How to rise to the occasion:
I have broken everything.
All of the garbage on the foggy cracked streets. Midnight starts humming softly
at first
winding over the streetlights
shimmering
off of the metallic wrappers from 7/11
My adaptability to your absence is a clear
alarm buzzer by now.
'because he was there and I was not.'
Bananafish swim in the thick of the foggy fissures
Of my new secret.
The fat boy in the drivers seat
Compliments me
"thank you."i say and
One bananafish swims faster than the others
Breaking throughout the tears
Passes the windows and rips the dashboard.
I swallow the bananafish whole
And after fat boys hands are firm and
Infatuated on my cheeks
Bananafish swims in my head violently
He is so large that he wags his tail in my stomach
Scratching at the walls of my belly
Poking his head out of my throat.
"I'm here. Let me out. Let me out."
And I hear your voice ask me if this is okay.
And I imagine all of your long fingers
Gingerly touching my cheeks.
I think of your breath asking me if this is okay.
The sax playing fat boy
makes me open my eyes again
When we pull away.
And that's when I know I've killed my bananafish.
Jan 22, 2014
Jan 22, 2014 at 2:06 PM UTC
How to rise to the occasion:
I have broken everything.
All of the garbage on the foggy cracked streets. Midnight starts humming softly
at first
winding over the streetlights
shimmering
off of the metallic wrappers from 7/11
My adaptability to your absence is a clear
alarm buzzer by now.
'because he was there and I was not.'
Bananafish swim in the thick of the foggy fissures
Of my new secret.
The fat boy in the drivers seat
Compliments me
"thank you."i say and
One bananafish swims faster than the others
Breaking throughout the tears
Passes the windows and rips the dashboard.
I swallow the bananafish whole
And after fat boys hands are firm and
Infatuated on my cheeks
Bananafish swims in my head violently
He is so large that he wags his tail in my stomach
Scratching at the walls of my belly
Poking his head out of my throat.
"I'm here. Let me out. Let me out."
And I hear your voice ask me if this is okay.
And I imagine all of your long fingers
Gingerly touching my cheeks.
I think of your breath asking me if this is okay.
The sax playing fat boy
makes me open my eyes again
When we pull away.
And that's when I know I've killed my bananafish.
