I died in my dream
my body felt numb
I laid on the ground
hoping I would be found
my eyesight went black
and I spoke with God

I was hoping to wake up
in heaven

I was then resurrected

I only feel like I'm letting you down

why do I wake up for another day
are you sure I wasn't mistaken
with someone who deserves it

I like reading ghost poems
their writers are gone
we'll never find them

my only weakness
is always running back

this sinkhole
keeps me pressed up against
the strong current

I love how we try and find the solution
only to return where we started

where is the rain
I'm seeing heavy clouds all day

I can go on
how I want rain
but I won't cry

breathe in
breathe out

I don't want to see you die
such a beautiful tree
please don't leave

all this time you never grew
I never knew you were dying

look me in the eyes
new moon, I don't want to lie
I want to be free

there's a strange feeling
I want to try again yet
I know I'll fall easily

hold my hand longer
I hold you in ways no one
has ever touched you

no one before me
I don't want to wear this mask
leaving, pale mornings

is it time to go
I felt like an unknown guest
mourning with the clouds

Loving you is very quiet
silent hurting
bleeding heart
broken

I love you till the sun goes down

You never say what I want you to say

I feel like plastic

We were meant to be
all living beings have an end

Words come out
In ways I didn't plan out

Maybe if I stay quiet
You'll want to keep me around

Maybe if I keep it down
I won't seen so small

I always feel like I'm letting you down

Pick a hole in the sky
you came by
I only said hi

afraid
didn't make any eye contact

Small drops
on my arm
falling asleep
you won't leave

The word you talk of
I don't believe

Is it my loss of faith
have I become hopeless
in this endless summer heat

I lay lower than my bed
I feel lower

losing sight of the sky

picking a hole
so it can rain tonight

I have to connect myself to an outlet
I'm drained out of energy

My friends
Beautiful days

I never noticed the trees then

My life
hard times

Its best of friends
We'll never see each other again


I'm running out of memories
I have little space

Please erase all past years pictures from my head

I'm trying to download your laugh
replay it
When you're away

I can't cry

I have no sense

Best of friends

Let me feel it
What they feel

All I feel is lost

I was waiting for the sun to go down
The clouds suddenly appeared
as if someone called them

I'm trying to make them go away
but the sky doesn't feel so sad
It doesn't want to cry tonight

Open doors
I messaged you I love you
You responded
Don't say that

I have to keep quiet
I'm turning into someone else
I'm not myself around you

The clouds
Where did they come from
He called for them

He said he had to

Won't he let me in
Come on

I know you're not yourself
When I'm around

I can't see the blue sky

he's playing with my eyes

He says he has to

If I keep walking
You're more far away

It's fine

I'm going
Don't worry I'm fine

If I can't see you one last time

I almost forget you
along this path

so lonely
everlasting
silence

I'm walking
Its fine

Don't worry
I'm going

turn back
a little bit

Walking alone

this path so cold

It was good morning till I woke up
I took one glance at the sun
Diving down
I don't want it
I can't help but love you
More than myself

losing myself in endless realities
I just want to love myself today
Let you go today

We can't touch
You can't be seen

So we hide
Until the stars are out

\ \

You ask me if I love the rain more than you

I really do

I love the moon more than you

I would pick anything over your
empty eyes

I loved you more than myself

Now
I love myself everyday

Letting you go
Today

I'm falling asleep
I love it
I love this

my dreams feel like I'm living another life
I'm inside different worlds
parallel universe

