3 years feels so long ago
I remember a year ago I was devastated
disappointed in who I was
who it was possible for me to be
I remember two years ago I was overjoyed
happy as can be
proud of what I made it through
I remember three years ago
I sat crying on my bed
wishing I could be anyone else
cause I hated my self so much
that I couldn't bear another day trapped
in this body
with chubby arms,
a big stomach,
fat cheeks,
acne resting on my face
I hated my capacity to hate me,
to despise who I was
it took 1096 days for me to choose love over hate,
or 1578240 minutes to right the wrongs I did to my skin
or 94694400 seconds for me to be happy again,
and it was worth every painful milli second of it
Mar 25
Mar 25, 2026 at 6:46 PM UTC
3 years feels so long ago
I remember a year ago I was devastated
disappointed in who I was
who it was possible for me to be
I remember two years ago I was overjoyed
happy as can be
proud of what I made it through
I remember three years ago
I sat crying on my bed
wishing I could be anyone else
cause I hated my self so much
that I couldn't bear another day trapped
in this body
with chubby arms,
a big stomach,
fat cheeks,
acne resting on my face
I hated my capacity to hate me,
to despise who I was
it took 1096 days for me to choose love over hate,
or 1578240 minutes to right the wrongs I did to my skin
or 94694400 seconds for me to be happy again,
and it was worth every painful milli second of it
On march 25th 2026 I am three years clean of sh and it's been so difficult trying to rebuild my relationship with the kid that I used to be when I cut myself but it was so worth it