Where do I go
to find the right place
where I can be me
and live happily
I am often the lonely person in a crowded room
watching over everyone as they relate to each other
how will I ever be a person of people
with all the distance of our indifference
I don't belong here where none of it feels real
there is no genuine favor anymore
just conditional emotions based on desire
fickle and hypocritical with two faces
impulsive for immediate gratification
leaving nothing for those who wait
All we have
are the breaths we take
and the experiences we survive
teach us how to fail brilliantly
In a strange environment
drifting slowly through the world
passing by unknowingly
others who are strange like me
but more unique
It is strangely common to feel different
and that is how I am just the same
I don't want to belong here
I want to be out there
failing because I tried
not because of my indifference
that kept me grounded
It's a good night to be lost
to be left alone to create
something so horrifying
people will wish
they could have stopped it
Just sitting there silent and motionless
as it develops into the nasty thing it should become
humanity rotting away
with the mind being abducted by subliminal torture
using life to simulate alternate realities
Moving as ghosts do, as cold shadows move at night
through every tear drop
every ache and pain
until the heart breaks
until there's a willing and somber life to take
The lost become mutated
the unknown need a place to go
to die and be reborn
Let go of the memories
grip the still beating pulse
bring torture and agony
I will teach you what I know