To the inspired. To the believers. To the soul searchers.
To those who never gave up. To those struggling but puts a smile to brighten up others day. To those who still believes in love despite the bitterness in this world.
To everyone who sees beauty in the chaos. To everyone who fought for the rights of others. To everyone who sheltered the homeless and the poor. To everyone who accepts everyone despite the color, differences and faith.
I am the queen of euphemism--can't phantom the thought of hurting anyone by my words. Especially if it includes confronting one's feelings and rejection. I was so scared of the posibility that it would destroy him but the damage it would cause me would reach the moon and the stars if i stay silent. And at that night, i digged deeper to the courage section of myself that was burried many years ago.
It was hard. The feeling was new. I was shaking. I was scared. Scared of the words that would wound him. There were moments i wanted to stop myself because he didn't deserve any of it. He was such a nice person. But that was the case, i can't hurt him more. I had to be honest about what i feel than living with a lie and ignoring it. He has a pure heart that would probably melt yours. I can't let him hope for nothing.
But somewhere along the way, the guilt feeling turned into empowerment. I may sound a horrible person, call me selfish, but it's the truth. Empowered because that time, i said something that i was terrified to say. Overcome the fear of confronting one's feelings. And because finally, that very moment, I chose me.
People will betray you. Some closest to you will leave you. No one will care about you. Everything around you will change.
You will cry. Your heart will be broken. You will be lost at some point in your life. You will fail over and over again.
But then you will wake up one day and realize that those things happens to everyone. And no matter what you go through, the truth is, life must go on. You just have to keep moving forward. If there's a darkness, there's a light too.