Nestoria LR

Nestoria LR Aug 2016

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it was like i fell in love with an open casket
once i fell in
i was already six feet deep in
the problem was
sinking lower

#love #what #this #but #is #yeah #dunno

Nestoria LR May 2016

fool proof

youre the opposite side of my day dream
some kind of midnight answer
to the questions we lost upstream
im leading you through the truths
but nothing i say is fool proof

Nestoria LR May 2016

your almost-eulogy

i often hear holding things dear,
ive never been sure why "forever"
felt as suffocating as this deal im making
with the devil,
this life im faking, lives ive been taking

why is forever, a wide eyed believer?
greener than greed, darker than lust
poison ivy climbing from out of my eyes
just to remind me
that forever
will always stay longer
than you ever would.

you know i'd never forget it, not again

#love #loss #poems #my #blank #forever #verse #****** #commitment #hahha

Nestoria LR Apr 2016

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ive never been a person
to see the word without feeling worse and,
dear god
stop looking at me with eyes
telling me to let lies
spill from my open mouth

ive never been a person
instead i am
a lethargic mass
humming to the beat
of my own convulsions

Nestoria LR Apr 2016

"dont panic"

the room is dark and you cant breathe
all you can hear is the rushing
of breath between your chapped lips, breathe
you tell your body, leave,
you tell your mind.

there's too much sound
in this silence.

#anxiety #blank #panic #verse

Nestoria LR Apr 2016

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hello to my shadow
sewn into my heel
witness to my late night rambles
and emotions in shambles.

i often ponder on what it may wonder
if you were my shadow for a year
how many curse words might you hear,
how many times would you sit
and hear me cry

#rhyme #free #verse #with #some

Nestoria LR Apr 2016

you and your girlfriend

write about how love has changed your life
little sayings about happiness

but did anyone see the knife?
as you proceeded to undress

"i only care for the dopamine"
you said

is that why you carved your name in her back,
why she never knew the dread?
*"it was all in your head"

this is kinda rage writing honestly..
it may seem like this is a break up poem.. but no, this is not a break up poem
its more of a i-wish-they-would-break-up poem.
and no it isnt romantic envy, i just genuinely am put off my seeing these people together and idk i hate one of them for other reasons but yeah its not okay to dwell on that kinda **** but HAH ******* HERES A POEM ABOUT ME DWELLING ON IT

#poem #hate #romance #me #*** #about #free #verse #utterly #dopamine