When love makes angels
Just for me,
They were made to fall from heaven,
As you had pulled me down to hell,
To be bored for all time
With all things sacred.

And my loneliness howls to your ears
Too loud to hear,
And every breath I take
Is a prayer for you to come back.

Deep in the earth my love forgot
Buried where flowers do not grow
Friends or passerby knowing not
The corpse of love does not show

Where weeds cover and rain beset
Whiter than clouds painted in the moon
All life and eternity to regret
The loss of young love gone too soon

This dead not buried in the ground
Like in the empty sky
But in my voice soft and loud
And the every blink of my eye

My guitar strings are broken,
And I can't play without breaking,
Every verse comes out wrong,
But they're all for you.

I keep playing
But the notes don't change,
The sounds cry out
Like they were dying.

My heart beats to the rhythm,
But there's no one to hear
My saddened song.

My strings are snapped,
And they'll sing no sound forever.

With the heavy burden
Of every day
****** not to sleep
For the sun-bells toll.

Off into the world
With eyes still sleeping
With mind still dreaming.

Demands demanding
Of your petty need
To live and to die
So comfortably.

Don't believe in the words in books
Or the speeches of the free,
Or the faces of friends
That smile so casually.

With the heavy burden
Of waking up
Unchanged
Except by age,
Threat of our precious time
And boredom.

Venom dreams of waving smiles
Circled suns all caught in a line
Made of lead tears
That wished you were made
A promise that broke the earth
In a perfect peace.

And then the rain of blues
And the words of white
That washed against the sea walls
And flew kites
Fast against the childhood skies
And made music
For the deaf.

Sunship dreams of *** in rivers
Of ***** that flowed like milk
In a harmony Hellenistic
Like mosaics of the buried past.

Venom dream of number nine
In the ways you will be mine
To hold and love forever.

Serpent sails for the guns of tomorrow
Not bullets in your ironclad heart
That cannot pierce no love or feeling
But rhyme always
Against the fallen grain.

Now is the time to be sacred
And fill your halls with pedestals
Now is the time to worship
And open your eyes in prayers

Now is the time to ring the bells
That will call your saints to preach
Now is the time to love
And love's name will be your choosing

No escape from each other
No escape from ourselves

I'm bored
And tired
And sick
Of breathing

Oh why should I be afraid to live my life
Stuck with myself
And no one else?

The hope for love
Gone forever
With my tears
That once seemed endless

But my eyes are dry now forever.

For you
A kiss
Not for being loved
But for loving
Not for loving yourself
But for loving me

Sail
My sailors
Row on
And **** the wind
And the rain.

And blast your way through
Through and through
And snap time's stubborn neck.

Sail on for infinity trials
Trials not worthy of you
And your judgement eyes
Are the stars of the sea.

Sail not with vanity
There is no desire
Worthy of desire
Open is the ocean
To the end and over.

Sail on to the end
And forget the end
The sun sets
But it's truth is tomorrow.

Jenny killed herself
Because of all the things people do;
It's not much of an excuse,
But it's true.

Jenny's death was quick and painless
Life's pain dragged on too long;
And some people hate pain
More than others.

Jenny couldn't be bothered
To hang around
She was busy hanging
After all the kids laughed
And parents cried.

Jenny was a lover
And a love subject, too;
So many loved her,
If she only knew.

Death is no solution, life is no cure.
Love is no escape
Truth is no salvation.

Just imagine what you freed us from
We're loose and unbroken.

Oh, play on!
We're drugs and truth and *** unpolished.
Unabolished.

Bashed the truth and killed the calf
Here I am
Sacrifice me so sullenly.

And dead to me this chosen few
Given breed this blood to few
My love for few and scorn for many
Seed to love is many in.

All my love
Never added up
To more than zero,
And I have zero rewards to show for it.

All my love
Never gave me
A thing
But songs to sing
All by myself.

And all my troubles
Remind me of love
That sting so sweetly
And grow numb with time.

Year by year
Will shatter the mold
Of the last.

Goodbye without tears
But hopeful cheers
For the last hour.

And you'll pray
Day by day
Not knowing why.

And you'll look
For changes
Change by change
Not knowing how.

It's already gone
But it won't be long
Before the next.

But know how much
You loved it
This time's over
And nostalgia will wrap it
In a warm blanket
Of sugary memories.

