Te amo
Pero no te puedo decir
Te quiero mucho

Will you hold me up
When I've fallen

Under the weather
above the clouds
hugging pillows

I don't feel so good right now

My heart has done too much
I'm breathing
Can I take a break

I can't find
Enlightenment

I'm falling behind
Will you be there to grab my hand

Pull me out of this dream

I've got flowers to press
before they die

Vases empty
emotions down the drain

can I steal your song
make it mine

sometimes I get a feeling
It's for me
lyrics describe
all that I know

I'll get us out

you'll always have a special place
my heart craves your attention

walking through red doors

I'm never going to be the same
You won't ever meet that version of me again

Dying out
can I steal your song
It's mine
I think it's mine more than yours now

November
is my old friend
whos hands I shake
coldly she always behaves
she comes in a mourning time
the moon cries in vain
November
she whispers goodnight
to the trees
navigates her way down south
with the golden butterflies
running for their lives
kisses me gently
I only see her once a year
the bitterness
in her heart
stays with me
all winter long
calling my name
I shiver

She says
she feels a burst of emotions
within colors and shapes

Am I blind
did I not hear her words right

I feel like I'm from another planet

She reads art

I told her I felt a fire inside me
within the words and their meanings

Is she blind
did she not hear me right

I feel like she's from another planet

The way art transcends into our souls differently
is fascinating

dilated eyes
kiss me with your eyes open
let's not fight again

we're no match from heaven
god doesn't love me

I had an angel
he was taken away

God doesn't love me
I know
because they told me

grieve alone
love alone
they responded that I was deserving
of all this crippling pain inside my brain

we're on different planes
living in different worlds

I kissed Gabriel's blood clean
almost reached invincibility
nearly became infinity

there's no forever
just everlasting fear

I've been seeing somebody
can't tell nobody

he's like
tell no soul
sleep alone
I'm always watching you
all around me
passing by
shadows
cool water
his face so cold

he's got my heart
all around me
I hear it beating
shadows
follow me

he's like
stay alone
don't answer the phone
turn the lights off
keep me close

all of the nights
I've wasted
how many times
did I give myself over
without a concern
your words
pinned into my
brain

all around me
they all have your face

Does he like me
maybe not

Gathering on the 21st
will I see you first

Does he love me
maybe yes

Confrontation
such a mess

I just want him to know

I have no face
no name

I have no identity

You can't trust me
don't believe me

I'm tired of feeling this way

We kissed and the whole world fell away

The seven seas
are empty
the four winds blow intoxicated
the sun is broken
moon covered in blood
as the constellations fall

We kissed and the whole world fell apart

cutting out
the thorns

white roses
in the snow

tell me it's all in my head
I've got a pretty face

Evil one
hold me tight

whisper in my ear
snow white lies

the power of darkness
luring me to sleep

endless dream
where I met
the God of this age

fallen
deceiver
hold me

the truth is hidden in the darkness
show me

Happy birthday

can we start working on forgiveness

the 26th
happy birthday

maybe
I'll say something

I only care about myself

we should work things out

I want forgiveness

happy birthday

I won't call you
until next month

I'm sure you're spending a good day

ʀᴇᴠᴇʀsᴇ ᴘᴏᴇᴍ\

keep asking me if I have a heart
convincing myself I don't have one

It's okay to
say you don't feel so much

I feel so loved for what I'm not
hated for the things I do and say

love is fading
I no longer feel it

can I be trusted
don't commit to anything

everyone leaves
just like me

apathetic
a voice
cries inside

love is fading

people only change in different lifetimes

no longer feeling it

call me
I won't answer

my phone
ring ring rings

it's all a utopian dream

you can't love a cloud
it disappears into the crowd

//ʀᴇᴠᴇʀsᴇ ᴘᴏᴇᴍ

hiding
is all I do

hiding
from the real world
filled with lungs that breathe
and hearts that beat

fever
with a slice of cold
but its alright

I'll stay home by myself

please girl
stay away from me
out of my sight

I'm so tired
of being your pawn

you control the game

when can I say game over

it's a Sunday

someday
someday

you'll say

I shouldn't have treated you that way

I think I found love
within the letters you type

forming words
I've read a thousand times

suddenly they feel so different

I'm trying to know

I'm confused
keeping a distance

no goodnight kiss
no good morning message

promise
me a
goodbye

I think I've fallen
into a toxic puddle
of unknown chemicals

my mistake

It's my mistake

so far away
clouds cover the moon

/ distant  //

moonlight
cover me

fly away
with the clouds
can I see you in the morning

I can't dream
with no visions

I can't dream without
a friend

dreams

that's all I have

dreams

it's everything I want

dream

the life you desire

dream

God doesn't love me
I know
because they told me

grieve alone
love alone
they responded that I was deserving
of all this crippling pain inside my brain

