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Aug 2017 · 194
Worth Hurting
woolgather Aug 2017
You're just there,
Yet I can't seem to bring myself to talk.

I know deep within me I long to,
Yet I digress.

The feeling that made my heart flutter,
My lungs, uneasy air;

You made me feel as if I meant anything.
Yet the feeling was never mutual.

My lungs, uneasy air;
My heart, shattered;

Holding a flower that'll never bloom;
*Such a flame that envelops the forest, but never burns.
I miss you

Even if I know you don't remember me
Aug 2017 · 293
I Don't Know
woolgather Aug 2017
I promised I'll forget,
How you make me feel;
I promised I'll shrug it off,
No matter how it bothered me.
I promised I'll bury the words that I wanted you to hear;
Promised.

Stuck between crossroads;
None I know would lead to where I want.
Denying what seems to be truth,
Lying to myself;
Hurting;
How bad of a liar I am.

Gave it even if I knew,
A losing bet;
A certain uncertainty;
Guilty innocence;
Out of words,
Loud silence.

Still staying,
Even if it's been long due.
I'll reminisce it in the words you once said,
Even if we never talk.
A lost cause,
*To a battle that hasn't even started.
I miss you

Even if I know you don't remember me
Aug 2017 · 4.9k
Cold Coffee
woolgather Aug 2017
I'm a no one;
Just a stranger that happened to pass by,
Who made a silly mistake,
Yet you talked like we were meant to.

Just a peculiar case;
Talking random things,
That seem to mean nothing,
Yet made its way to be remembered.

A cathartic mess;
Leaving a note that said I'll leave,
Trying to forget how much it'd hurt;
You told me to come back.

Comfort;
Words that made me hold on,
Coming from the most unexpected person;
Maladroit.

Ecstasy;
Dancing with what you've said,
Somehow excruciatingly sweet;
Bitter.

Waiting;
Exhausted with nothing more to say,
Though wanting to talk;
Cold coffee.
I miss you

Even if I know you don't remember me
Aug 2017 · 241
...!...?...
woolgather Aug 2017
A little accident.

Dumb, not grave.

Small talks.

Turning into something more.

What to you was seemingly random,

To me was treasure.

You were there when no one else dared to stay.

Yet you never knew that.

Out of small talks,

I spilled truth.

I made myself a burden.

I made you worry,

I'm sorry.

I ponder if it was wrong for me;

Wrong to even speak to you so openly.

You said it was fine,

Even though I know I take much of your time;

Though I thank you;

Letting some of the bottled grief get out of me.

But we don't even talk anymore.

But even if we do;

*You don't have to lie anymore
I don't know what to make up of this

I know I've been nothing but a burden

I hope you could read this but the world would say otherwise

You're so close yet I feel so far
woolgather Aug 2017
The monster hidden under my bed chose to lay beside me,

Wearing the face of a man I knew,

Revealing the truth of a sweet dreama bitter nightmare;

Violated.

Dirtied.

Disgusted.

Unfa­thomable,

To be done by someone whom I'd thought can never do such things.

I will grieve,

I will falter;

But I will not let it eat me.

I shall be the rose both of the beauty and the danger;

I will stand and fight with the power I ought to have;

I will vanquish that very monster:

Without fear,

Without hesitation.

I vow to never let it consume me;

**I am a warrior and I shall forever be!
I just had to write something
I'm sorry if it's the only thing I can do

Original: https://themisadventuresofher.wordpress.com/2017/08/05/monster-dont-hide-under-your-bed/
Aug 2017 · 426
1:20
woolgather Aug 2017
I'm tired of being passive,
I'm tired of being silent.
I tried,
Being someone I'm not;
I tried,
Being who I was,
Before everything shifted;
I found myself lost.
Been down in the dumps lately

Care to join me for some coffee?
Jul 2017 · 380
Faults
woolgather Jul 2017
Drip, drip, dripping.

Such that of a broken faucet.

Twisted in all directions,

Hoping that the flow would stop.

Yet;

It lessens, but never ceases.

Time shall come,

When the faucet reaches its breaking point,

It'll all pour out.

Flooding;

Drowning;

*Drip, drip, dripping.
Jul 2017 · 246
Pulley
woolgather Jul 2017
I'm just talking to my own echo;

Too scared to tell the truth

Too tired to fight for myself

I guess no one could fix me;

As if this curse wasn't enough,

I fall down rock bottom

Yet I can still see all of you.

