I wake in tears.
My heart is a scarlet mess,
broken sutures,
split stiches,
torn incisions
not from surgery,
but from the
precise pain
of losing someone
and remembering
said loss
when I awake.

Striated thoughts broken
by a life in dappled light
Shadows cool the flame
flickering wildly in exhalation
Stars mimic streetlights
in memories long left behind
Each speck a lifetime
and life seems eternal
Traversing shadows reluctantly
cloaking truth in darkness
A trail of flesh glitters
a path dragged on bended knee
marked by pieces of me I
just couldn't hold onto
Light debrides road-rash
unapologetically
Each transferred piece that replaced
a speck of who i was
slowly leaves a void in the shape
of the very damage the shadows blind
Can you see the truth
The light shines on the perfect pieces
for the world to ogle
as shadows mask the tattered flesh
of a life that tastes like
the muddy shoe that bludgeoned
it unrecognizable
Who are we if not who we were
Who can bear the truth
and still pretend to love the unloveable
Who can see what I cannot show
as fear has stunted joy
in the dappled light
that breaks each thought to pieces

We're living in a world like the matrix. All we can do is try to make sense of one another's actions and be patient. Reality truly is only what you make it to be. Everything you see is energy, neither created, or destroyed. When we deployed our troops overseas did we ever see the underlying reason. Too many of us are more concerned with the shifting of seasons (The news.) Sometimes I believe it's the eye in the pyramid, then I remember that evil is what you make it, that's why I became a Mason. Its ironic that Saddam was going to sell the oil for Euros. Then Bush came into power and the federal bureau blew up the towers only hours later, we as a nation received confirmation that Iraq was our target for invasion. But how can we blame them as we fuel our cars with the blood soaked tar sands from this foreign land that none of us care to know. Why should we show compassion for fallen soldiers that gave their lives so we would have automobiles that drive. It seems that our demise was prophesied way back in biblical times. I don't find it likely that we'll open our eyes to the lies fed to us from birth. This is my home, this is planet, Earth.

When I first saw into her pain, I was elated;
finally someone else so numb they're sedated.
We stayed up all night little past five, off eachother were wasted
She was the friend of the girl I liked but couldn't get to hold onto
Next thing I knew I was up in her headspace, and she was the next case
for this lovesick therapist kid still getting his head straight
Crazy how life is meant for love, but all you need is yourself
One minute she loves you the next
You're set up on the shelf

How does it feel to waste your time,
over and over?
How does it feel to live for other peoples lonely vies?
Now how does it feel to be surrounded,
over and over?
How does it feel to know you can't reach out and touch their souls?
How does it feel to know I've gone, without being here to start with?
How does it feel to know you've chosen wrong?

You're wrong
I'm right

And now I'm torn on what love is, I think it'd be this.
Cause playing guitar is much better than these hardened hearts.
We stayed up all night, little past five
pointing out our marks and scars
She was the girl of the friend I liked
She said he was family
Next thing I knew, she's tellin' me
she's chosen someone I can't be
This lovesick masochistic kid's now starin' at Plan B..
Seems like life seems so perfect
when we're staring at surface ****.
One minute it's all planned so right
the next you're praying to your christ.

So how does it feel to waste your time,
over and over?
How does it feel to live for other people's dumb opinions?
How does it feel to be surrounded,
over and over?
How does it feel to know you can't kiss off the memories?
Now how does it feel to know I'm gone, never to come back?
How does it feel to know you've chosen wrong?

You're wrong
I'm right
I'm wrong
You're right
I'm right
I'm wrong
They're right
I'm song..

Finding reasons to run,
Faster, stronger, better, smarter.
Living the dream.
Resorting to relaxation.
Within the loudest scream,
Wishing to dream,
Reasons to scream,
Nothing is what it seems.
Floating through my stream,
Till my heart naturally cleans
Without selfish steam.
******* irrational frustration
Living beneath consistent injustice restriction,
Power hungry pigs
Getting off from constriction
Of an innocent prediction.

4 Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.

8 Love never fails.

It starts within like a wild wind
Too powerful to contain with in
It's like a chemical concoction
Soon to hatch a reaction
Comes naturally,
like your better half attraction

Words spoken like a spell,
personal,...so much as in detail
It's your gift to Gods green earth,
be it so ...
It's magics birth.

You've been on my mind for some time and I can hardly let it go. I've been trying to find something as incredible as you and I for all my life. You've had me thinking we're inevitably meant to be something special, and the feeling hasn't changed since the day I met you.
You dress and express yourself in a way that words can't explain or describe how inimitable the vibe. Nevertheless it doesn't really seem odd to me because from my perspective your life has been nothing short of an odyssey. You're kiss is like a drug to me you see, and the way we look into one another's eyes is so heavenly that I can't help but let myself be drown in your beautiful melodies. I want to show you that my heart is serene despite the tragedies that have befallen upon me, and that my soul is gold, a true gift from the heavens above to the woman whom I may choose to love. You destroyed my belief in a preconceived image of beauty in such a way that conveys the picture clear as day. It's not hard to see how strong and sweet your desires for intimacy can be simply because I genuinely treat you differently. That's what makes you irresistibly tempting. I want to feel that feeling of love again. I need you to be a lover but most importantly, a friend. And so it begins, can we withstand the temptations of sin and lust? I believe you should know that I'm someone to trust because my intentions with you are anything but. I hope you can understand the sense in which I arrange these sentences if you really think about it, the possibilities are quite endless. So let me end this by saying thank you and that I appreciate every second you take and give to me.