Old habits of another life,
Constantly creep in
Polluting my soul with its strife
Do I deserve love? Am I worthy?
These questions that forever haunt me
Feeling numb has no judge, has no query
An emotionally joust within my own mind
To open my heart
I must step away from
These walls I hide behind
There is a comfort in loneliness
A sanctuary from feeling
Where time is of no consequence
No desire to smile or take a chance
Never wanting to laugh or dance
But existing without living
Isn't living at all
To never risk being hurt or taking a fall
Risk, reward is an equation that's answer is steep
Balancing protecting your feelings over the treasures you may reap
These are the demons I face everyday
And the constant fight not to drink them away
The battle is both inside and out
Ulcers and anguish are it's trophies
Time to put down the bottle
And face life like a man
Not with shots of tequila and pulls from a can
Time to plunge into the unknown of what could be
Embrace the love that's in front of me
Free fall backwards into her radiant clutches
Stand on my feet without inebriated
crutches
Feb 25, 2018
Feb 25, 2018 at 5:38 AM UTC
Old habits of another life,
Constantly creep in
Polluting my soul with its strife
Do I deserve love? Am I worthy?
These questions that forever haunt me
Feeling numb has no judge, has no query
An emotionally joust within my own mind
To open my heart
I must step away from
These walls I hide behind
There is a comfort in loneliness
A sanctuary from feeling
Where time is of no consequence
No desire to smile or take a chance
Never wanting to laugh or dance
But existing without living
Isn't living at all
To never risk being hurt or taking a fall
Risk, reward is an equation that's answer is steep
Balancing protecting your feelings over the treasures you may reap
These are the demons I face everyday
And the constant fight not to drink them away
The battle is both inside and out
Ulcers and anguish are it's trophies
Time to put down the bottle
And face life like a man
Not with shots of tequila and pulls from a can
Time to plunge into the unknown of what could be
Embrace the love that's in front of me
Free fall backwards into her radiant clutches
Stand on my feet without inebriated
crutches
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