To say that I’m happy — I’m not.
I crave for you to be with me.
But I can’t make you choose.

To say that you’re a fool for not staying,
— I am one too for leaving.
It’s ridiculous, for such things.

To say that we are not — I believe.
Wrong timing or not meant to be.
None of us was wrong in this.

To say that it takes another person
for you to be happy.
It takes this way for your life to be better,
without me — I’ll let you be.

To say that I rather have you well and loved
in this world because you deserve it.
Even when I’m not the reason behind
— like I wished.

To say that it kills, it really is.
But I live for that smile — that genuine one
I adored since first day.
That I hope you’ll always wear.

To say the reason why — don’t ask me.
But I want to stay, still admiring.
Will you let me be,
please.

— n.y

Maybe if I was her;
The girl of your dream.
The sweet one that you wished.
The person that always gets it.
The lover when you need.

Maybe then, it’ll be easy.
This love story, I intend to keep.

But I’m not,
and that’s the tragedy.

— n.y

I wish I could run back to you.
But I had enough of getting,
the door slammed on me.
And so I’ll stay where I belong,
where I’m supposed to be.

How silly of me,
for being here still.
And I will,
for how long I need.
And for a while,
I believe.

Hard to let you go,
but I let you be free.
In hope you’ll find your peace,
just like how you wish.
From here I’ll always be,
just like how I promised;

Having conversations with God for it.

— n.y

I would like to remember you as sunflower.
The happy moments, once we were.
I want to remember your smile.
That smile, forever.

Nothing can make me change,
the point of view from my perspective.
Won’t paint you as the bad figurine,
because I know you aren’t one.

You’ll always be the person,
I’m glad to meet.
But I’m not the want that you need,
not the one that you want to keep,

And so I’ll leave.
And I’ll take the dried petals with me.
That once belong to us,
that once made me happy.

A part of you,
I’ll carry for eternity.

—n.y

I want

The holding hands,
that “just because for you”.
The random reassurance,
that we’ll make it through.
The plan dates,
that honesty and truth.
The future of us,
that being a kid.
The growing old together,
that you and me.
The love I keep,
that I’m willing to give.
The courage I seek,
that brave one to fall deep.
The feeling safe to be
that fragile but in one piece;

As long as you’re staying,
I’ll take it all,
the beauty and ugly.

—n.y

The silence is louder tonight.
Not a single sigh was made.
But all I can hear is your voice,
if only I could listen to it all over.
And for more I want you to say,
and forever I want you to stay.
But that’s too much for me to ask for,
thus one last mercy I demand from you so;

The conversation that we need,
the good in bye that I seek.

—n.y

Maybe if I don’t have to love,
Maybe if I don’t have to have this heart,
It’ll be easier to breathe like how they did.
As easy as to leave me hanging.
As easy as to treat me like nothing.
An option to be kept,
For when there’s none left to be picked.
And I’m always that one thing;

Chosen when can be used,
and forgotten when no longer in need.

—n.y