Here I am
another Saturday
I've woken up
with a smokers cough
heaving
at my lungs
like a slow roasting
fire
I've been
smoking
more cigars
lately
Usually seven
would last me
about a week.
Now that many can
only hold it down for
three days
maybe four
I drag myself out of bed
fumble around searching
for my glasses and of course
the phone
I manage to
slug myself to
the bathroom
pop an
Adderall
make my way
out to the porch
I light up a smoke
the cold wind
strikes my
exposed body parts
giving me the chills
**** Texas weather
it's either too hot
or too cold
kind of like me
Still
it doesn't stop
my routine of
having a few hits
my will power
is a slave
to the
rituals.
As I sit there
mean mugging
the cloudy but
still bright sky
I feel the Adderall
kick in
I'm ready to
tackle
the list of chores
With a toothbrush
and some foam cleaner
I scrub
at the bathroom sink
each little blob of
tooth paste spit
gets focused on
and scrutinized
just as I do
with my insecurities
Tossing a foaming
cleanser bomb
in the toilet
it volcanoes up to the brim
kinda like my emotions
have been
these past
few weeks
I scrub at that for a while
living with two boys
can cause **** to go
and get
in
to
everything
I hand wash all of
my black stockings
in the tub
rinse and
wring them out
and hang them
one by one
on the shower pole
There
as they drip
getting ready
to be worn
through the
work week
I sit on the
edge of the tub
and write this poem
despite all the ****
it was still a good Saturday morning
Apr 5, 2025
Apr 5, 2025 at 6:00 PM UTC
Here I am
another Saturday
I've woken up
with a smokers cough
heaving
at my lungs
like a slow roasting
fire
I've been
smoking
more cigars
lately
Usually seven
would last me
about a week.
Now that many can
only hold it down for
three days
maybe four
I drag myself out of bed
fumble around searching
for my glasses and of course
the phone
I manage to
slug myself to
the bathroom
pop an
Adderall
make my way
out to the porch
I light up a smoke
the cold wind
strikes my
exposed body parts
giving me the chills
**** Texas weather
it's either too hot
or too cold
kind of like me
Still
it doesn't stop
my routine of
having a few hits
my will power
is a slave
to the
rituals.
As I sit there
mean mugging
the cloudy but
still bright sky
I feel the Adderall
kick in
I'm ready to
tackle
the list of chores
With a toothbrush
and some foam cleaner
I scrub
at the bathroom sink
each little blob of
tooth paste spit
gets focused on
and scrutinized
just as I do
with my insecurities
Tossing a foaming
cleanser bomb
in the toilet
it volcanoes up to the brim
kinda like my emotions
have been
these past
few weeks
I scrub at that for a while
living with two boys
can cause **** to go
and get
in
to
everything
I hand wash all of
my black stockings
in the tub
rinse and
wring them out
and hang them
one by one
on the shower pole
There
as they drip
getting ready
to be worn
through the
work week
I sit on the
edge of the tub
and write this poem
despite all the ****
it was still a good Saturday morning
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