I'm high as a star
Spent the night gazing at mars

I left my head by Pluto
I came back to bed
I can see the stars when my eyes close

The half moon brighter than full
I only ever wish I could look closer
that I could turn off all the lights

Living in the city
I see airplanes pass by
all the time



//

I stare into Venus
Slowly moving behind the mountains

It won't be long
till I see it tomorrow

Sunday at seven
hiding in my room
music really loud

glancing
peeking
out the window
dancing in the dark corners

it won't rain
she really loves your face

you're too nice for her tainted hands
she'll break your heart in a short moment

green lights
you might need to disappear and never come back

passing all red lights
stop signs

I see the fall

your fortune teller

please go home

she'll play mind games

I want to see you fall

I love my bed
I love your smile
and the scent of your perfume

We will fade

I know time moves past us
You will fade

Like clouds after a storm

And when the world sleeps

I will fade

Leaving me behind

I've never met anyone
walk by my side

We fade
into the smoke
of our pain

Dust in the wind
I can hear you go

I don't want it
I've sacrificed my life


I'm fading

As long as I see you smile
I'll be okay

I dream the same moon
over and over

Lightning behind wicked clouds
I'm running the streets
pitch dark

It's raining
but I'll find myself

Everyone is asleep
I'm on the edge of feeling alive

I'm running
lights flashing above

The rain can't touch me

I know I'm close

When the night falls
I become myself

Looking for my other half

I remember

I'm running

Am I out of the light
Am I in the dark yet

Everyone I meet
wants to hide away

they want to cover up their name

they don't like their face

they write short poems

and stay anonymous

often talking with strangers
who don't know where I am

wish she would stop picking ******* over her friends

what does all this love amount to

wide awake
can't ever find you

I try to give her love
she's off staring into another galaxy

I know her parents don't love her
the sky gets darker
with clouds

the rain kills her mind for a while

she wants to drive around
in a thunderstorm

wish she'd stop taking pills
that twist her brain

but she smiles the same
never reaches her eyes

I hold her hand
hoping she can feel them shaking

drowning with the air she breathes

what should I be

what can I do

I need you

she needs something else

she said she wants it to rain again

and I talked to the clouds to make her wish come true

eye rolls
every time I tell her she's beautiful

all my life I was treated like a porcelain doll on a shelf

she's cutting her wrists
says blood is so romantic

how I'd love to save her from her head

and together we lay in bed
watching the clouds come into our sky

there are things I wish she'd change

for now we fall asleep at the sound of raindrops hitting the roof

I spilled out lies
when I never had

I was true with you

How could I change that

You know better than to believe me

She leaves

I really am pathetic

For thinking we could talk as if nothing happened

I want to believe
I'll come around

See you again
in a different space

I am constantly changing

I love the sun in the dark
and miss the moon in sunlight

There are days where I love you
and others when I forget

I feel blue
tonight

I hope I start to see the colors of life
soon

I feel my heart beat
In my hands
And feet

I can't feel it where it's suppose to be

I hate the summer sun
July
August
Are never any fun

I start to write until my head goes blank

I wish it were night not day

My life feels like a machine
I can't turn it off
I won't believe

I love him
But belief is far

My faith so gone

She says it's all from a God

I hope for more than one
or none

Staying for a while
seems like I'm stuck with you

Dust covers our room
and I can't go outside
Can't breathe good

Close the windows
I don't want to feel the heat

I can't love you
the sun

The drought gets worse

I'm dying
around you

I can't breathe

I want to leave

I want to see you out the door
erase every trace of you

Feel clean

Send me hope
And dead roses

Wake me up when the sun is rising
and never let me sleep alone

We use to be static sounds
I'm so happy we came around

All I heard was white noise
draining down the plastic feeling

Told me you knew how I was feeling

I want to be your friend first
I want to hear your truth
