when I look at you
I see a shallow kid
who was once so sweet
before all you did
once had a dream
once caring, or so you did seem

now, you stupid kid
you're so messed up
you stupid kid
you messed me up
you lied to me
and you did see
me fall so hard

I was a girl
a young girl crazy about you
believed you cared
and for a minute, it was love we shared

you left me a year or so later
made it with some girl
I did hate her
I remember crying in your arms
as you pretended to care
when you left
turns out your mind had been there
not here
not right here with me

and time went on
after it all went away, I still had hopes for someday
and some nights I would still cry
then it was a year after you left me
when to the other girl, you said goodbye
and now you're alone
but I just got over you
for a while, I gave you all I had
and now just the sight of you makes me mad

you come on by from time to time
"get out!", I say
I no longer want you mine
now you don't see me as more than a piece of meat
your hands on my body
sort of like you own me
but you don't
you don't

I tell you to get away
because you messed me up
so I don't want to hear what you have to say
you're so different
so unlike the boy I knew
now I truly don't like you
you don't respect me
you think I'll give you myself
because at one point I did
way back when you were someone else

so leave me alone
please don't stay
leave me alone
you've already gotten your way
and now we're done
don't you see
after the hurt, you don't get me physically

I won't put out
I won't give in
I won't listen to your words
as you try to prove your greatness
you know, I truly hate this
so I don't want to hear it
I don't want to hear
looking back, how did I  handle you that year?

I'm restless
was wondering how to end this
was hoping for a change
while you wanted things to stay the same
and I just couldn't sit around
hoping for you to move
couldn't sit around
hoping for my life to improve
so I went out to seek something different
but you just sat there, like you couldn't

and then I went ahead
because I know there's someone more important in your head
I can't sit around listening
and not feel restless
boy, am I a mess
even still when I think about that photo
of you in suit, and her in the dress

but I mustn't dwell
too much longer
it didn't go well
as those feelings got stronger
so I walked away
as you stayed the same
you didn't want to come along
which truly was a shame

but you are content
sitting in that place you sit
you stay content
I suppose that's the end of it

it's a sad thing on my mind
and maybe right now it'll be hard
but I'm going to be fine
cause' in a month, I'll have moved along just that much more
maybe then I would have picked myself up off the floor
So I'm not going to fret
I'm going to stop thinking of all I regret
cause' it'll be just fine
it'll be alright
I'll get back on my feet so I can take flight
the cure is time
sad to say
things don't always go my way
I accept this, so I can live
find something new
in just more time to pass by
and eventually about all this I will no longer cry
It's okay
It's okay
I'm going to keep reassuring myself day by day

stuck between my mind and heart
between what feels good and what's smart

hoping and knowing
are two different things
hoping is dreaming of being the song he sings

...while knowing is logical and real
I KNOW what I feel
but also know the situation
in which I'm hoping to rid of my isolation

of being alone
though I know what I feel can't be shown
I HOPE to help myself
but KNOW that there's someone else...