'What do you need?'* you asked
in a sweet solid baritone voice
but the kind that sounded as ice -
cold as if you were standing
barefoot over a frosty grass.
I heard my heart thumped
thrice when your brows crossed,
and your forehead wrinkled,
and began forming to its most
intimidating look.
I was stunned out of the blue -
knocked unconsciously
as if your words came out
fiery from the haunted look
of a horrifying goddess, Medusa.
I tried to understand subtly
the words that rang
repeatedly in my fragile heart,
the whys that kept orbiting my mind,
and the answers
that I couldn't bear to find.
Honey, I was in love
ever since the beginning I've seen
your smile surrounded by stars
and heard your words
sweet as songs of morning birds.
Honey, I'm sorry
for keeping this feeling,
for wanting you impossibly,
and for caging you inside
the rib cage where my heart resides.
Through my bare arms,
conjoined with bittersweet
memories of you and only you,
I'm now letting you go.
I'm letting my love slip
away like droplets of rain in leaves
so no more mornings to keep
waking up with gloom and pain,
sadness and shame.
Because honey,
I knew from the very start,
from the moment we met,
from those nostalgic
autumn vibe memory,
you couldn't give your heart
to a person as fool as me.
i'm reminded by how he treated me when i approached him. idk. i thought we're okay now.