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Order in Chaos Sep 2015
4 am is for lovers who went separate ways,
not for the in love asleep in comforting embrace.

it’s for the broken souls wandering aimlessly,
looking for a friend, looking for company.

It's for the painful heart wrenching confession,
or moans of pleasure in the throes of passion.

But my 4am is for the one i hold so dearly,
yet can't have because he doesn't want me.
Order in Chaos Jul 2015
to someone who's found home,
in too many a place
to someone who's found home,
in another face
you can barely be,
their source of solace

I can only hope.
Order in Chaos Oct 2015
Your passing broke me into pieces-
I am now incapable of love.

I'll meet you soon,
*Grandfather.
Order in Chaos Apr 2016
i question but i no longer seek answers
you preach like a saint but you act like a sinner
i brought you into my walls and you destroy everything inside

i miss being indestructible.
but now you're lost within me
burning me out slowly from within
Order in Chaos Jul 2015
Each time I think I finally found you,
you withdraw to your shell a little
I wish I knew you,
& I wish you knew me too
Order in Chaos Apr 2016
My mind wanders to you
those mornings i wake up dreaming of you

It's been years that i've forgotten how you smelled like

But i'll always remember those deep hazel eyes that turn dewy
each time you look at me and breathe a sigh of relief

We were good together, you and i, so good

I still find myself wondering if i would see you in our secret spaces
or if i come across your mind when it goes idle

Maybe in another life, maybe

You will still be my first love,
and honestly,
the only one
Order in Chaos Jul 2015
Just his deep brown eyes
burning with so much desire
could set me on fire
Order in Chaos Sep 2015
In a blink of an eye I lost you.
Just like that.
And I no longer knew what to do
when all I did when I woke up
was to look at you.
Order in Chaos Sep 2015
How painful it must be,
to not have the rest of someone.
All the secret spaces,
that do not welcome you
Order in Chaos Sep 2015
Maybe if you didn't look at me hard enough
You would still find something to love about me;
The lies i created till i believed them-
and you should too

But you learnt the things about me
no one else and i even knew about.
& you decided that the real me
just wasn't lovable enough

& You realised that the real me
just wasn't enough

It's okay.
Everything will be okay.
Order in Chaos Aug 2015
Looking at you, I realise
perfection
does exist in this world

My person.
Order in Chaos Sep 2015
You don't understand that,

In every pain there is beauty
& in beauty there is pain


You don't understand that.
Order in Chaos Jul 2015
holding you alone
I return to paradise
and home all at once
Order in Chaos Apr 2016
We are a perfect match -
Two souls who lit each other from within.
But maybe, that's why we burnt out.
Order in Chaos Mar 2016
If I knew you were coming,
I would have saved experiences,
memories, feelings, my firsts,
and the way it feels when someone
traces their fingertips along my spine.
Order in Chaos Mar 2016
What if you thought you meant the world to someone
But all you are is second best -
The one he settled for
For the one he wanted
didn't want him enough
Order in Chaos Jul 2015
She* still owns
space
time
insecurities
and memories

She still owns
beautiful poems
perfect pictures
faded films
and a lovely voice

She still owns
the smile on your lips
the crinkle on your eyes
the follows on your page
the way you touch

She is
but
all the ones
that you thought
were the one

For

She, still owns
that space in your heart
that I'll never live in
Order in Chaos Oct 2015
I still talk about you in present tense -
like I could still feel your heartbeat
under my fingertips

— The End —