I can't:
________________________________________
go to see that moment after moment
and work after work
i am so unhappy with myself.
i keep seeing myself in the mirror as someone else --
someone else i want to be:
happier
prettier
more confident
more capable
more of everything i'm not
_________________________________________
take this brain, nor this head,
to stir this mix of pain in my mind again;
why not let my thoughts of ease
to reincarnate my life into a life
_________________________________________
have things easier
why can't it be easier
(just pretend it's okay)
why can't i love myself for who i am
(just believe it's okay)
why can't i ever be them
(don't realise it's not okay)
when will i ever be happy
when will i ever be satisfied with my own self being
when will i ever love myself more than others
when will i ever be myself
-- if myself even exists.
Apr 20, 2018
Apr 20, 2018 at 12:38 PM UTC
I can't:
________________________________________
go to see that moment after moment
and work after work
i am so unhappy with myself.
i keep seeing myself in the mirror as someone else --
someone else i want to be:
happier
prettier
more confident
more capable
more of everything i'm not
_________________________________________
take this brain, nor this head,
to stir this mix of pain in my mind again;
why not let my thoughts of ease
to reincarnate my life into a life
_________________________________________
have things easier
why can't it be easier
(just pretend it's okay)
why can't i love myself for who i am
(just believe it's okay)
why can't i ever be them
(don't realise it's not okay)
when will i ever be happy
when will i ever be satisfied with my own self being
when will i ever love myself more than others
when will i ever be myself
-- if myself even exists.
just your normal sloppy depressing poem from 12.30 am; when there are thoughts and hateful succinct attacks to my mentality.