Faith will empty you

Strange, but true

And love I never knew

Still my love grew



When you were held in my dying breath

And angels I thought came down

Nothing feels quite like death

But you in your pity would drown



And feeling sick of mice and men

You took me and said, "but then again",

We talked, but that didn't matter until the kiss

You struck me, and never missed



Faith will empty you

Strange, but true

And love I never knew

Still my love grew and grew

Not starving
Not crying
Not tired
Not sick
Not dead
But dying

My ghost and evil mind
My cast green shadow hand
Forgiveness in her hands
Forgiveness

My ghost and evil mind
Thinking of her
My love and only love
To live blindly

Tell me I wasn't wrong
For loving blind

My ghost and evil mind
My duty to mankind
To be myself

Who is god
To be born lonely

My ghost and savage mind
My wars and tattered heart
Like rose splintered
Wanted nothing

Man, in your perfect excellence
And impeccable squalor
My ghost and evil mind
Thinks of you all

The hands turn
Not for time
But for your birth
Your laugh that once
Our first kiss
Our last kiss
My every morning
The hands of the clock turn
In my mind
I know they are mine to turn
With hands of my own

Not for time do they turn
But for her baby
But for your birthday
But for your kindness
But for your reasons
But for you

And again, but
The light hitting your face
And water in your eyes
And someone swearing
At you
And you think evil

The dishes in the sink are *****
And it reminds you of your head

And again she's crying
"save me"
And you want to help
But you're not there
To tell her save you

Black saints ropes
And heavy chains
Lost in the sea...

There is nobody
But you
And when the show is over
And the theater clears
There will be only you

There is no life in my dead eyes
But for you
And for you all my songs will sing

There is no love
But love for you
And the love for you
Is the love of life

And when the stars fade
And the planets are washed away
And the sun goes out
There will be none but you

If for all things the sun shines,
How many years will clouded skies be;
In every breath this stubborn heart still beats.

If for all time the tide sways,
This our song is born a river ocean blue,
And one year between a word
be a mountain before the stars.

If one loss is one too many,
Death like desert secures a drought,
And laughless men dream in their chains.

Cold is the night before the day,
If for all things the sun shines,
The sky will clear for none but you.

Thank you for leaving me
Thank you for ignoring me
Thank you for insulting me
Thank you for making me want you
Thank you for making me hate me
Thank you for making me feel bad
Thank you for making me feel great
Thank you for giving me love
Thank you for giving me ***
Thank you for making me depressed
Thank you for making me desperate
Thank you for making me lonely all my life
Thank you for your kisses
Thank you for your forgiveness
Thank you for your evil
Thank you for selfishness
Thank you for your selflessness
Thank you for letting me love you

For you, my friend, I have a gift:
The endless, and the infinite-
and all that can come of them.

And if you'd like to like it, do so.
And if you don't, don't.
But it's all the same.

Life is one holy river, with ebbs and flows.
It comes and goes, and knows no time.

For you, my friend, there is no end.
But beginning will begin to see;
the island of days drifting into a sea of confusion.

"I love you"
I wrote.
"Ok"
It read.

And the dark of dismay knock no more.
For the wider world's haunting,
Higher than the sky
My love in kingdoms hang.

For the sounds of thought call
out screaming
Not to be heard by wiser ears.
The fortune of our wrists will write our freedoms on the dividing wall.

And the dark of dismay knock no more.
For stronger tides have pulled back evil
That in our own dreams was imagined
And ought not be given shape.

For the worker, deadly at his plow
Bows to no one
And the money-god will not laugh.

And the dark of dismay knock no more.
When all is at the driver's wheel,
All in peace be sought out wanting
Nothing but his love's true deed.
His love's funeral,
His book of sins
And all is sought in the lover's knot;
A field of bones played by the flute.

For the signal of our strength is an untrimmed smile
Higher than the stars,
My love in legacy hang.

For the great war
From within and without
Our holy seed shone through
To bide time until chaos swam,
Free as the shade and the lights of our eyes;
Together look on into the end of all,
And the dark of dismay knock no more.

Wise beyond words
Is the mutual feeling
Love unto death
At time's cruel pace

Thought after fear
Faith beyond thought

Hunt in wild woods
My cruel heart's spear
That paints the night
With the truth of it's victims

Search for the hour
At last
When all is right
And numb my soul
To extinction

The face is a war mask
And the eyes are made for crying
The mouth is poison
And the skull a cathedral
Dreams are dreamt
But are not seen
And sleep is slept
But is not solid

Blue is the sky
Only in day
That veils the black of space
Blue are the eyes
But only in circles
That surround the black
Of our bodies
Blank souls
Never hiding

Words like clouds
That hold only rain
To wash away
And souls
Like words
Are too much alike

Freedom is one thing
You cannot forget
The other
Is losing it

I am the sea
Make for me
Rivers in the sand

Flood the world
And come back to me
I am the sea
And the tide is me
And the sun swims softly in

I can reach
And you'll be there
And I'll pull the world in

I am the sea
Make for me
Rivers in  the sand

When I hear myself,
I think bad thoughts

When I see myself,
I think worse

How many times have we been here?
(Don't answer, you might lose your head)

How many times?
More than 4

How sick do you have to be before dying?

