and I dreamt of her
even in my dimly lit room
wrapped in the arms of my lover
I dreamt of the way her lips fell apart
and as i woke
I reached out for her
only to be met with the dull hum of my lamp
and the idea of what could have been.
I know you think that in a room full of people i've ever loved, I wouldn't choose you.
but you're the only one that has ever given me the love they claimed I deserved and made me feel whole.
id choose you until my lung's collapsed and I cant do anything but mumble your name.
id write your name over and over until my fingers became fused with the pencil.
id climb any mountain to you until my hands and feet bled.
id choose you.
in every lifetime.
in every moment.
i'm so in love with the idea of you in my head it's driving me insane.
I looked over
Saw her take your hand
Reminding me of a time
That never existed
I wanted so badly
To go there
Dad daughter bond
I feel allot more than you think
I see allot more than I let on
I know allot more than you think I do.
im not stupid,
I see the signs.
maybe its not me thats wrong but you.
but I would regret caving more.
you were the glue that kept me together
the adhesive is wearing off,
you chose another warm body to cling to.
u promised man. ***. - jj