the lights dim
the window pane paints you in a light I've never touched before
I swear we've been here though
with you standing in front of me
like now I need to make a choice; a fork in the road
we told each other secrets to make the nights go easy
and when I reached down and gave you my heart, you turned away
the sun makes you glow
but that doesn't mean you don't have your dark parts
I know you were hiding something from me
blooding dripping from the hearts you stole
I was the only one you ever loved like that
my sister told me you were too good to be true
writing down ****** mystery stories in my journal
making your lies sound less insane and more real
but my skin craves you
the sun sets on us and we're trapped once again
our endless circles of misery chase us
your ex-lover called me, banging on the door
we pretended not to hear the whispers through the walls
I told you not to hurt me again
but I guess I got caught in the middle again
I'm waging wars against anyone other than you, the monster
dig up deep, the past you wanted to hide
show me you're not him
the twilight makes you a ghostly figure
and you've only ever seen me as an angel
I was the only one you ever loved before her, and her, and her
but you made it sound convincing
we never needed anyone to make us fall in love
nature pulled the moon and the stars to our feet
the universe brought you to me
but I tried to run away time and time again
as if my bottled tears could build me an ocean to drown in
I would wipe my tears on your t-shirt
we staged this play of heartbreak and bloodshed
to perform a drama everyone wished they had
but they don't really want this, what we have
my forever, my end
this is the part where you chase after me into the rain
you were never good with romance
only when you had me in your grasp and I let you
I feel sorry for you like your mother does
then again I need to forget you but here we are
the moonlight appears
the shadows draw your figure like my fingers never could
I swear this is deja vu
with me standing here and waiting for you to move
this time you found me
and once more we danced the lover's dance
but this time was different
this time you killed me
take me far away
i'll stay overnight
and you take carry me to my grave
xoxo
-sunshine