Behind my smile lie my fears
Behind those laughs I hide my tears
I'm one of those you call fake
And the more I go the more I ache
I have a dark secret I cannot tell
Sometimes it feels like a wizard's spell
I've been told it's not my fault
How could I know it was assault?
How would you expect that from your father?
But dear laiba why wouldn't you know?
He ***** your mum infront of you remember
He showed you videos.
You **** remember that clearly
You did what he said.
I still see him everywhere
Why is that? It's so unfair
He took away my innocence
He forced me into silence
Told me I deserved to die
Said children like me need pain.
Said I was ugly and reordered every minute of me crying about it.
They say I should forgive
But he's made my life hard to live
I see him in my dreams
I hope he can hear my screams
I hope he can hear my innocence telling him I love him and "daddy can we draw after"
"Daddy your my superhero"
It isn't fair that he's free
He ruined my life the day he molested me
I try to move forward
But it's as if I'm anchored
Held back by this voice saying I don't deserve to live.
Let me go I say let me go
But the voice repeats back I dare you to try.
It's his voice..
I'm trying real hard
But still I'm so scarred
I try to hide my pain
Even though it drives me insane
I try my best but how much can I take
Until it destroys me
To anyone reading this please save me from me.
To you I may seem happy
But deep inside I'm really angry
Because behind my smile lie my fears
Because behind those laughs I hide my tears
I'm the one you call fake
Some days I just wish people knew how much I ache.
How tired I am
And how much my mind puts me through
Oct 6, 2021
Oct 6, 2021 at 5:00 AM UTC
Behind my smile lie my fears
Behind those laughs I hide my tears
I'm one of those you call fake
And the more I go the more I ache
I have a dark secret I cannot tell
Sometimes it feels like a wizard's spell
I've been told it's not my fault
How could I know it was assault?
How would you expect that from your father?
But dear laiba why wouldn't you know?
He ***** your mum infront of you remember
He showed you videos.
You **** remember that clearly
You did what he said.
I still see him everywhere
Why is that? It's so unfair
He took away my innocence
He forced me into silence
Told me I deserved to die
Said children like me need pain.
Said I was ugly and reordered every minute of me crying about it.
They say I should forgive
But he's made my life hard to live
I see him in my dreams
I hope he can hear my screams
I hope he can hear my innocence telling him I love him and "daddy can we draw after"
"Daddy your my superhero"
It isn't fair that he's free
He ruined my life the day he molested me
I try to move forward
But it's as if I'm anchored
Held back by this voice saying I don't deserve to live.
Let me go I say let me go
But the voice repeats back I dare you to try.
It's his voice..
I'm trying real hard
But still I'm so scarred
I try to hide my pain
Even though it drives me insane
I try my best but how much can I take
Until it destroys me
To anyone reading this please save me from me.
To you I may seem happy
But deep inside I'm really angry
Because behind my smile lie my fears
Because behind those laughs I hide my tears
I'm the one you call fake
Some days I just wish people knew how much I ache.
How tired I am
And how much my mind puts me through