We are two worlds apart
But standing on one
I have green grass
& you have sandy dunes
Gravity tries to pull us back
But I’ll never live in your hell
You keep a constant orbit around my mind
But theres no room for you in my galaxy
Love wasn't the problem
It was always you

Shadows consumed the beams before me.

Gritty dust coats the air like a thick haze.

The voices that call out to me have been hushed.

With the glass bridge shattered,

I’m stuck in this grey world alone.

I thought I couldn’t sleep with the light off

but I guess the dark doesn’t bother the blind.

Emotions
are sticky
I’m tired
of the same feelings
over and over again
like a record
on repeat
and i just can’t seem
to turn it off

Wide awake
My eyes sting
My head hurts
My mind keeps running
Like its got no place to be
My body lays paralyzed
As i beg from my soul
Please stop thinking
Please, please go to sleep

It starts like a spark
Words overflow in my mind
Feelings flood neck deep
They spill in a funnel
And onto the page
Shaping and pulling
And molding its essence
Then the mind drip drys
Words turn to mush
My thoughts frozen over
I rip out the page and start again

I sit at the small wooden table
Basking in the fire's warmth
As I eat with my family
I mutter a witty statement
And sister hits me with her spoon
Laughter fills the room
I blink and its all gone
I sit alone at my apartments counter
Eating nothing more than instant ramen and thinking about those days i miss

It tastes like the static of the TV
A continuous numbing void
That consumes all thoughts and dreams

There's no where to run and hide
The weight of it all is my confinement
And it destroys that last piece that ever made me human