they kissed my cheek
and vanished within a late dream

I had an angel
he took away

I'm alone
they said
I won't ever see their home

God doesn't love me
I saw a figure
standing at the end of my bed
imprisoned me with
a  shadow

It all makes sense now

my veins are collapsed
I lash out
when I lose
this isn't living
I don't think I like you

staring at my feet
can't get out of this heat
but it's zero degrees

I'm feeling fine
for an hour or two

I remind myself
I'm broken in two

I'm trying to get out of the city
but
there's no living without me

can't keep breathing
as you cut my lungs

all is well
I'm bruised

I can't find myself
with the sky covered in gloom

where's the moon
the sun is acting strange

closing all the windows
all the cutting wind comes in

Is it raining in Tokyo
is it sunny in Sydney

I haven't asked
where you are
in a far away country
or a closeby city

don't let me disappear
love me
touch me
I don't want to vanish

wherever you are
I'll wait

there's no forever

stop walking with your head down
the chains wrapped around you
lay you down inside a puddle

I created a place
with
forever rain

I'm your hero

clouds inside my bedroom

I can't make a promise
I can't promise anything to anyone or myself

I can only hope to rest
and wake up to a new light
be welcomed
Live a different day

I can't promise

I can only hope

I don't believe

I want to see it happen

Good night

sleep my love
sleep well
the angels above sing lullaby's for you
clouds weep at your great existence
stars shine
the sun burns with love for you
the moon is too shy to whisper
I love you
sleep
dream
an endless dream
of paradise
a heaven
sleep

If you want to save me please
let me go

I can't do this
I feel like I can't do it
I'm screaming inside my head
I want to jump off a bridge
I see myself crying
in an empty room
hoping I'll see
the super blue blood moon
I've built walls
I can't see the stars
the moon is away
everyday feels
like a new skit
I can't do it
have I become a failure
I was ready to let go



I'll forever hold on

I'm sorry for what I said
I never called
you say this
and I that
so what will it be
can we still talk

I'm your world
you are my sun
I don't look out for you
I don't want to see you
I like the way you shine
I love the way your warm me up
I never want to see you
I keep you away

I'm sorry
I never answer your calls
I've become distant
trust issues
and insecurities
have torn me up
I can't look into
anyone's eyes
speak the truth

I'm your world
you're the moon
you're the wind
I can't see you

no
I'm wrong
I'm the moon
I'm the clouds
I'm the sun
I'm the wind
that passes by
I vanish
I'm so transparent
I've disappeared

