It’s been eight hundred twenty-one days
Since that day took you away
One hundred seventeen weeks and some days
Since that day took you away
I count it sometimes without meaning to
As if time could be measured into understanding
As if numbers could soften what remains
Since you’ve been gone, I keep moving
I learn new languages, new words for the same silence
I help children, guide them through small worlds
Where things still make sense
I study, I read, I build something that looks like a future
I do everything I am supposed to do
And still
I mourn you
I walk through days like I belong in them
I answer when they ask how I am
I say I’m fine
I say what fits
I say what keeps things from breaking
Since you’ve been gone, I can do what I want
I can go anywhere I choose
I can sit in rooms full of voices and laughter
But nothing, I said nothing, removes these truths
’Cause nothing replaces
Nothing replaces you
It’s been so long and still not long at all
Like time learned to stretch without healing
Everything continues forward
But I remain there
In a moment that never finished
They tell me I am doing well
That I am growing, becoming, improving
They see the effort, the movement, the progress
They do not see the weight that stays
Because I can learn every language
And still not find the words
I can help every child
And still feel the absence
I can study, build, and move through every day
And still
I mourn you
Eight hundred twenty-one days
One hundred seventeen weeks and some days
And still
nothing replaces
nothing replaces you
Apr 2
Apr 2, 2026 at 9:44 AM UTC
It’s been eight hundred twenty-one days
Since that day took you away
One hundred seventeen weeks and some days
Since that day took you away
I count it sometimes without meaning to
As if time could be measured into understanding
As if numbers could soften what remains
Since you’ve been gone, I keep moving
I learn new languages, new words for the same silence
I help children, guide them through small worlds
Where things still make sense
I study, I read, I build something that looks like a future
I do everything I am supposed to do
And still
I mourn you
I walk through days like I belong in them
I answer when they ask how I am
I say I’m fine
I say what fits
I say what keeps things from breaking
Since you’ve been gone, I can do what I want
I can go anywhere I choose
I can sit in rooms full of voices and laughter
But nothing, I said nothing, removes these truths
’Cause nothing replaces
Nothing replaces you
It’s been so long and still not long at all
Like time learned to stretch without healing
Everything continues forward
But I remain there
In a moment that never finished
They tell me I am doing well
That I am growing, becoming, improving
They see the effort, the movement, the progress
They do not see the weight that stays
Because I can learn every language
And still not find the words
I can help every child
And still feel the absence
I can study, build, and move through every day
And still
I mourn you
Eight hundred twenty-one days
One hundred seventeen weeks and some days
And still
nothing replaces
nothing replaces you
