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 Jan 2013 Natalie Suss
Amber
Words
 Jan 2013 Natalie Suss
Amber
The words stay.
My pain increases.
The truth are now all lies.
Something keeping me from dying.
My problems start adding on and on and on.
Over and over blood, sweat, tears.
Mistakes rome over my wrist.
My friends decrease.
I am alone.

Problems
Blood
Pain
Sweat
Tears
W­ords
Truth
Wrist
Lies
Dying
Alone
Mistake­s
Words

The years turn into days.
My future is death.
No one left.
Mistakes.
Alone.
Tears.
Words.
Slow walking,
This ghost, it sighs when I sleep.
**** not I, but you and they.

Lies and betrayal are all I know.
Tilt to the sky they say,
Hooks grapple me to the stone.

Breath, take this legs and walk.
Then swivel humble over your tongue.
Humility, a virtue not mine.

Better version of me,
Climb and sit, stars tell stories.
Choices, good day or a bad one.

Where did I learn?
On my own, without a face to say hello too.
Night walks when everyone is sleeping.

I can't live within my head
Pretending they're besides me.
Plains of desolation.

Close your eyes and let him find you
I'm lying to myself, still Austin.
Child stuck in a mans body.

Don't worry child,
Look into your fathers eyes.
Be your own king in a gold throne.
Be one with yourself.

Take these wings of the hawk,
My father said,
Heaven has a plan for you Casey.

Take a hold o Casey,
Say goodbye to Austin.
I left, I ran, and I never looked back
A home is a safe place with love and light
These demons on my arms don’t agree
My parents have gone down the Train tracks

The cold steel guided me far into realms
Into skies too blue and trees too pure
I hungered for food, but food for my frozen heart
I kept traveling down the Train tracks

I stopped at a tunnel, no light I could see
The shadows were whispering, until she appeared
The girl, eyes glimmering like tears of a goddess
Told me her tale down the Train tracks

She, like me, was almost sold to horrors
Hers scars were far worse than my demons
She so left, she ran, and she never looked back
So we traveled down the Train tracks

That night we bonded, and saw the stars fall
The wolves were hunting for blood and pride
They caved us in our tunnel, our sanctuary
And I could not see light down the Train tracks

Am I still breathing? Where is she?
“I saved you, I healed you; but you cannot go in your state”
I told the kind doctor my tale and hers.
I told him I must find her down the Train tracks

I couldn’t; she was becoming a dream, I was scared
Slipping my mind like the dew on the leaves
So sweet, so blissful, my heart was warm in her hearth
I shed my tears and they went down the Train tracks

I had a goal, to find a home
I headed to a city with lights and love
Seeking a sign, seeking a hope, of anything
Other than the things down in the Train tracks

I stopped at a bar where some rich actors were eating
One, an old man, looked me in the eye
His eyes were shimmering were confusion
As if asking himself if I went down some Train tracks

My hunger grew endless, my aching made me weak
He dropped his leftovers in a bag to my startled hands
He smiled and patted my head, walking slowly like I had
Walking slowly, as if going down his own Train tracks

I looked inside the bag, and my heart shattered
My pride was lost, my judgments now pointless
I ran and tried to chase, the rain beating down upon me
Like my heart beating down underneath the Train tracks
 Jan 2013 Natalie Suss
Bria Prior
Can't win
Stuck in between nothing and space
Floating aimlessly
Trapped here with all the other wingless flies
Death is the final freedom
When will I be set free?
I don't remember, any more,
The exact shape of your hands
As I held them in mine,
Caressed them,
Memorized the length of your fingers,
The depth of your calluses.

I don't remember, any more,
Exactly your height, how much
Taller than me
You were, where
My head rested on your chest
When you held me tightly close.

I don't remember, any more,
Your scent, when we lay together
Creating our own
Magic rhythm,
Matching our heartbeats as we
Touched the sky, together.

I don't remember, any more,
The sound of your voice, calling
My name as though
It were a song
Within itself, a precious treasure
You valued with all your being.

And I don't remember, any more,
The color of your eyes, the shape
Of your lips,
Only...
How your eyes crinkled at the corners
And your laugh, as you told me,

"I love you."
Copyright by Ash L. Bennett, 2011

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