i'm usually good with words and putting together sentences in an attempt to create a sensation similar to looking up at the stars just to see them looking back at you. i'm often good with words and writing paragraphs and stories of happier days and lives that are better than the one that i'm living. i'm typically good with words i could string together plenty of sentences about why we'd be good together but it's to the point where no words can describe the high i get from being around you. you've taken my vocabulary and shuffled my letters and stole all the xs and os and replaced them with my longing to steal all your xs.
the day your lips greeted mine the time my fist grazed your chest the instances where my tears rolled off my cheeks the lies rolled off my tongue the infidelity the abuse the dependency
you extra fry in the bottom of the bag you sleeping in on a tuesday morning you good hair day you all night drinking with no hangover you warm towel straight from the dryer you new friend in the back of a new york taxi cab you misinterpreted abstract art you lost concert ticket you frost bitten fingertip you half dranken water bottle you misspelled word you unwanted bouquet on valentines day you deadline yesterday you uncashed check you college rejection you cannibalistic praying mantis you paper cut from an envelope you coup de tat you cat got your tongue you swallowed words you split lip you straggly strand of split ends you broken vase you five missed calls you broken necklace clasp you half hearted apology
not blue, not green o, nothing loud not pink, not red gray mo·not·o·nous simple, relaxing the color of rain clouds and sleeping in on a tuesday morning and the cool breeze of a lake in january and the smell of pavement after it rains
in your backyard slaying dragons with a twig for a sword the worst pain i knew: a splinter. in my driveway playing hopscotch, hide-and-seek, tag-you're-it the worst pain i knew: a scraped knee in our own rooms in our own beds texting other people the worst pain i know: missing you