i came in her mouth
i can’t stop hurting myself
the patron saint of blood
self appointed self affliction
i only want her when she doesn’t want me
an explosion of pain & misplacedlove
it’s 4am & I’m lost again
somewhere too far west
in this bed
wrapped like a present
with my legs around her head
& sheets lumped under my
back
on my back
she caresses my thigh
down
she wants something
i don’t have
me.
the ceiling is blank
the room bare & heavy
“where were you born” she asks
starting to stand
face all wet
time choking the elephants
hiding in the room
“i don’t know” I say say say
her eyes fall all over
the place
she is a wire with a onion bulb head, onyx eyes, tiny fine young delicate hands the kind when i was a small girl i wish i had
“don’t know, don’t know,
i just woke up one day and was”
6/14/11
Jun 15, 2011
Jun 15, 2011 at 5:12 AM UTC
i came in her mouth
i can’t stop hurting myself
the patron saint of blood
self appointed self affliction
i only want her when she doesn’t want me
an explosion of pain & misplacedlove
it’s 4am & I’m lost again
somewhere too far west
in this bed
wrapped like a present
with my legs around her head
& sheets lumped under my
back
on my back
she caresses my thigh
down
she wants something
i don’t have
me.
the ceiling is blank
the room bare & heavy
“where were you born” she asks
starting to stand
face all wet
time choking the elephants
hiding in the room
“i don’t know” I say say say
her eyes fall all over
the place
she is a wire with a onion bulb head, onyx eyes, tiny fine young delicate hands the kind when i was a small girl i wish i had
“don’t know, don’t know,
i just woke up one day and was”
6/14/11
