearable silence.
Breathing itself feels incomplete
without her somewhere within reach.
And the little things I was getting for her
preparing perfections,
still sit untouched,
like unfinished sentences.
A swan pendant.
A duck plush I asked about so carefully.
Tiny gifts carrying enormous love,
left waiting for hands
they may never reach.
Even the reason behind the question
remains suspended halfway in the air,
like our story itself.
Half spoken.
Half held.
Half stolen by the world
before it could fully bloom.
4d ago
May 30, 2026 at 9:31 AM UTC
For months,
I woke to a good morning
from the favourite person in my life.
Now I wake trembling
at my own shadow,
wondering if she is safe,
wondering how heavy her heart must feel tonight.
And I know this distance
is for her safety.
I know silence can sometimes protect
what love cannot reach.
Yet God,
how cruel it is
to become isolated from the only soul
you spoke to more than yourself.
We went from sixteen hours of conversation
and eight hours of dreaming of each other,
to only three hours of restless sleep
and the rest spent grieving someone
who is still alive.
Because she is not gone.
She is not lost.
She never betrayed anybody,
never broke hearts,
never carried cruelty in her hands.
She only loved softly.
Too softly for a world
that fears tenderness this much.
And knowing someone this perfect exists
ruins peace entirely.
Because once your heart learns
what home feels like,
everything else becomes unbearable silence.
Breathing itself feels incomplete
without her somewhere within reach.
And the little things I was getting for her
preparing perfections,
still sit untouched,
like unfinished sentences.
A swan pendant.
A duck plush I asked about so carefully.
Tiny gifts carrying enormous love,
left waiting for hands
they may never reach.
Even the reason behind the question
remains suspended halfway in the air,
like our story itself.
Half spoken.
Half held.
Half stolen by the world
before it could fully bloom.