mind frozen
body tense
I keep telling myself that I care about spiritual growth
but **** it all to hell
i want to be close in the biblical sense
somewhere there's bumpin' and grindin' happening this very minute.
intimacy intimacy, i tell myself
feel my feelings
i've been numb to my ****** feelings
i get all this, but sometimes ****** thoughts and feeling hit me so hard.
i don't know what to do with them, they just mess up my head.
i want serenity.
i want peace.
i want some wisdom in all this.
i am not a monk.
i do not want to be celibate,
but **** I don't want to be overwhelmed either.
For now I am embracing my *** crazed thoughts, but not acting on them.
i am more than my thoughts and feelings.
i am.
Jun 7, 2012
Jun 7, 2012 at 6:46 PM UTC
mind frozen
body tense
I keep telling myself that I care about spiritual growth
but **** it all to hell
i want to be close in the biblical sense
somewhere there's bumpin' and grindin' happening this very minute.
intimacy intimacy, i tell myself
feel my feelings
i've been numb to my ****** feelings
i get all this, but sometimes ****** thoughts and feeling hit me so hard.
i don't know what to do with them, they just mess up my head.
i want serenity.
i want peace.
i want some wisdom in all this.
i am not a monk.
i do not want to be celibate,
but **** I don't want to be overwhelmed either.
For now I am embracing my *** crazed thoughts, but not acting on them.
i am more than my thoughts and feelings.
i am.