I love it
help me fall asleep

let me breathe

I just want to live inside these dreams

Keep on
running

Spare me your love
I don't want your broken heart

One day you'll ask for my help
I'll treat you like a stranger

I never understand you

Spare me your time

You're a stranger
I never liked the way you made me feel

Keep quiet
I can't fight you

You're a lightning bolt
waiting to strike

All this
Talk
Talk
Talk

No one is any better

No one ever changes

I'm hoping for a better life
I hope to not follow their footsteps

Talk
Talk
More talk

I'm so tired
My ears might explode

I'm not sure how much I can take
before I let it all out

I love the way you poison my mind

How you stare at me all day long
without blinking an eye

I see you trying to slip inside
from the corner of my eye

Everyone says they love me

But I don't feel the love

Why do you keep turning away
when I need your help

You love me so much
Why can't I tell everyone else

I love the way you change my thoughts and words

You're in my mouth
Holding back everything I want to say

You infiltrate my mind
I wonder why I've changed

Now I feel so poisonous

I love the way you love me

ᵉᵛᵉʳʸᵒⁿᵉ ˢᵃʸˢ ᵗʰᵉʸ ˡᵒᵛᵉ ᵐᵉ

ᴵ'ᵐ ᵃˡʷᵃʸˢ ᵗʰᵉʳᵉ ʷʰᵉⁿ ᵗʰᵉʸ ⁿᵉᵉᵈ ᵐᵉ

ʷʰʸ ᵈᵒ ᵗʰᵉʸ ᵗᵘʳⁿ ᵃʷᵃʸ ʷʰᵉⁿ ᴵ'ᵐ ʰᵘʳᵗᶦⁿᵍ

I'm looking for someone

somewhere

I can't wake up

I can feel the fan running

Sun is shining

I can hear the rain falling

I'm looking for something

I've never met before

To complete me
To fill me up with life

My past is filled with so much light and shadows

I miss her

He's gone

In a better place


I hope to get there one day

I was thinking of you at 11 PM

Do you still play the violin

What music do you hear these days

I'm sorry
I let our friendship go to waste

I distance myself from the people I miss

You've never appeared in my dreams
I cherish our memories

I love you so much
for all the days we spent together

If you have forgotten about me
It's okay

I hope I see you in my dreams
so I can say goodbye

I don't want to say it's true

can I get what I want

I've been hiding away my hands

will I ever admit to you what I want

I miss you in the evenings
when the birds are leaving

all my memories are empty

She writes in a way
I'll never be able to

I can't reach the surface

I must try again
She is waiting

I take my time
I never respond on time

Maybe she hates me
Maybe not

Everyone loves her
they love her poems

She writes a way
I can't reach

And I
So behind

Must find a way into her head

I love the way she writes about it

I can't even scratch the surface

I've lived more than
365 days
so why does every year feel the same

I tell myself I should start to change
but I only become the same person again midway

It hurts
it brings pain

the same sun
the same wind

I want to see the sky fall
I want to breathe in the night's rain

I've lived for more than 24 hours
but I feel like it's only been an hour

How should I fall asleep

with so many memories on replay

it's about us right now
you are with me

you're leaving
I'm with you

by heart

I'm wasting time
looking for things
so many distractions

I'm with you
it's all about us

how will I fall asleep
you're running in my head

hard to imagine
I'll ever change

but I do every day

I don't want to let a moment pass

I hope I don't fall behind

express my love

maybe I should call it quits

I don't want to ruin my mind

I

I

I

I

change in ways
no one understands

I

I'll never be ready

(I don't want to ruin my life)

