There have been countless times
Where we've voice chatted
And I laughed and you called it cute.
And I found myself enjoying it.
I liked it whenever I sounded like that
Whenever I sounded different, feminine.
And I began to dislike hearing my normal laugh.
It felt odd to me.
A thought popped into my head.
A desire to experiment.
And once I did it, I felt even weirder about myself.
Then the questions started.
You pointed things out, and called me an egg.
Not that I minded.
Still, the questions remained, and I felt strange.
There was a sadness that I couldn't place.
Excuses were made.
Like how I didn't feel a 'certain way'
Whenever I tried on those clothes again.
It had to be something ****** It just had to.
But I started to not react in that way anymore.
And I kind of liked wearing them.
So then the questions returned.
And I didn't know what to think.
In the end, while I still have these questions.
I think it's okay to have them.
And even though I'm uncertain about myself
I'll continue on until I find who I am.
Jul 8, 2019
Jul 8, 2019 at 1:15 AM UTC
There have been countless times
Where we've voice chatted
And I laughed and you called it cute.
And I found myself enjoying it.
I liked it whenever I sounded like that
Whenever I sounded different, feminine.
And I began to dislike hearing my normal laugh.
It felt odd to me.
A thought popped into my head.
A desire to experiment.
And once I did it, I felt even weirder about myself.
Then the questions started.
You pointed things out, and called me an egg.
Not that I minded.
Still, the questions remained, and I felt strange.
There was a sadness that I couldn't place.
Excuses were made.
Like how I didn't feel a 'certain way'
Whenever I tried on those clothes again.
It had to be something ****** It just had to.
But I started to not react in that way anymore.
And I kind of liked wearing them.
So then the questions returned.
And I didn't know what to think.
In the end, while I still have these questions.
I think it's okay to have them.
And even though I'm uncertain about myself
I'll continue on until I find who I am.
A recount of my current experiences with my questions about my gender identity.
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