Midnight run
running my mouth...
uttering my thoughts,
You stayed quietly
Absolutely you turned your back like---
I don't exist, you shut down.

Midnight run,
my mind restless --- unsure of my nefarious notions
slowly creeping the words of insecurity

"you make me feel this way"

Midnight run,
I'm out of breath
I'm out of time
I'm out of love

Midnight run,
My heart is gone.

Even flowers do not bloom at the same time,

The earth will be dull if they all do ----

So why are you forcing your floret to open?

You are not a Rose -- it grows in cool

Sunflowers blossom under the bright sky ---

Whilst your time is in Summer day.

As for seeing the beauty of the world,
Knowing the truth is better…

Than a mountain that no one climbs
Than a flower hidden from the bees
As the ocean where nothing swims
As the calm not experiencing the storm

The beauty of the world,
Comes from the ugly truth

Someone have to suffer,
Someone have to succeed to tell the story.

I own me ~

You can hold me ~

Take me ~
but in the end ~

I Let you handle me

I own me ~

Neither your kiss or your caress,

will ever assigned myself to you

I enabled you to hold me ~

Willingly, Fully

then here we are...
trying again - after a fall
   everyone expects you relate to a meme
so you did... but you will not pursue it!

then here we are...
you tried, again and again
  only difference is you encounter unlike faces with same heart

charmed, captured and you are ready to be taken away

then here we are...
another day, where you left crumbs of you
feels like the pigeons following you around town
where all you wanted is a dove --

clock timid down, energy drained
then here we are...

this time completely different
rarity of defined good -- though you doubt
cause your passion completely ****** up out of you

where's the fate... sanity that you thought you still have

then here we are...
you just let it be, this is good
this is good ----
you calm yourself

smoke more cigarettes, you wish the smoke will take away memories...
then here we are...

I reject the likeness of you _
To resolve this, I lied and become the finest of you

I reject the sameness as you _
To avoid this, dishonesty pleasures—
I believe the untruth

I reject the appearance of you _
Through the looking glass I continuously hate the one who stares back at me

I reject your charm _
Where most who encounter me seems to be magnetize to my own charisma

I reject the way you think
And here I am discerning how not to be you

I reject your cheating heart
I saw mom suffer from this and yet I cheated

I reject your rejection
Where I thought I forgive but I still despised your presence in my head...

as scared as you may be...
as fragile and pained your heart had been...

try to find love
seek it as fast a jet
as quick as a bullet

let it turn you upside down
let it burn you with its blue flame
let it break you until your an ash --
                     let the wind carry you

leave your thoughts behind and follow the shattering noise
let it consume you
let it leave you under the rain
                      when you are all deranged and cold

no shelter, no room
no fancy dinner, you cannot rest assure

let it whisper sweet nothings
let it gently ripped you apart
                       almost like the autumn turns to winter

try to find love
that will torture your soul
that will remove all your beliefs in passion
                       tangle you in the most chaotic way possibly

let it take over you

just find love and give it all away...
for love is not that simple
don't fall in love with the idea --
                   Find love and give it all away.