can you even see me
for who I am

or have I become someone else

when I leave

will you search the universe for me

I'm your world
now you are mine

You tried
to give me your feelings

turn over to the next page
I didn't see the look on your face

I'm sorry I broke you
I never apologized

Should I make my bed
Or let you sleep in tonight

I've collected
a bottle
filled with
your crystal
tears

I can't hold you

I'll runaway

You are my pride
  
my mistake
to fix

try and leave this city
I can't see over the mountains
that surround me

this fire
is going out
the embers
glimmer
with my last
piece of hope

it's almost over
winter is here
cover me in
the endless clouds
overhead

my heart
is shivering

I can only hear
the whisper
of my soul

one day
I'll leave the city

back to where I belong

into the world's sky

All I do is hide
waiting for you
hoping you'll find me
but I've disappeared

I make a frown
thinking about the person
I use to be

Sipping on chlorine
washing out the bad parts inside

Don't like the person I've become

Changing sounds like to much work
so I stay the same

Can't close my eyes
everytime it rains
I hope to find myself

Lose myself again

No matter who I find
who stays

It's not enough

I feel to much
for the pain to go away

Why does the sky look grey
the sun is turning pale

My skin
is coming apart

I don't want to see the real me

I'm all about hiding

A night like this
doesn't feel real

I wish I was dead

I feel like a cut flower
on display

For those who seek
life
and
Beauty

I don't know where I came from
I seem to forget
all about me

I lose my tongue
when the final moment comes

I can't say the truth

Now I feel like a night light

Keeping away the darkness

only I know
It's all around me

Howling like the wind

screaming in hidden words
in the cold faucet water

And in the pins that hold my pillow together

The words she spoke

I couldn't feel

The people I see
are not enough

I have no home

I live inside this haunted body
my ghosts
follow me
deep in my dreams

Sounds of the night
are faint

I'm silently asking
everyone to turn off their lights
and let me breathe

I learned to levitate
with my head
I've dreamed of blood
the guilty feeling hangs above me
I'm trying to breathe in the fire
inside my stove
the water to cold
it's getting cold
I'm having troubles
troubles that won't go away
telling me to close my eyes
   droplets falling
so so
slowly
quiet
I'm stuck inside
I know this feeling
winter is coming
alone
missing home
where I couldn't feel the cold

you make me go to sleep
I can't believe
I hate that you know
where I sleep
I want to tear away
the skin of my face
break my bones
I'm so wrong
to keep wanting
to let everything go
now everyone sees
what I see
It gets harder to breathe
my veins feel weaker
as I move
I don't speak my pain
so where does it go
the pit of my stomach
or the far end of my throat

asking myself
what do I live for
who do I live for

haven't you read
you should know what person I am
you should know my kind

It was a night in the clear rain
overhead
I said
you might be the one
my heart might make it
my right ear
ringing
I can barely see the far away
If I go blind
you must be the last face I see
If I go deaf
You'll be the last voice I hear
let's climb onto this seesaw
one will touch the ground
the other touches the sky

are you having fun without me
It's been forever since
we last whispered
secrets into the afternoon

when I whispered
show me forever
I did not expect
silence
from your part

climb onto this seesaw
whoever reaches the ground
doesn't have a chance to touch the clouds

are you alright
I know I'm doing fine
without you
doesn't mean I can't miss you

let's go
we don't need to play games anymore
I've touched the moon and stars
without you
wondering
if you were holding
the sun behind my back
taking away my air

Snowflakes of rain
falling to my face

An open wall
an open window
open space

Where I see the world
and the world can see
all of me
the dark side
hiding

A breeze
Can they hear me sing

Can I let them in
the lights are out

Slow down
I'm coming down

I never notice
how the clouds form
to create the perfect storm

I know people are out back
It's all about finding yourself
I don't know

I have no balance
I'm a bit stupid
A little baby
who's too old
to keep crying
when something
doesn't go my way

I'm not afraid
I'm not ashamed

If I could
I would

I want to follow
the rainbow
everyone does

I don't ever reach the end

I'm not scared
of what they'll say

surely
it's all about me

when I'm alone
I hug myself
when I'm sad
I give up

swallow up the courage
stop thinking too much
careless
there's no one who can judge

there's no rush
you can be who you are
who you want to be

There's time
the day will come

stop thinking too much
there's nobody who can tell you who you are

To the father I never had

You missed out on so many moments
I spent alone
You left an empty feeling in my heart
that will stay with me for my whole life

I think, I imagine of having you beside me

I cried a million times
why am I part of the unlucky ones

Are you a cloud
Are you the wind

What time do you sleep
What is your favorite color
do you drive into the horizon thinking of someone that's not me

I never really felt my youth
my childhood
I felt half full
You weren't there to balance out my troubles

I wished on shooting stars
Hoping you would appear
so I could fill up the empty hole I have inside me

Are you the rain
Are you what makes the ocean blue

Are the dream I have
Never to come true

You are what I miss
You are what I lost

\

Is it me who you miss
Is it I who you lost

Cool eyes
Cold like ice
It's cliché
He spoke in a way
that made him a little older
a little wiser
I still remember the beginning
the day we lost him
I cried
and I couldn't hear anyone around me
The moon turned blue
Aqua
I won't be able to see him
I still forget
I try and call his number

I send him letters
wish him goodnight

I see him in the warm light
of the mornings

And in the pale moonlight
reflecting

I remember the beginning
now I'm living in his dream

Maybe if you love me
You should tell me something