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1.2k · Dec 2022
The guilt I feel for you
Pretty Bicc Dec 2022
I don't know what it is that drags me down
After every episode, I feel it
I am not worthy
I am useless
I am ugly
All because of me
I pushed everyone away from me
Who was left, were you
I always feel guilty when I see you
You are there, holding my hands, hugging me, healing me
I feel guilty
You are there, hurt by me, crying, screaming, begging for help inside
Gets taken by the police and goes to the hospital
I heard it, felt it
I am guilty
Because I can't and couldn't be there for you
But hang on...
I will be there for you someday
When all this is over
I will be standing there for you
I don't want to feel guilty again...
Being bipolar is like
I am trying to seek help and fix all this happening to me. I don't understand what is happening to me. is this me or just how my life is.
Pretty Bicc Dec 2019
I tell myself everytime
DO NOT LOVE ANYONE MORE THAN YOURSELF
Then when i´m starting to love someone
The words in my head remind me everytime
DO NOT LOVE ANYONE MORE THAN YOURSELF
Then i keep myself away from you
It will hurt for a while but
If i didn´t do that
I will suffer forever.

DO NOT LOVE ANYONE MORE THAN YOURSELF!
it happens everytime i just startin to love somebody then i feel that i am loving them too much every second i miss them but the horrible thing is they lost my trust when they know i love them. Then they r starting to behave wierdly and that makes me feel soo bad and sad. Or maybe im too sensitive.
262 · Dec 2019
The most extraordinary one
Pretty Bicc Dec 2019
You are the strangest that i know
Cause the way you look at me is filling my heart with love
You are the ugliest that you know
Cause the way you be insecure about your self
You are the hottest that i know
Cause the way you do is playing with my nerves
You are the cutest that i know
Cause the way you act is making my eyes only on you
You are the only one for me
Cause i can´t see anyone except you.
179 · Feb 2021
MT
Pretty Bicc Feb 2021
MT
The skin I lived in
The Last memory I kept in
The person I fell in
The feeling I had in will all just disappear
When my eyes closes themselves forever
173 · Aug 2020
A dark yesterday night
Pretty Bicc Aug 2020
“It was raining.
I was laying on the floor in the bathroom. NAKED.
He came to me and lifted me up from the floor and took me to his bedroom.
He said to me that how much i scared him.
He kissed me on my forehead and covered me with a blanket.
Then i closed my eyes.
Colorful scenes made by my thoughts in my head was giving me headache.
I felt like my brain was iced. My body was not in my control. It wasn’t moving.
I was terrified.”
2020.08.22
84 · Feb 2020
depression
Pretty Bicc Feb 2020
There is a big hole inside me
But has no light
Can´t see anything
Or find anything
It´s empty
But I know there are old pictures which became black and white.
i lost myself in the hole. and I hate it.

— The End —