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You looked at me With this soft smile, These eyes That seemed to grasp me. And it hurts. I couldn’t see the reflection Or the reality Of what you seem to perceive All I could see was a rerun Of their conceptions of me Of every rough grab at my body Of every cold tongue that slides between my lips Of every *********** That I asked for But felt solely like a violation… I pull this smile across my face and look at you I know you This you Every you And it hurts. I can’t see this girl Or woman You see Who looks so beautiful And is so interesting that You are intoxicated. I can only see the fear. My fear of being touched By someone I care for Only being able to pray it is for real Because betrayal by you would push Too deep Because they have gone Too deep And I can only feel their breath And sloppy kisses And hard genitals Pressed against me Until the meaning is gone All it has become is a warm body part That wants to be in me *** on me Walk out the door and leave me. I look at you And you look at me I speak choked Chuckle covered words And you just smile Why are you smiling… And you kiss my forehead This same forehead That has been pressed against the bed While I am taken from behind Back arched in burden Head down by a hand Whose hand it doesn’t matter They are all the same Just coarse fingertips Fingerprints that I try to wash off in the shower But all I get is another layer of my skin Hoping That maybe I am not bruised underneath But I know I am. Your arm is around me This protecting bar That holds me close To a warm body that doesn’t merely want to **** me. I look at your chest It rises and falls Fabric pulling So real And I place my hand against your chest And I feel your heart And I see your smile And it hurts To feel so safe.
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Nov 29, 2011
Nov 29, 2011 at 11:15 PM UTC
and it hurts
You looked at me With this soft smile, These eyes That seemed to grasp me. And it hurts. I couldn’t see the reflection Or the reality Of what you seem to perceive All I could see was a rerun Of their conceptions of me Of every rough grab at my body Of every cold tongue that slides between my lips Of every *********** That I asked for But felt solely like a violation… I pull this smile across my face and look at you I know you This you Every you And it hurts. I can’t see this girl Or woman You see Who looks so beautiful And is so interesting that You are intoxicated. I can only see the fear. My fear of being touched By someone I care for Only being able to pray it is for real Because betrayal by you would push Too deep Because they have gone Too deep And I can only feel their breath And sloppy kisses And hard genitals Pressed against me Until the meaning is gone All it has become is a warm body part That wants to be in me *** on me Walk out the door and leave me. I look at you And you look at me I speak choked Chuckle covered words And you just smile Why are you smiling… And you kiss my forehead This same forehead That has been pressed against the bed While I am taken from behind Back arched in burden Head down by a hand Whose hand it doesn’t matter They are all the same Just coarse fingertips Fingerprints that I try to wash off in the shower But all I get is another layer of my skin Hoping That maybe I am not bruised underneath But I know I am. Your arm is around me This protecting bar That holds me close To a warm body that doesn’t merely want to **** me. I look at your chest It rises and falls Fabric pulling So real And I place my hand against your chest And I feel your heart And I see your smile And it hurts To feel so safe.
sarah-sawyer
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Nov 29, 2011
Nov 29, 2011 at 11:15 PM UTC
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