Melt away the lies

I'll give you love letters
and a smile

I'll give you my head for a while

Can't help you

I have no heart for it

I feel each day a little loveless
The more you want from me
The less I become

I stopped hearing my heart beat

This is the summer I feared

When the rain falls down
I miss you

What to say
Smile fading away

In a instant
Flash of lightning

A flood of feelings
I can't touch

Drowning in doubt

When the rain falls down
What to see

Thunder in my head

Knew this was coming
The storm far away

Appeared before my eyes

Where do you go
When I close my eyes

And I try imagine where you stand
disappearing on the spot

I wonder
I wander lost

I can't retrace your steps

Ready or not
I go into the dark

Before dawn

Everything is everywhere

Where do we go
After dark

Have to many people blowing up my phone

I just want to take some time alone

I got questions here and there

Just because I'm lonely
Doesn't mean you have to talk to me

I want to sleep in
all day

Without hearing my phone ring


Leave me be
For a day

Stuck in a photograph

Forced to smile

Staring into the moon
I'm drawn to you

Breaking my heart
Slowly ripping myself apart
It no longer hurts

I sleep and dream in paradise

Are you mad?

Are you mad
I'm over the moon

I'm so far away
Flying over the moon

I thought I told you
I can't fix you

You are
Who you are

I can buy you bandaids
It'll never heal your broken veins


When we're together I can't hear you breathe

Are you mad

I'm not here
Beside you

On the moon
Looking down on you

Sometimes my imagination scares me

Empty stomach
crying your name
I wished upon a star
for a cloudy day

I lied
I lie
I never find the right moment

They expect the best
I have the worst inside me

The roses left behind

I never want to look back

I've only ever felt euphoria
in silence
alone

And I've been waiting for the right one
to speak with a voice
filled with serenity

I hope you find me
but I'm playing
hide and seek

I love disappearing
I love being a mystery

I've seen you before
and you've only heard my voice

Playing hide and seek
I hope you find me


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But I am so hidden away

I can't see someone face to face

And I wish I could be the kind of girl
You like

The one who drinks tea
and isn't shy

I have messy hair
and my clothes doesn't reflect
who I really am

I hate the way tea tastes

But I would be more than happy
to throw a tea party
If you're invited

Oh how I miss the rain
in this pouring sunlight
that heats up my bed

I miss the way it sounds

Look away
it's a beautiful night
the stars are coming alive
such a beautiful sky

I'm the wind
you can't escape

Living in a dream world
when I wake up
life feels like hell

I write with my pain as my pen
blood into the page
& my mind won't leave me alone
not even when I'm on the phone
I talk
I speak
I'm in the ruins
I'm a destroyer

lost in a dream
running in the night

I'm an honest person
If you can take it

Sometimes I read poems on here
and think
How did you make it?

Staring off into space
She's not okay
It's okay

Everyone is telling her she's lazy
So she hides away

From the feelings
kept inside

Didn't finish that one show on time

The earth feels like its heating up
and we'll all die

Secrets are just pretty lies
and I give them away to the ones
who aren't suppose to say

She calls me three times a day
but I only ever answer
to hang up right away

Talk away about your day
and how your perfect job
kills your brain

I'm sure you're not interested to
hear about my day

I'm waiting outside
when everyone is inside

Can I fight off the evil feelings
can I reach the sky
become Infinite

I'm only ever myself online
so I might become a virus
to **** off my mind

I'm no poet
I know no poems

I'm no writer
I write no words

I'm no artist
I have no art

running away from all the titles
my friends like

I turn off the lights
and if no one loves me
I'll go to sleep

I disappear all the time
hoping I can see the future

I see my name
in someone else's face

it feels strange

turning off all the windows
closing the lights
switching on the sun at night
push the moon into the pool
of my confusion

july makes me weak
feeling like summer

I don't belong anywhere

Promised me a new phone
know that's another lie of yours
wish of mine

Maybe next time we talk
I'll tell you there's new moons around Jupiter
It'll be months till then

