I wish I could hold you in my arms
All day long
And just call you baby
Call you amazing
Call you my life
I wish your home
Wasn't so hard to live in
And I wish mine wasn't so stressful
I wish things were easier and everyday
Could be just us
Together
I'm sorry I can't always help
But know I'm always here
Because I'll always be
My love is infinite
I'm not going anywhere.

I use to think in forms of poetry
Think of rhymes
Perfect lines
And what other poets might like
But being a poet
Is not about trying
Its about letting
The truth emerge
Letting everyone see the real you
Through the magic of words


*Set yourself free

I wanted to be a poet at nine
I remember writing then
Words about love
A forgein thing
I yearned to know
And I've discovered it now
Years later
But these words
They no longer seem right
Because my poetry
Is meh
I've seen myself grow into this person
One I've gotten at least a little comfortable
I just feel talentless
Like no matter what I say
Or what I do
Its not good enough for society
I'm sixteen
And the world has tossed me around
And I know liars who are better at life
And I know fakes that always get their way
But I work for it
And I know life's not fair
But I tried
And I dreamed
But I guess not all dreams come true
And no matter how long you never give up
The world never gives in
The world never gives chances
But I'm still trying to make them for myself.

I hate honesty
And I hate that no one likes my poems
And I hate that no one will understand this
But writing for me is like setting my heart free

I hate being away from him
Because at night after a long miserable day
I need him close
I just went on vacation
But it was only fun in between
The yelling
And swelling
And the pain
And today I imagined my arms
Cut up
And I hate those thoughts
And I hate feeling weak
I don't wanna watch this kid anymore
He's not mine
I don't wanna hurt
I wanna be with him
Whenever I want
And I want them to stop doubting us
I wanna feel free
To work toward my goals without
These things weighing me to the ground
I want him and school and my dreams
I want to work and be normal
At least a little
I want to breathe and not feel like a monster
I don't wanna be fat
But I don't wanna eat meat and eggs and salads
I want fruit and yogurt and nuts
And I want to smile
I want to smile
With hope all these things will come true
When in reality I'd settle for one
Just one.

You
Have always held my heart
That I can't deny
But one day you'll hold our child
And that
Makes me the luckiest
Girl
Because your mine
Now
And forever
My first love
My first kiss
Will become my last
And that's a love story
That's our story.

I remember when I asked God the questions of life
And I was praying every night for you
I remember how the thoughts never stopped
And how it ached to be away
Then I remember when it started to fade
Because my heart had been soothed
By your proximity
By the site of just you
And suddenly I fought my love
After waiting so long
Because my mind was free
The questions no longer flooded my mind
They only went on in the background like soft static
I remember meeting for a kiss
One I remembered being perfect
One I knew could never compare to another's
And I remember how one surprise kiss
Led to this
Led to us and here and now
Everything is perfect
There is no more static in my head
No questions about this mysterious life
And I know its because of you
Because we are soul mates
And together we're better
Than we ever could be apart.

I love you
I love everything about you

I love your scar
More than words can say

I love your lips
When they smile
When they laugh
And especially when their kissing mine

I love your hands
I love that their so warm in winter
I love that they're the same size as mine
And yet they look overpowering
I love how they move and touch

I love your neck
And I love that you let me bite it

I love your body
And waking up beside it
I love that it only took two minutes
For you to be deeply asleep

I love your heart
And how you care

I love your mind
Because I love knowing
Your thinking of our future too.

Well baby I think you know I just

Love you.

I'm sorry

I'm sorry I'm not perfect

I'm sorry I argue

I'm sorry I say the wrong things


*But I love you

And I miss you
Like its been months
Instead of a week.

I miss waking up to
And I miss waking you up

I miss your scar
And the way you kiss my freckle
And the way you kiss me

I miss your hugs
And I miss holding your hand

I miss being stronger because your near

I miss you
My heart misses you.

I cannot take it

I've spoken to the darkside

I cannot take it

Because I just keep losing

I cannot take it

My heart aches

I cannot take it

As my poor heart is clawing its way out

I cannot take it

This pain grows and when I say unbearable

I cannot take it

Because you don't understand

I cannot take it

But my love tells me to.

I miss you

My heart is being torn

And fear has blossomed

But I love you

And that's impossible to change.

So for now

Know that when I say I miss you

I'm actually say

How badly I wish you were here.

Today I really miss your scar
And the way I'd run my finger over it

Today I'm realizing just how special
Our love is

Just how wonderful our love story is

Today I really missed you
Because my love told me

That I was suppose to be there

To always hold your hand.

I don't like this
Life without you
Is unbearable
I miss you
I need you
I wish you were here
To hold me
To make love to me
To just be close to me
Because I love you.

So much.

You've been gone only a day
And it feels like weeks
I miss you
miss lying in your arms
And the way you kiss my forehead
I miss the feeling of waking up to you
I cannot bare the distance
My heart aches
its trying to fight its way out
my heart is trying to find you
Reach you through the distance
I miss you baby and these words
They've become gibberish
I used to be so good at speaking
When I was sad
But after the gift of you happiness
Became what I was use to.
Now what am I to do
Without any words worth saying
without you.