I'm sorry if I mess up
I can't keep my mouth shut

and I've considered cutting off my tongue

I say all the wrong things
more than I've said good things

I want to turn away
and runaway

from all the hurtful words I've spilled
to you
and myself

I won't be able to stay

I want to go away

please stop calling me

I only make things worse
I'm always at a distance

in silence, I give my best advice

I want to turn away
go away

I never stay

holding all the things I want to say

trying to let my eyes tear away
oh shush
keep it down

I just want us alone
with nobody

tell me when you'll come again
I'll make sure to leave an impression

wearing a pink shirt
I hate

oh shush
don't talk now

I don't want anyone around
just us

will you hear me out
come out
where are you hiding

I want him
but only part of him

oh shush

want no one around

stay for a while longer

Your beautiful eyes
a green I've never seen

I'm so nervous

I can barely breathe

When you leave
I can't wait for next Sunday


Hush hush
I want to say something

Keep myself away

I wish you stayed a little longer

Keep myself down

Do you want me

I want to know what
he's thinking

Walking upside down
I'm alive in a moonless sky

It's never morning when I wake up

Feel so out of my head

When you figure it out
Come let me know

I'm the only one crazy

I've never figured it out
Please let me know
When you figure it out

I'm out of my head

Walking dead
It seems like a good thing

Jumping up and down
Never coming back to the ground

I haven't seen the sun in days

Half noise

Hurt myself
to deep

I'm always feeling like the opposite

Silhouettes lit on fire

Can't keep giving away my affection
Give you my attention

Come out
When you figure it out

I can't ever find the truth

he loves his smile
and his hands
holds them under the table

they sit in quiet grounds
empty rooms

he loves his hair
and lips

they kiss
when no one is around

off to the city
filled with dreams

everything seems fine

if only the world would go away

There are meteoroids falling into my head
Meteors coming into the sky of my mind

I have no where to go

There's a voice
that whispers sad things
when I'm happy

I'm soft when you're around
then you leave me alone
with a stranger's voice

I'm losing myself
I love the idea of dying soon

There is a shooting star I see in a dream

A fire in the sky

I'm not afraid
of dying with a smile

Finally the voice
will explode
into bits of a meteorite

dried skin
picking it off my lips

addicted
so compulsive

it's not cold
let me hold your hands
under the water

let me look into your eyes
in the dark

we always want to touch
never talk so much

picking at my lips

bad habits

I can see the stars in the rain
Filled with pain
I'm slowly becoming one

You're putting me away
leaving me alone

You can't cover me up with clouds
I'll still shine in the daylight

You're turning away

I'm here to stay

I'm not scared of your darker side
please come out

I love the mysterious

My shadow runs into the smoke

Does it matter now

How much pain I went through

All the nights I cried

so far away

It doesn't matter

so why bother
give me sympathy
it's too late now

Maybe if we go back to the days
when I slept with pain
if only you could tell that girl
Your worries

Not me now

I'm your sunshine

You don't realize
I'm standing in the dark

Hiding my real face

Feels so long
Since I've felt depressed

It doesn't matter anymore

I sleep it off

When the cold air starts to come out

I feel like I'm not around

Where does the wind go
After it dies

I'm not who I want to be

I act a way I shouldn't

People see me so differently

I don't know who I want to be anymore

When the lights turn off

I feel so lost

When I wake up early

I feel so calm

I am not who I want to be

Is there only one life
to live

Time will never wait for me

the sun falls

a soft glow
hitting the brick wall

leaves moves
trees all around me

when does the time change

when does summer end

the church bells ring again

I feel it

I almost see it

it's coming together

dangerous weather

dreams astray

he wants to rewind

whisper into a wall

she wants to rewind

count all the stars before she dies

I want to rewind

miss my old bed

can't undo all the mistakes
nothing I can change

Love is a true art

You can't understand
Only feel it

Love has no explanation
Or limitations

Being in love either breaks your heart or
You'll feel the sun inside your heart

I'm melting down
I feel so loved

It doesn't have to be no one

It's all about loving myself

I want to go to places we've never been before

I forget you've seen the whole world

I sometimes see a light under the door
from the corner of my eye

It's pitch black in my room

You're a lightning bolt
I'm the thunder

Let's make a storm
We always hurt ourselves

I got a fever
I'm cold

I want to be with you

You're not around

It's 7 o'clock

Where's our love

I want to give you the world
You've already got it

I can't give my soul

Where's your love

I've been hiding my face all day long
you know my name
you don't know it's mine

tiptoe
peeking through tall windows

I hope you haven't caught on

I'm all poison
shouldn't come closer

one day I'll be there
most of the time I'll hide

Feel so loved
Out of my mind
Your eyes of gold

I felt love once

Now I'm feeling it from someone else

Felt love for you

Making promises
that lay broken
In shattered glass

Felt so loved by you

Now it's from someone else

My love for you
was beautiful

Like waking up to the sun at the bottom of a window

It lasted for days
Died when the night fell

Waking up to a storm
Turn away I have to fall back asleep

Happy birthday
It's August

Wake up early
Can't fall back to sleep

This week feels strange
is the moon playing tricks with my mind

I didn't think I would make it to August
Here I am

Confused
What are my goals again?

