Some swoon for emerald green
Others melt for icy blue
Stormy grey and midnight black or maybe amber hue
Blended colour of different fleck

In truth, these tones are beauty
Yet none tempt me like another
It is brown, that draws me in
Colour tears through me; comforting and promising.

Traps me in a stupor
The colour of mahogany woods
Deep, dark and enticing
Luring my body into nirvana

Mysterious and evil
Eyes of eagle leaving me blind
Spreading rampant, this fire you elicit
Clouding my mind, invading my thoughts

Colour deep within
Hints of pain and vulnerabilities
No longer can I pretend
It is you from the beginning

Stones of your eyes, they rope me in
Colour of earth-kissed by rain
The hue of life that wrecks my being
Though I try, lacking it seems
It is brown, with wicked glint
Every shade of brown you could imagine
Glowing with warmth, reflecting mischief
Sending me shivers, pulling me in.

I like pens that bleed
Ink that smears
Girls with scars
Broken parts
***** clothes
Stained sheets
The hint of blood
The taste of lust
The smells of love
Nights through morning
Mornings to night
Suns that sleep
Moons that dream
And all the pretty
You hide underneath
Those pretty
Pretty
Pretty things

To the most awesome friend
To the strongest girl I have ever known
To that bubbly girl I met a year ago
To you whom I love deeply
(Although I don’t really show it)

For your broken hearted soul

I do not want to say “stay strong”
For I know you are strong enough to endure this
I do not want to pity you either
For I am sure you’ve had enough of them
But I am going to be here
To keep on writing words for you

You trust no one
And that is fine
I am not asking you to trust me
Instead write your feelings
Like you always did
With pen as your knife
The paper; your skin
Bleed them all out
And I’d still love you the same

Like you said
It is a goodnight not a goodbye
He did not mean to leave you
Yet alone hurt you
For Him who knows
That you are a tough cookie
For Him who believes
That you can keep an eye for your family
To support them
That is why he decided to halt
Take a break from this cruel and harsh world

Dear Sabrina
Promise me not to flight
Do not let yourself drown
Without trying to resurface
You are a great swimmer
You can survive the tides
Have some faith in you
That you can do this
You can make it through

I love you Sab
*Do not cry yourself to sleep

"Someone else has it worse!"
Thank you for making me feel better
Cause, since someone else has it worse I should be happy now, right?
My problems don't exist because someone else has bigger ones
Because someone else has it worse, it gets rid of my problem?
I'm getting the feeling each time someone says that, they believe that saying that makes any problem disapear
Because please,
Please
**Why must I always find joy or gratefulness in the pain and suffering of others?