How your lights shine the brightest;

I envy.

How you can see the light of the stars,

And not the pitch-black darkness

Of the night sky,

I guess I am but an opposite;

You get lifted up,

I get pulled back down.
**** myself
Jul 2017 · 147
Guilt
woolgather Jul 2017
Awoken by the voices

That echo in his head;

He falls to the gravity of his thoughts

Nothing more than a temporal predicament;

A case of misfortune

That felt like a void awakening inside me;

So strange

Yet so familiar;

Nothing more than someone I knew

Trying to be a new person
sloppy
Jul 2017 · 251
Sympathy
woolgather Jul 2017
Alas, he gave it his all,

Yet nothing moved;

Nothing changed,

Nothing for the better

As it eats him whole;

As he sees those he care about

turn their heads away;

Something moved;

Something changed,

Something he never thought he would feel;

Left out,

Spaced out;

Their sympathies turned inside-out.
sloppy
Jul 2017 · 132
Unsent
woolgather Jul 2017
I think I pushed the wrong buttons;

Now we can't talk.

I think I tripped on the wire;

Now everything I say can't get to you;

It seems that I'm the only one who knows;

And I'm the only one who's hurting, too.

I guess I 'm much of a klutz, aren't I?

I guess if you knew,

You'd say it's pointless to overthink it all;

But I guess you'd never know.

And even if you did,

*It's pointless to overthink it all.
I'm sorry if I'm not that much of a conversationalist

All the more after all I've said

I'm really sorry
Jul 2017 · 266
Placeholder
woolgather Jul 2017
You were there,

When I tried to strip an angel off its wings;

As its feathers fall one by one,

You vehemently pulled me away.

You knew how I never knew what I was doing,

You knew how lost I am in this fight,

You knew how much I wanted to just lay down and wait for my time;

Yet you pulled me away,

Even if no one asked you to;

You pulled me away;

And in your arms as I was about to collapse, you whisper:

It's okay.

You were there,

As I was putting back the wings;

Not the best but I tried my best.

*You held me.
Jul 2017 · 184
Lag
woolgather Jul 2017
Lag
I feel like a **** fool;

Letting you see how defeated I am,

To a beast I never saw coming;

I feel very guilty,

As I see you tend to me,

Even with a casualty much larger than mine;

I feel very useless;

As I see you do your best,

While I idly wait for myself to collapse.

My guts are turned inside-out,

I can't do anything to stop it;

As I can't control my own self,

While you try your best to help me.

Why?

You're faring quite hard;

Why persist to burden yourself with me?

I know I hurt you already;

I know how much of a burden I am to everyone;

I know how ill I am to think this way,

And I'm sorry.

I shouldn't have let you see me vulnerable in the first place;

*Now you're having it hard
Jul 2017 · 143
71317
woolgather Jul 2017
I feel hopeless
All the things they say seem to have no effect;
What was rotten can never be fixed;
What was shattered can never be reshaped.
The wound cannot be closed;
It bleeds.
As the ruby-red blood drips from my body;
I freeze.*
In scorn
Jul 2017 · 379
Index
woolgather Jul 2017
You're better than you think you are.

Everyone is.

But I believe you don't believe me.

Yet you should.

Because I see.

How you put aside yourself for those who can't help themselves;

How you manage to put a smile even if what you feel is not worth smiling;

I see.

How you hide the pain from everyone.

Yet, I see.

It is unbearable but you shrug it instantaneously.

We can't have all the luxuries;

Trying our best to find their worth;

Lest we bother those around us.


It's okay.

When you feel lost in the book of life,

*Kindness is your index
Not the best but definitely what I wanted to say
Jul 2017 · 157
Voice
woolgather Jul 2017
Sing;

Your words that seem to flutter;

Sing;

Your tune that seem to falter.


Do you really deserve to feel that bad?

Do you really deserve to be that selfless?

You're too good.

I hear your song.

Faint but not silent.

Cathartic but calm.

You don't have to whisper everything.


Sing;

Your words that scream your truth;

Sing;

The tune that never falters.
Please
Jul 2017 · 430
Entropy
woolgather Jul 2017
The release of energy

Such as I cathartically spewed out mine;

You shiver.

Do I bother you that much?

Yet;

Even if you are bothered,

I'll still feel the same way;

It doesn't define how I really am;

If you could see how I'm capable

Of making you feel the same way;

As I cathartically spew out my energy;

Hold my hand.