I could fall asleep around noon
Maybe I'll figure it out tomorrow

I think I'm over you
Don't think about you as often as I used to

I've moved on
a rainbow appear
I know I will be fine

I hope you love me just a little
And think of me in the afternoon's

Nothing makes me more happy

I'll be able to see my best friend
Before morning

Orion it's nice to see you again
Winter is coming

Don't you ever feel so full of light
so far away from everyone
I'm looking for someone to love me
darkness surrounds me

I feel so full of light
no one can see me

12:25
I wonder if you know how loved you are

Driving in the night
You always turn away from the moon
I've spoken with stars
They love you too

I hate leaving you behind
Hoping you'll catch up in time

Echo in my mind
Memories of you & I

I'll miss you
thank you

Remember you are loved

Drive me home with the windows down

Turn around

The moon keeps an eye on you
When you're looking away

Thank you
Remember so many love you

I'll always want to stay

I'll keep on talking with stars

Ask them how you are

You are loved

Touch me like an angel
I'm the only sinner in this dark room

The moon
I can't see

Walls all around me

No your love can't free me

Moon
dressed in red

I'm living a year behind
everyone is ahead of time

I'm trapped in a storm

You bathe me in holy water
I can't understand it

I love you to a limit
never to far

Change my mind

I'm climbing walls
to the see the stars

I just want to reach the horizon
I don't want to come back

I have tainted hands
I'll corrupt you
I'll save you tonight in bed


Let this go to waste

I won't ever go back

If I **** myself

I'll miss myself

There is love
Somewhere deep in my heart

I want to wake up next year
I can't feel

Is it too late for love
Putting flowers in my own grave

The clouds touch the moon
Please come out soon

So strange to see you
Hours later
You were covered in red

Feels like I'm in wonderland
with you tonight

No lights

Gives me butterflies
This is my kind of wonderland

Out in the sand
Moon waves

Come out
Come out

Stay out of the clouds

In love with feeling
Not you
I'm no fool
I don't ever fall

Won't wake up broken

Dollar bills
All we do is chase paper

She wants my money
I want to give her everything

In love with the feeling
Have no feelings

Don't want to fall asleep broken

I'm obsessed
Can't let go it go
Don't want to leave you alone

You don't really care
Lying to yourself

Can't treat me better
I'm growing older

Trying to not be a bother

Moving out the way

So you can see someone else

I'm still mad over the things you said
Even if years passed

Still kills me inside
Makes me so sad

Sad sounds so small

It's corrupted my whole body

I don't really care
Lying to myself

So consumed
Waiting for the end

Dying with a straight face

Selling my heart
Because you don't want my love

Take me home
Give away my soul

For sale
Anyone want it

Don't really need it

I fell in love with someone
While feeling blue

And they don't want my love

I need a vacation badly

My happiness melting

My smile is falling

I look at the sky so hopeless
I thought you wanted it

Keep you to myself
Need a getaway badly

I'll get around
with an empty sound

Is she real

She's real

Does she feel

She's real

Can you be with her all the time

You must think it through

I won't tell you what to do
but I beg
in my head
Hoping you make the right decision
Or another mistake again


Is she the one

She's real

What's in her eyes

Does she have the right mind

She's real

Is it love

Is it love

Is it love

I know how much you love me
I'll never let you touch me

Just want better for you

Rearrange my room
Nothing feels new

The ring on your finger
soon a curse

I always want better for you