put on a brave face
act like it’s ok
scream into your pillow
lookin at the world go
why am i even here?
they said it gets better with time
i think they were lying
seems like no one cares the only problems they worry ‘bout are theirs endless flight of stairs looming over me promising something better at the top
cry so hard your eyes are burning
even then the world’s still turning
can they see how much you’re hurting?
will it ever stop?
be strong, be tough, it’ll get less rough
the nightmares you face every night will lose their touch
enough is enough, sick of the same old stuff
tears are falling thick and fast
wonder how long these will last
will they soak my face and clothes
or will only a few drip down my nose
eyes red-rimmed, eyelids swollen
when i come back out you’d never know
i can’t breathe, every time i draw in air it’s tainted with their touch
it’s too much, God, take this cup
no one cares, sitting alone in this bathroom stall because no one likes me out there
im hurting so much. not the outside hurting, skin rubbed raw in the shower hurting but the inside hurting head and heart bursting because here i am broken and no one knows how i’m thirsting to just be normal again. why have i been ruined?
please make the dark go away
if it stays i’ll fade away
only tear stained pain and quiet fear will be left
one day. one day. one day.
May 11, 2018
May 11, 2018 at 1:21 PM UTC
put on a brave face
act like it’s ok
scream into your pillow
lookin at the world go
why am i even here?
they said it gets better with time
i think they were lying
seems like no one cares the only problems they worry ‘bout are theirs endless flight of stairs looming over me promising something better at the top
cry so hard your eyes are burning
even then the world’s still turning
can they see how much you’re hurting?
will it ever stop?
be strong, be tough, it’ll get less rough
the nightmares you face every night will lose their touch
enough is enough, sick of the same old stuff
tears are falling thick and fast
wonder how long these will last
will they soak my face and clothes
or will only a few drip down my nose
eyes red-rimmed, eyelids swollen
when i come back out you’d never know
i can’t breathe, every time i draw in air it’s tainted with their touch
it’s too much, God, take this cup
no one cares, sitting alone in this bathroom stall because no one likes me out there
im hurting so much. not the outside hurting, skin rubbed raw in the shower hurting but the inside hurting head and heart bursting because here i am broken and no one knows how i’m thirsting to just be normal again. why have i been ruined?
please make the dark go away
if it stays i’ll fade away
only tear stained pain and quiet fear will be left
one day. one day. one day.
this was a dark time in my life. emotions were wild and raw and i wrote them out. thank you to any readers **
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