because even when you left
i kept searching for you
tried finding solace
in another's pair of lips
but nothing was ever the same
and i knew that
heaven wasnt a place on earth
but it was a home
that i shouldn't have
mistaken for a house
with you.

she gave me her nudes
she was bare
and naked
and so out
and open
and i willingly
accepted it
because it wasnt the nudes
that showed her body
the physical aspects
that made her beautiful
it was the words
she didnt choose
and the spontaneity
that left her
either from her lips
or her fingers
or ink

she was as bare
as her nudes
and i accepted
her for her.

youre as beautiful
as the sunset
because every time you leave
it makes me want for more
of you

The bright white of ambulance lights
Cast over my face in lieu of the dawn of the new day
As the ferry of Providence pulls away from the shore
The fate of The Matron drives for the line of horizon

I pray

           What's prayer,
anyway?

This close to death
I get the scent
It's coming
It's coming

Once again and
I never quite
Recovered
Recovered

My capacities
From the last time
It found me
It found me

It found me