anxiety
its everywhere
surrounding me
I get home I lock the door
but wait
what if it doesn't fully shut
what if someone comes in and kills me
all these what ifs circle my head
I turn around
I lock again
once...twice...three times
it'll be okay.
I go upstairs
I open my pencil case
do my homework
I close my pencil case
but wait
what if it doesn't fully zip up
I zip it up again
once...twice...three times...four times
you'll be fine.
I go to the bathroom to take a shower
I turn on the faucet
turn off the faucet
but wait
what if it doesn't shut off and your house floods
I turn it off again
once...twice...three times...four times...five times
nothing bad will happen.
I go downstairs to set the table
I open the utencil drawer to grab forks
I close it but it doesn't feel right
I close it again
once...twice...three times...four times...five times...
you'll survive.
I go to bed
I turn off the lights
turn them back on
then turn them off again
once...twice...three times...four times...five times...six times...
the cycle never ends
I go to school
open my locker shut my locker
open it again
shut it again
once...twice...three times...four times...five times...six times...seven times...
I look insane
the anxiety rushes through me so I slam harder and harder
a snicker from the girl next to me
but they never understood it
they never did
the anxiety i feel if I did something
or didn't do something
nobody seemed to notice
I was just
different...
Jan 16
Jan 16, 2026 at 12:13 PM UTC
anxiety
its everywhere
surrounding me
I get home I lock the door
but wait
what if it doesn't fully shut
what if someone comes in and kills me
all these what ifs circle my head
I turn around
I lock again
once...twice...three times
it'll be okay.
I go upstairs
I open my pencil case
do my homework
I close my pencil case
but wait
what if it doesn't fully zip up
I zip it up again
once...twice...three times...four times
you'll be fine.
I go to the bathroom to take a shower
I turn on the faucet
turn off the faucet
but wait
what if it doesn't shut off and your house floods
I turn it off again
once...twice...three times...four times...five times
nothing bad will happen.
I go downstairs to set the table
I open the utencil drawer to grab forks
I close it but it doesn't feel right
I close it again
once...twice...three times...four times...five times...
you'll survive.
I go to bed
I turn off the lights
turn them back on
then turn them off again
once...twice...three times...four times...five times...six times...
the cycle never ends
I go to school
open my locker shut my locker
open it again
shut it again
once...twice...three times...four times...five times...six times...seven times...
I look insane
the anxiety rushes through me so I slam harder and harder
a snicker from the girl next to me
but they never understood it
they never did
the anxiety i feel if I did something
or didn't do something
nobody seemed to notice
I was just
different...
idk dude ****** poem but like rah my anxiety has me going crazy I like shut my Chromebook and my stupid *** brain wanted me to close it again so here I am shutting it like 20 times and my teachers are like girl shut the **** Chromebook and I had a mental breakdown...for those without like this anxiety it wont make sense I'll sound crazy...you're lucky you don't have this pain...or its a mix of ocd too...idk my mom dosent really care
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