I hate that everyday you remind me of my shame
Remind me of who I'm not meant to be
Remind why i shouldn’t stay
I hate that I’m still here
And
I hate that I’ve survived
“Well maybe I can go another day and I’ll be fine”
It's what I tell myself
“I’ll be fine”
“Your strong”
But then I look in the mirror and I see exactly what's wrong
I see that I’m broken
I’m not fine
I’m not okay
I can’t handle this pain
Going through it everyday
It hurts me in more ways than I can say
And I really don’t know why I’m still here
Or what this is about
All I know is I’m broken
And I don't deserve this help
I don't deserve this love
I don't deserve anyone
And I don’t know where to go
And I don't know what to do
And I don't know what to say
But it hurts everyday too
I hear it in my voice and see it in my eyes
But no one can tell because I’ve gotten good at the element of surprise
I’ve gotten good at hiding it everyday
But no one looks at me the same
Because maybe they know I’m broken
But they don’t know what to do
And they can’t help me at all
Because I’m ******* over to
Dec 11, 2019
Dec 11, 2019 at 9:12 PM UTC
I hate that everyday you remind me of my shame
Remind me of who I'm not meant to be
Remind why i shouldn’t stay
I hate that I’m still here
And
I hate that I’ve survived
“Well maybe I can go another day and I’ll be fine”
It's what I tell myself
“I’ll be fine”
“Your strong”
But then I look in the mirror and I see exactly what's wrong
I see that I’m broken
I’m not fine
I’m not okay
I can’t handle this pain
Going through it everyday
It hurts me in more ways than I can say
And I really don’t know why I’m still here
Or what this is about
All I know is I’m broken
And I don't deserve this help
I don't deserve this love
I don't deserve anyone
And I don’t know where to go
And I don't know what to do
And I don't know what to say
But it hurts everyday too
I hear it in my voice and see it in my eyes
But no one can tell because I’ve gotten good at the element of surprise
I’ve gotten good at hiding it everyday
But no one looks at me the same
Because maybe they know I’m broken
But they don’t know what to do
And they can’t help me at all
Because I’m ******* over to