I'd like to talk electricity,
chemicals,
living better through
I take medication
and when I don't
I feel
effortlessly
lost
thoreau would be so proud
I cry at provocations
that I would sneer at
in better days
waiting for better days
I can imagine them coming
warm and sweet
sunny fall days
nippy but still safe
even winter seems like
it could be all right
in better days
but they aren't here yet
I want to burn myself on them
push myself nearer their fire
than I can stand
I cannot bear to run away
the ink runs off my maps
staining my fingers
till everything tastes bitter
trying to redraw in charcoal
the places I know must be there
but all the familiar landmarks
are dragons now
and even when I do
even when I remember
and I even eat
and sleep
like I did when I was
ok
years ago, in a country I can't find
now
that might never have been there in the first place
even then
I'm maybe not drowning
but the air quality
is a little suspect
Oct 16, 2014
Oct 16, 2014 at 12:13 AM UTC
I'd like to talk electricity,
chemicals,
living better through
I take medication
and when I don't
I feel
effortlessly
lost
thoreau would be so proud
I cry at provocations
that I would sneer at
in better days
waiting for better days
I can imagine them coming
warm and sweet
sunny fall days
nippy but still safe
even winter seems like
it could be all right
in better days
but they aren't here yet
I want to burn myself on them
push myself nearer their fire
than I can stand
I cannot bear to run away
the ink runs off my maps
staining my fingers
till everything tastes bitter
trying to redraw in charcoal
the places I know must be there
but all the familiar landmarks
are dragons now
and even when I do
even when I remember
and I even eat
and sleep
like I did when I was
ok
years ago, in a country I can't find
now
that might never have been there in the first place
even then
I'm maybe not drowning
but the air quality
is a little suspect
this is an older poem. i still like it.