When I correct myself,
I feel better than myself

Please don't think
Please don't think
Please don't think about it

The will to live
Is as simple as knowing,
"I don't want to die"

And if you have the will to live
You have the will
For anything

His plenty health
The beating breath
Beats with his heart
Abounding

Born from bed,
The fountain of the sun
Bathes him

His majesty
In the tower sky
Unfolding fast
The blinding day

Love him,
The laugh of the world
King of tomorrow
And every day

Blood in my eyes
Tells me I'm wise
For letting go

But I was never there
To care
From the beginning

All my hope for love
And evil, too
Trusted to you
And you let go

My bones are broke
My wallet, too
There's a scar inside
And there's no cut deeper

When you die  I want to carry you
Through the lines of tears

And lift you up
On the wings you gave me

There are no oceans but yours
There is no music but your voice

And every day I can hear them well

When you die I want to die with you
And live forever
In the heaven you made

Quick as lightning
Cloaked in sun
Your words went away
Spent on every day
And I wasn't even listening

Burned in a bruised breath
The sting of every sound
From your lips
A million years grimaced
And caved in

For every drop of rain
In your blood
My very heart boils
With the memory of your every feature
Like musical notes
That took a future with you far away

Oft against the shy rocks
The sleep god sounds his horn
To the frost-bitten day.

The birds leap into frenzied flight
Like flames stretching forward
To the cracked blue of the breaking sky.

A hammer in his minds repeats
The recitation of rhyming prayers
A flicker in his fingers fuels the spark to
play the notes that need no singing.

How long tormented
He will to the forest wind
And desert winding walls
The sobbing bells
The maddening world-
How long tormented will his eyes set like the sun
In the ancient hills
And the black angels cry out ceaselessly ?

To us a coroner is already a dead man
For he has seen the face of death and wept.

To us a priest is parent
While he does his best to comfort
He must honorably fail.

To us a teacher is a student
Learning from the young
All things
He was taught to forget.

To us a light is a light
If it can be seen
And that's a very good thing
To us.

To us life's a walk in the park
Through sometimes this stormy weather
But before sleeping on the dark grass
(Lepers that we are)
We send a prayer up to the sky
In wishful thinking
Maybe we'll wake up

Confess the words that are
trapped behind a stubborn mind
and every clause you conceal
because with every tear of light
and sailor in the night
ten million heavy hearts are breaking.

AND DON'T FORGET YOU AREN'T ALONE

think of all the computers
you sat and ate dinner not long ago
thinking you'd be asleep soon
but aha, you've got insomnia *******.

cheer up
for Christ sakes man
it's only a film
and you're at the center
maybe you'll look up some day
at distant stars and think
WOW we're just like that !

Roughed up a bit

Carrying memories to the new year

Holding these inside

Waiting for nothing

But passing through

Every hour

Smooth sometimes

Anguished others

Hoping to keep myself around

Waving at the world as it passes through a stream

Though it ages me

May the time come when my bottle breaks

And I release my soul unto a golden shore

When dark is the cloud my head still in the Savannah sleeps

My heart like a native drum beats to the rhythm of the hours

The great hours flow like one dark river

My eyes in the heavens tell me secrets of the past

My ancient past and ancient feelings

A sick pale like moonlight on the cold leaves

My mind escapes like a wild animal into the grass

My mind with it's own heart racing

It's own drum beating quick to the quick animal breaths

In panic through the tombstone streets lit with souls

Strange dark of ancient days

The pounding drum in my every step

Lighter than the midnight air

And I took to the sky and flew away

Dancing madly through my dreams

Wicked dreams that go unpunished

Vile dreams slipped away into the bottomless chasm of night

My heart sank like a stone into that dark

And I was found panting

Out of breath

Marooned on dawn's naked shores

Spare not my feelings

Sick of friends and rage at the wall

Cool words in silence bleed

And I'm stuck staring at the wall

Fire dance in the milk of life

Drunk and made by the sunlight

Spare not my feelings and ill regret

Wine in our hearts opened the windows of love

I could be made of gold,                                                                                                                                         and dance my life away.
I could glow with praise,                                                                                                                                         I could be lifted by the crowd.
I could charge by the hour,                                                                                                                                     I could make living cheap.
I could dine with kings,                                                                                                                                           or deny them the pleasure.
I could be outspoken,                                                                                                                                             even whispering my voice would be heard.
I could raise the sun,                                                                                                                                               I could command the stars.
Yet it would not make me happy,                                                                                                                          it would not make me sing.
Beyond you there is nothing,                                                                                                                               and no love of anything.

