tinsel wrapped arms
lights twinkle in my eyes
and his
staring

hold my head in my hands as i leave my body
each touch a reminder of my sins
that aren’t mine.

and never were.

hello, dearest friend

i nearly lost you today

i thought this was done.

táim óg agus tá mé sean
dá fheicthe ná rudaí a bhfeicim
páistí, cairde, clann
tá súile againn uilig
tá chroí againn uilig
tá saoirse againn uilig

tá ádh orainn
ábalta labhairt
ábalta canadh
ábalta am a caitheadh lenár teaghlaigh
níl an t-ádh ag gach duine

glac cúpla soicind
nuair atá tú ag gaire s' ag guí
glac an deas atá agat
agus cuir é in úsáid.

sing soft your silky sentence
my skin is tainted by your touch
others may try but i keep my distance
i fear i may feel too much

a quiet but present voice
you don't speak when spoken to
it never seems to be my choice
you know me through and through

tell me a lie, sweetheart
i can't promise i'll hear it
i'll try and swallow the words
wash them down with your guilt.

My fingertips face yours
Electricity
Magnets in space
Try so hard but never reach
Your eyes sink into me
I wish your hands would
And not let go.

My back to you
Feel your eyes
Your hands
Soft and calming
Then
Deep and prodding
Texturising my skin

Ghosts
Following our paths
Resisting touch
Avoiding touch
Long to embrace
Try to teach myself
To repel.

your eyes trace my skin
count my freckles
reel me in

my breathing is heavy
the space between us is thin
kiss me already
either way, you win

i've tried to change my mind
practice what i preach
go back in time

when you think of me at night
wrapped up in your thoughts
hunt for me, lover
tell me what you find.

brisk october bruises my cheeks
my thoughts are chaotic
my voice is calm

i gave all my oxygen to someone who could breathe
he ate my heart whole
when we drowned ourselves in the darkest parts of each other