You get sad
when she leaves

Forgetting
that I am here

I'm not leaving

/I stay/

A house
A street
The city
A state
A country

The earth
The solor system
The milky way galaxy
This universe

I must've told my 2nd grade teacher

I really loved her
I miss her sometimes

Sometimes I forget I use to be so small

We were all once children !

Now I teach my own
that it doesn't matter where they're from
They belong to the earth
It's a gift
from the universe

I want to live in my dream
Where I touch the sky

He showed me how to find a face
in a cloud
How to find a smile in a frown

I wish
I could jump inside a flashback

Back when I was
hopeful;
I didn't worry about myself

I must admit
This pain is beautiful

so beautiful
I'll die

Thousands of wishes
I must learn
to refrain

I had the world
hanging around my neck

Hundreds of dreams
I woke up to
    never came true

I want to finish up
   cut off loose ends

I'm
Everchanging

I'm tired

I'll sleep the night ahead

10

I'll remember

9

I'll forgive

8

I'll walk

7

I'll forget

6

Game over

5

Play again

4

Select new character

3

New game

2

-Start over

1

Happy New year

There's always a perfect world I imagine
That doesn't have me inside it

Must we sleep so early
These holidays are never happy

There's a brief moment
of love at first sight
the moon can kiss the sun

cold rushed to my head

All seemed so fine
the shortest day
messed up my head

I smiled
sun down
I smiled
Moon rise

she painted her nails red
she didn't have red lipstick

ᵍⁱᵛᵉ ᵐᵉ ᵃ ᵐᵒᵐᵉⁿᵗ

ᴵ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ ᵏⁿᵒʷ ʷʰᵃᵗ ᴵ ʷᵃⁿᵗ

ᵃʳᵉ ʸᵒᵘ ᵐᵃᵏⁱⁿᵍ ʲᵒᵏᵉˢ
ᵃᵇᵒᵘᵗ ᵐᵉ ᵃᵍᵃⁱⁿ

ᵍⁱᵛᵉ ᵐᵉ ᵃ ᵐᵒᵐᵉⁿᵗ

ᴵ ⁿᵉᵉᵈ ˢᵒᵐᵉ ᶠʳᵉˢʰ ᵃⁱʳ

ᴵ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᵗʰᵉ ʷʰᵒˡᵉ ʷᵒʳˡᵈ
ᵇᵒᵗᵗˡᵉᵈ ᵘᵖ
ⁱⁿ ᵐʸ ᶜʰᵉˢᵗ

ⁱᶠ ᴵ ʰᵃᵈ
ᵗʰᵉ ᶜᵒᵘʳᵃᵍᵉ

ᴵ ʷᵒᵘˡᵈ ˡᵉᵗ ⁱᵗ ʳᵃⁱⁿ ᵈᵒʷⁿ
ᶜʳᵉᵃᵗᵉ ᵃⁿ ᵒᶜᵉᵃⁿ

ᵍⁱᵛᵉ ᵐᵉ ᵃ ᵐᵒᵐᵉⁿᵗ

ᴵ'ᵐ ᶠᵉᵉˡⁱⁿᵍ ᵖʳᵉˢˢᵘʳᵉᵈ

ᵗᵒᵈᵃʸ ᴵ ᶠᵉᵉˡ
ˡⁱᵏᵉ ᴵ'ˡˡ ᵐᵃᵏᵉ ⁱᵗ

ᴵᵗ ʷᵒⁿ'ᵗ ˡᵃˢᵗ

ˡᵉᵗ ᵐᵉ ʰᵃᵛᵉ ᵃ ᵐᵒᵐᵉⁿᵗ

ᴵ'ᵛᵉ ˡᵒˢᵗ ᵃˡˡ ᶠᵒʳᵐ ᵒᶠ ᶜᵒᵐᵐᵘⁿⁱᶜᵃᵗⁱᵒⁿ

ᵐʸ ᵉʸᵉˢ ᵐᵘˢᵗ ᵇᵉ ᵖⁱᵗᶜʰ ᵇˡᵃᶜᵏ

ᵗʰᵃᵗ ʸᵒᵘ ᵈᵒⁿ'ᵗ
ˢᵉᵉ ᵐʸ ᵖᵃⁱⁿ

you forget the experience I have
with death

you forget
I've dealt
with inner demons

yₒᵤ cₐₙ'ₜ ₛₑₑ
ₘy ₚₐᵢₙ

ₙₒbₒdy ₐₛₖₑd ₘₑ ᵢf ᵢ'ₘ ₒₖₐy

【Ｉ＇ｍ　ｓｏ　ｉｎｆｕｒｉａｔｅｄ
Ｉ＇ｍ　ｆｕｒｉｏｕｓ】

ɪ'ᴍ ᴀ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ᴛɪʀᴇᴅ
ɪ'ᴍ ᴀ ʟɪᴛᴛʟᴇ ᴍᴀᴅ

Why do you love me
only
when we are in the house of god
?

I want to drag myself to the edge of the sky
the devil is towering over town
nowhere to be found

hiding under my blankets
living in a bathtub
life isn't want I wanted

life doesn't ever go the way I want it

It's not so easy to let go
the feelings
the trauma
the energy

every time I climb higher
I only go
backwards

She lingers in my brain
I hope she's doing okay

Death
in my eyes

The only living thing inside me
is weeds

I cough out
sadness

I have two hearts
only one hurts

I am undesirable
no one wants me
I am unfixable

Waking up in cold sweat
I can't remember the nightmare
I dreamt

It's a good thing

    now I'm lost thinking
what was it
I feared

I'm afraid
I'm terrified
I'm stuck inside

I've haven't touched the world

I'm petrified

I've always wanted to be a flower

the one
everyone wants to pick

I've become a plant in the wrong place

I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶  I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
                                                  I­̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶  h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶  y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
                                                   ­        I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶  y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶          I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶       I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶ r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
               I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶  I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
        I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
   I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶  h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶                                    I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
         I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
                                                   ­                             I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
               I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
                                     I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
    I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶  I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶  r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶  l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶  e̶r̶
̶       I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶         ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
                                 I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶     I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶   r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶d̶e̶r̶ ̶
̶I̶'̶l̶l̶ ̶t̶r̶y̶ ̶h̶a̶r̶  d̶e̶r̶
          


                                    ­               ᵤntᵢl my
lₑgs bᵣₑₐk

          bₑfₒᵣₑ my ₑyₑs clₒsₑ

                                                      
                                                                ­                      blₑₑdᵢng nₒsₑ

            until
             I break myself
                 for trying my hardest

I'm sorry for the plant that died
in my hands

I'm sorry your
plants are dying

I'm a bad luck charm
a silent surprise

I bring the worst out of people
(oftentimes myself)


//  haiku -

losing I'm dehydrated  
haven't you noticed the sun
I can make it leave

Hot air blowing in
maybe I'll take off my socks
throw them in the rain
while I'm feeling pain
I miss you
you don't care
never call
listening to someone's voice
messaging someone that's not me
I feel like I can't be contained
happiness doesn't like me
I stay away
from everyone
that wants to touch me
don't come near me
I use to fly
so close to heaven
now the angels
ignore me
I'm not worth saving

I'm full of light
When I open my eyes
the darkness blinds me