My heart will ache
Will twist up in pain
For everyday
I cannot hug you
For each kiss I cannot
Plant upon your lips
My heart will yearn
Only to be left
Unsatisfied
To be without you
Yet another miserable moment
For each second
Each moment
That you aren't with me
Know I love you
Know that no matter what I'm yours
Never give up
Because summer will end
And our love will be reignited.

Ignited from lust and desire
I pull down my shirt
So you see
Bare bits of me
And those beautiful eyes of yours
Light up
And I can tell your admiring parts of me
I never could
You want me but for now
We settle for you burying
Your face somewhere just below my heart
I smile
Satisfaction clear
I love that look
Uncontrollable lust mixed with your undying love
Its just perfect.

Today I Kinda needed a friend
But instead I'll be yours
And give some advice


Be happy
Smile
Let me
Hug you
Because in the end
It all be okay
Never give up hope
Never stop fighting
And just keep looking towards the future
Keep looking toward the light
In the end everything will work out.

All I know is that I'm a little lost right now
A lot like you are so often

All I know is this ring on my neck
Is a promise
That I would rather die than break

A promise that I'd one day
Be your wife
No matter what happens along the way

This is me
Telling you
That my heart has always been yours
And that I'm never letting go
The vows we'll one day take
Are already in affect for me

You see I vowed the day I fell in love
That no matter what I'd find a way
To make us work
To make sure
That in the end
You will be in my life.

She called me strong

How wrong she was

I can still see my scars

They sting sometimes

Just to remind me

I was weak

I still am

I heal just to be reopened

Torn apart again and again

There are wounds you do not see

But that I feel

I fight

But it doesn't mean I always win

No one can win all the time

Everyone is weak sometimes

I'm sorry to tell you

That your pain

Will remain

And if it does go

It will return

Suffering

Is a part of life

Being weak

Is a part of being human

We can't be strong all the time

And for now we'll remain

The weaklings that we are

We remain

Alive

And that is our greatest feat towards strength

We'll go on.

We'll survive.

I can already feel
The blood rising
To the surface
Of my skin

I can already
Feel that old ache
The pain
The loneliness

I can already
Feel what it'll be like
Without you again.

Hold me
Like you do so well
Rub my back
And kiss my forehead
Be mine always
For you are the only one
The only one
Who makes my heart
Jump and skip
You are the only one
Whom I have ever
Truly loved
Or truly wanted
You are my past
My present
And my future
You are my
Soul mate.

"Your eyes are glowing"

I know
And yours as well
As you admire me
I love it
Love the very idea
Of this little town
Something draws me in
The pure beauty
The little shops
The sea just moments away
Oh how I love the sea
My eyes fixate on its movement
I love it here
With you
In this place
That feels
Magical.

God has been there
Even in darkness
He listened to my prayers
And even now
He saves me from
Minor catastrophe
I have little faith
In the holy book
But for God
I have all the faith I need
He guides me to safety
He and my love
They rescue me
They try and help
My life to be
Better
They help me through
This rollercoaster of life
I was once confused about religion
What way was right to live
But now I know
None of it matters
As long as I stay true
And never stop believing
In God.

I was born to
Forever be with you*

Because unlike you
I very highly believe in destiny

I truly do believe all my mistakes
All the ****** up things that have happened to me

Was a part of destiny
My mistakes led me back to you

Again and again
It wasn't that we had met and weren't

Meant to be
it was simply that the time was off

I was vulnerable
I was weak

You were stronger
You were still to young for the love I held in my heart

So I believe in destiny
I believe that each moment of torture

Was carefully planned
So that one amazing day

We'd be reunited
And the fates

Made it so that we lasted forever
Mistakes and all

We had grown finally
More mature

We had learned what true love could be
Destiny knew and we followed its path

As soul mates typically do
Now our past is behind us and our future awaits.

I Hate the type of dreams
Where I'm once again
Degraded to a worthless *****
While all I'm doing in reality
is staying faithful to you.

The worst parts aren't
Even how I took it numb
And for absolutely worthless things
But then trying to tell myself
It'd all be okay
I didn't have to tell you
I'd forever hold in that ache
Because I couldn't lose you

Yet I know I could not keep
My tears away
When I were to meet those eyes
All evil commited would come undone
Then you'd see just how bad
Your dream girl can be.

Jolted awake as always
But then I see
Your body
Lying beside mine
And it all seems
Perfect
Every moment
In my life that I've
Suffered feels
So worth him
My future husband
The man whom I
Could not bare life without
My heart settles into this peaceful image
Of his arms wrapped around me
And never letting go
And then I sink deeper and the image of us holding
Our childs hand comes back to my mind
And it just all seems
So
Perfect
Life with you is
All I could have ever wanted.


You are my dream come true.

I love you
I love you
Never forget me
Never forget me
And how
I love you
I love you
More than anyone
Ever could
Or ever will
*I love you

In your arms again
It was like my world set fire
But this fire did not burn nor demolish
Only illuminate
It brightened life for me
Gave me strife
Gave me a reason to fight
For both of our lives
I vowed I would always love you
And I have yet break that vow
My heart loves you more
Than yesterday
And more than two days ago
My love has grown
And has become a part of this fire
I feel your arms wrapped around me
I find it's much easier to see this way
Because the fire of love burning within our chest
They meet and together we burn as bright and beautiful
As the northern lights.