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Apr 2021 · 90
facts
Jan Apr 2021
MY SOUL HAS CRIED MORE THAN MY EYES WILL EVER DO
Apr 2021 · 95
I live
Jan Apr 2021
... with the exhausting mission of finding you.
I truly believe you’re out there.
Apr 2021 · 210
Humans?
Jan Apr 2021
Take a look at all these people,
think how each of them loves, dreams,
how everyone looks at the universe with a different thought…

It’s amazing how humans work.
I wrote this in 2017.
Apr 2021 · 53
You’ve got time.
Jan Apr 2021
But time wants you dead.
I wrote this on 2017
Apr 2021 · 965
Stars remind me i'm alive
Jan Apr 2021
Stars are death galaxies across our sky, they’re hope and dreams, they are there when you just can’t stand one more day, they’re there to remember you that your existence can be beautiful.
I wrote this on November 17th, 2015
Apr 2021 · 291
Doctor, tell me when
Jan Apr 2021
You told me
THINK about your health

You told me
I HAVE to stay in discipline
to get a life to LIVE

Everyone tells me
I CAN'T **** the treatment off

ENOUGH
I don't want to die
I don't want to die
I don't want to die
But
What if I die?
Or worse,
What if I never get healthy?
Apr 2021 · 67
I'm so lonely
Jan Apr 2021
I could've answered
Apr 2021 · 53
To No One
Jan Apr 2021
Is it ok to cry?
I do not feel strong
I do not want to feel strong

Lately, I don't feel anything
Apr 2021 · 1.3k
Moon
Jan Apr 2021
At the beach
the Moon looks closer to me; as if she could feel the cold, the wind,
the loneliness that my heart carries.

I wonder if she's lonely too.

Sometimes I feel like the Moon; she's looking at all the humans,
falling in love,
cuddling,
eating breakfast together,
humans being humans together, but
she's alone.

I feel like that,
everyone around me is feeling something
I can't feel anything
except for loneliness.

I'm in need to love someone and for them to love me back.
I wrote this on September 3rd, 2020.
Jan 2020 · 54
Supermarket
Jan Jan 2020
I am crying
because I am alone

I am crying
because going out  to buy dinner
is a constantly reminder that I am alone

I am crying
because no one is in love with me

I am crying
because I am hideous

I am crying
because I am hideous and no one is in love with me

I am crying
because I went to the supermarket
and saw love
and I am alone
Jan 2020 · 92
No se cuando moriré...
Jan Jan 2020
Vivir asustada
tras la piel de tu propio cuerpo.

No se cuando moriré,
si será mi hígado
mi pancreas
o mi alma que se evaporó como agua...

No sé que comentarán de mí en mi funeral.
Espero no tenga un funeral.
Espero mi mamá sea fuerte,
espero mis hermanos no se sientan solos.

Nunca traté de irme por mi cuenta,
simplemente pasó...
May 2019 · 187
Watch Me Disappear
Jan May 2019
It had gained power over me.
No panic attacks.
No angst to hurt myself.

I was told I was not worthy
of all of that anymore.
It told me, "we are not eighteen anymore",
we got no time to waste.

I slid into darkness and it
welcomed me as an old friend.

"This is a safe place",
one in which no one can
hurt you,
you do not have to be
afraid of who to trust.

In here time passes by,
your dreams fade away,
while a feeling of hopeless
fills the room in.

You do not have to be afraid.
This is the perfect time to disappear.

Darkness hold my hand,
it gave me a hug,
"it is ok to let go",
it was time to let go.
May 2019 · 65
Lying
Jan May 2019
Knowing nothing
is better than
knowing it all.

They caught
my pain,
found a way to
make it bigger.

The blade made me run
out of blood
while it was stuck in my back
and with each, "you can trust me",
it bleeded even more.

Lying,
such a common thing for people to do.
The bad thing here,
people around me
are very good at it.
May 2019 · 127
Depression Dress Code
Jan May 2019
I wear bright colors,
being hopeful that it will make me feel better.
My numbness tells me
it doesn't feel right.

It tells me
I'm a hypocrite in self-love.
I never learned what confidence was,
that it was all fake.

This dress code is...
whatever makes you feel bad,
not worthy,
stupid,
annoying,
then, add some lack of laughing,
lack of sleep,
lack of friends,
lack of trust.
Add accessories such as,
being hurt by the people you loved,
being ignored,
crying on your car
because you are too scared
anyone will see you and think
you are a *******.

You already know you are a *******.
Jan May 2019
I crave a heart
that can feel.

I crave eyes
that will look at me.

I crave arms
that might hold me.

I crave your heart,
which makes me feel.
I crave your eyes,
which will never meet mine.
I crave your arms,
which only hold me
when it’s time to say goodbye.
May 2019 · 400
Give Me Poetry
Jan May 2019
Give me poetry
for the
sickness
of the soul.

Give me poetry
for the
desperate feeling
of being empty.
May 2019 · 504
Emptiness of the Universe
Jan May 2019
I felt the emptiness
of the universe in my soul.
It bursted into living flames,
even my skin burned.

I could barely breathe,
demons had colonized my soul.

I had been living with this
exhausting feeling
for so long, my eyes
had them painted
as to show their most beloved treasure.

They told me,
“do not dare to act like you do not deserve this”.

Who are these demons
wearing my skin?
I might explode into meteorites,
to extinguish what surrounds me, what I loved.

— The End —