Loving you was easy,
I wanted to wake up,
I enjoyed getting up at 6,
I was happy to text you,
I got excited talking to you,
I felt butterflies when next to you,
I felt okay crying to you
I thought trusting you was scary,
but you made me feel safe...
And now...
I hate waking up,
I hate getting up,
I don't remember what happiness felt like,
I can't even say 'hi' anymore,
Instead of butterflies, it's pain,
I hide my pain so you don't see my tears.
I don't trust.
and now I'm not safe from myself.
You made loving you and myself easy...
Jan 3, 2019
Jan 3, 2019 at 8:33 PM UTC
Loving you was easy,
I wanted to wake up,
I enjoyed getting up at 6,
I was happy to text you,
I got excited talking to you,
I felt butterflies when next to you,
I felt okay crying to you
I thought trusting you was scary,
but you made me feel safe...
And now...
I hate waking up,
I hate getting up,
I don't remember what happiness felt like,
I can't even say 'hi' anymore,
Instead of butterflies, it's pain,
I hide my pain so you don't see my tears.
I don't trust.
and now I'm not safe from myself.
You made loving you and myself easy...