If you really knew me
loved me

You would notice how blue I sound
hearing your voice
answering your useless questions

I'll always be tied to you
whenever we meet
nothing is new

My love for you
I never found

So empty
the we sound

I love the words of a girl

you painted a starry sky
on your nails
and the reflection in your eyes
says everything you hide

not sure what to do
I wish I could be with you

be well
sometimes listening to your heart
can break you apart

and if you think it's love
it may not feel like love

open your sad eyes

the world is waiting for you

hugging you
is like having the sun in my arms

warm and bright
never letting go

It's almost noon
where do you go after nine

hearts beat slowly
never leave me


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do ever wonder
how the sky became blue
and how the night brings us sleep

----

hugging you is like having the moon in my hands
and I'm your little star

Insanity is keeping me
from ever having a straight face

en la luna

no veo nada

los momentos que estuvimos juntos

en el espacio que nunca tocaré

y ahora me arrepiento

porque no estoy contigo

necesito una eternidad
para pensar
lo que hice mal

I've been walking through shadows for years

I've been fighting battles
no one can hear

The sun has vanished from my world
it's no longer here

I've lost you
My greatest fear

.. When the sun comes back
I'll be running to find you
I'll always come back

the dark will always haunt me
not if I shine back a light

When the sun has returned
I'll be sure of it all
I'll start a new beginning

No more walking with ghosts ..

All I ever wanted
to be better

Lying to myself
again and again

Makes me so sad

I hate myself

Trying harder

Don't let it get to my head

I'm a hopeless case

Lay around instead

It's all to much
arrows shooting at my mind

Full of hate
consumed

I can't wait to fall asleep

Writing about the stars
I haven't seen the night sky in days

I realize I could be talking of
Mars
Jupiter
and Venus

Please wait
let me turn the lights off

Stay with me


I'm trying
sleep never comes

I never notice my eyes fall shut

I don't notice the sun is up

Stay beside me

things moving in the dark

Fall asleep with me
till my eyes see through the shadows

and the stars turn hollow

I ate
but feel so empty

miss you
so little
just a little

it's a white dream
you ever loving me

your empty body
scares me

I don't understand the feeling

I've studied your eyes for so long
never did I find an ounce of love

I'll forever be your doll
I break and fall
when you throw me to the floor

I listen to whatever you have to say
and you brag to all your friends

I read your eyes
to try and find
I swim through your lies
deep dark nights

/ //
when I realized you didn't love me

a weight from my heart was lifted

a flash of green
visions of blue

I've been so focused
everyone starts to fade away

waking up to a white light
I get cold through the night

expecting you to be beside me

should I believe we're friends
or should I think nothing

taking out my heart
thought you wanted it

keep on running
I know where you're hiding

Escaping reality
this is not my real life

My blue life
dark blue

Feel the energy draining from my body

I'm not in my mind

This isn't real life

I forgot the key
to my head

Somewhere in this blue life

I see green

So close to waking up

I'll fall asleep

keeps me up late at night
wandering around
  the foggy lights keeps us down
Your window view
I can see a tree I never knew

falling asleep
inside a dream

I have to remind myself
this is real life

[time was created to keep us chasing a clock]

I'm living in my dreams everyday now
I can't wake up

Come and save us
before we destroy ourselves

I must learn to love
It's not to late
to love


Coming down
I'll come down from the clouds

I see you
and see myself

If the rain falls
and the clouds cry
thunder screams

Can I hold your hand
and make you hug me


Everyone hopes to go somewhere far

I hope they know that they'll never find another planet that rains gracefully


and other beings
may not feel the peace
when staring out at the rain

can I see the moon again
or
should I see the stars today

I just want to take them home
with me

and put one on the ceiling

I'm too greedy
taking your love for granted

I use you to feel better
about myself

can I have the moon
and put it outside
for me

I just want the sky for me

not for anyone else