Hopeless sight of the emerald piers
My hazard mind and scattered tears
******* desires forget my strength
Fearing death and life at length
I know little but what I know
Will carry on and forever grow
I've sold my soul and mortal being
To say "yes" without agreeing
I see boats on the horizon sink
And people cower in fear to think
I've seen books burn in great bonfires
And evil men the devil admires
But I'd like to build a Jerusalem with pillars of gold
A place to sin and never grow old
I want more by the day
The impossible, trite, and things I cannot say
Yet I lack for nothing now
Having killed the sacred cow
And finally to stand on the world's end
Crimes behind I cannot amend
And still with tears in my eye
Breathe not a word and quickly die
Hopeless the sight of the emerald piers
My hazard mind and scattered tears

Oh it was good back then
Let me begin by saying
It was good
and never again
I was afraid to step outside
I never committed intellectual suicide
I never prayed but for myself
He needed more help than love or wealth
It was good then
I didn't know much
I couldn't feel pain
Or pain as such
But pain for pain's sake is the beginning and end
Boredom only after to boredom will lend
I was afraid yes of everything
And anything that said my name
For fear of nothing has fear to blame
Oh but once again
It was good back then
I wanted more and more I got
And with pride and faith and love forgot
Still I went with a bleeding heart
Thinking I should play my part
And be a part of life as an uneasy act
With numbed awareness too dull to react
Feeling nothing but for tomorrow's wake
Nothing there but for tomorrow's sake
And knowing better I know not how
But to be and be me right now
And knowing better later once again
Sighing softly," it was good back then"

Nothing that breathes
knows the truth of being
but to be is simple

don't go on
without a thought
for yourself

living the same
and pacified

no hell in heaven
no ashes scattered
in youth

coming like a dog
from the dark
in some woods

go to conquer
yourself

and loving one's own
a vehicle of sweet sound
handed on a plate

oh go,
from rain and snow
a time where we are one

contact
and truth
some truth
we can believe

new england
france
ireland
go loving
soon to drown and die

Hopeless sight of the emerald piers
My hazard mind and scattered tears
******* desires forget my strength
Fearing death and life at length
I know little but what I know
Will carry on and forever grow
I've sold my soul and mortal being
To say "yes" without agreeing
I see boats on the horizon sink
And people cower in fear to think
I've seen books burn in great bonfires
And evil men the devil admires
But I'd like to build a Jerusalem with pillars of gold
A place to sin and never grow old
I want more by the day
The impossible, trite, and things I cannot say
Yet I lack for nothing now
Having killed the sacred cow
And finally to stand on the world's end
Crimes behind I cannot amend
And still with tears in my eye
Breathe not a word and quickly die
Hopeless the sight of the emerald piers
My hazard mind and scattered tears

sadness shows
It comes and goes
And sadness grows
Despite the smile
Or frown for awhile
Behind all our lies
Sadness lurks in smiling eyes

If I could tell you?
I promise not to lie
By and by, I do get by
With you safe somewhere in my mind

Wrapped like a gift waiting for no one
Still, I could tell you many things

Would it be easy not to circle you
With kindness
Sweetness every time
And put myself in your hand
Or let you wear me like a jewel

I'll keep it up
By saying nothing
You'll have a kiss
For every word

They sneak away in plain sight
And leave with an empty stomach
Only wanting more

Best not to offer answers
When you must know
How many angels may dance on the head of a pin
There are no angels
But the answer is seven

Best not to offer answers
When death is made of dust
And no soul like a phoenix
Rises from those ashes

Best not to offer answers
But enjoy your time alive
That seemed but a moment
When you have moments left to breathe

In Babylon she cries in red
In Babylon her stains of blood
And wine falls from fountains for us
In Babylon the streets are red

And Babylon she screams for more
Outside every shelter's door
And Babylon lifts her thighs
To the hot air and incense skies

Juvenile faces mixed in mud
How sweet our sorrows go
And Babylon today has wept
Tomorrow is on her feet again

And mark well, the faces in the street
The priest in passersby
And be gracious to everyone you meet
And we will love before we die

Lions are majestic
Or, I was told so
Once they were majestic
Rampant beasts in far-flung savannas
Mythic lords of the dark continent

I didn't hear the lion roar, not even once
Everyone was disappointed
Even our pet cat wasn't so lazy

What a joke the lion is!
Sleepy from doing nothing
Growing fat behind it's bars

A million fingers pointing at it
Waiting for the lion's pride
They all laugh, and the lion waits for dinner