I have been here on this road before—
in the scorching heat of the village,
the ground too hard,
the air too heavy to breathe properly.
I don’t remember if it was summer vacations
or just long holidays.
Either way, I could never make a score.
I was not good at sports.
My feet never moved fast enough.
My body always felt wrong—
too slow,
too heavy,
not built for running.
I would stumble and fall,
knees scraping against dust and stone,
and if that was not all,
they would gather around me.
Watching.
Waiting.
I told them not to laugh.
I said it like it would change something.
But I was still that little girl
whose chest tightened before every race,
who already knew
how it would end.
I would look at my cousin—
younger than me,
but faster, steadier.
She tried to help me sometimes,
but she couldn’t stop anything.
And I hated her for that.
Now I think—
she was just a child too.
And she could run.
They were not the cruelest, though.
There was that senior girl—
who looked at me carefully,
like I was something to be explained,
and called it
body positivity.
Apr 6
Apr 6, 2026 at 10:50 AM UTC
I have been here on this road before—
in the scorching heat of the village,
the ground too hard,
the air too heavy to breathe properly.
I don’t remember if it was summer vacations
or just long holidays.
Either way, I could never make a score.
I was not good at sports.
My feet never moved fast enough.
My body always felt wrong—
too slow,
too heavy,
not built for running.
I would stumble and fall,
knees scraping against dust and stone,
and if that was not all,
they would gather around me.
Watching.
Waiting.
I told them not to laugh.
I said it like it would change something.
But I was still that little girl
whose chest tightened before every race,
who already knew
how it would end.
I would look at my cousin—
younger than me,
but faster, steadier.
She tried to help me sometimes,
but she couldn’t stop anything.
And I hated her for that.
Now I think—
she was just a child too.
And she could run.
They were not the cruelest, though.
There was that senior girl—
who looked at me carefully,
like I was something to be explained,
and called it
body positivity.
It might not be the best poem and that might be because I just let all those memories turn into a poem