*Maybe then you'd see why.
I'm sorry
Jul 2017 · 120
No Right Yet Painful
woolgather Jul 2017
As I hold my hand for you to hold,

You hold the hands of another.

As I lend you my ears,

You lean on another.

As I call out your name,

You respond;

















To the pleas of another.

*Am I that —
You wound me with a blade you never knew you wield
Jul 2017 · 578
Latter
woolgather Jul 2017
You told your truth,

And lay bare your soul.

You speak the words you say,

As those who hear feel your turbulent catharsis;

Or maybe it was just me.

As if when you speak you asked for pity,

You weren't right to feel remorse.

You told your truth,

As you were about to shed tears.

But I never saw even glistening in your eyes;

Or heard remorse in your tone.

I can only make either of two things true:

you lie.

or;

you are brave.

Brave enough to put your heart at ease,

When the tides come crashing down your ship;

Brave enough to say that you're fine,

When really your walls are about to crumble.

I adore you;

For I feel the bravery you try to emanate;









And the wailing hope you try holding together




I am but a stranger at crossroads;

*I happen to hear your voice
I'm very new to this way of thinking

Please do understand
Jul 2017 · 236
Idol
woolgather Jul 2017
You astound me

For the words you speak turn into a masterpiece

You fill me with awe

As you pirouette your pen and out come your thoughts

You ignite the sleeping soul I try to oppress

And leave me breathless with just your statements

I've longed for someone like you.

Some say you lack finesse

I say they lack good taste

As everything you write stay true to me;






**Or maybe just for me
Scrap 1
Jul 2017 · 249
Burying
woolgather Jul 2017
I'll bury it,
How I scream so loud
That the earth would just swallow me whole
If it would mean my words would somehow touch yours;

I'll bury it,
How I long for the ravens to eat my carcass
As I wait for you to even just whisper my name,
And regard it as cathartic love;

I'll bury it,
How I write with withering flowers
And rotting souls
And tell you I write with the morning blossom;

I'll bury it,
The broken **** I am,
And fill your fields with dew;
If that's what it would take—

For you to see.
How much I write around your letters;

For you to notice.
How you make me high when you're high,
And low when you're low;

For you to know.
How hard it is for me to see you uneasy.

I'll change.

*Even if your words go to another
Jul 2017 · 202
Envy
woolgather Jul 2017
We’re just ticking death sentences
But I think you have a higher chance to live;
We’re both ticking death sentences
But I think more people would rather pardon your case.

We’ve never really met,
Just talked.
We’ve never really met,
Just laughed at each other’s jokes.
Can’t say fate brought us here;
I don’t believe in it enough;
We’ve never really met,
Just involved.

I hope I could read your words.
I hope I could hear your songs.
I hope I could be enough to make you feel better;
But I never knew what to do.

We’re polar opposites;
See it in our words;
But I know we share a common pain;
One much painful than the other.

Your words have organization,
Your words have power;
Mine has none;
No meaning, just rotting.

Nevertheless, I ache to see the truth you write,
Maybe then you’ll see my truth barely understandable;
Maybe then you’ll give me second thoughts,
Even if we’re both ticking death sentences.
I'm tired
Jun 2017 · 146
Spontaneous Combustion
woolgather Jun 2017
I wish I could be the one to extinguish the flames,
But the world would say otherwise;
As I watch from a distance as you trample your path with rage and sadness;
As I watch another quench the scorching heat,
I freeze with your cooling.
Irrelevant.
Useless.
Nothing but a small stain.
Nevertheless, I never considered it wrong to care.

I may never fix myself but I'll try to help you.


If you ever asked me to.
If I ever was brave enough to tell you.

As I watch from the distance,
Your fate.

As I long to intertwine mine with yours,
To pull you out of the ravine,
But I'm too much of a coward; I'm sorry.

I'm too scared to trample the little things you've given care.
I'm too scared to charge into your world, not knowing of what I can do.
I'm too scared to step inside your door, in your most vulnerable times.
And I ache too much to save you.
But I can't.

To anyone who hears my calls,
To anyone who feels the worry and pity I feel,
To anyone who can reach the heart I am crying about,

Please.

Before his rancor turns into ashes
leave your place if need be

everything right now is meant to be temporary

varnish your heart with resilience; don't give in to the demons that elude you from goodness

in time you will smile again

I hope he can read this; but everything else says otherwise
Jun 2017 · 247
Tethered Wish (Dump #6)
woolgather Jun 2017
I will hide my voice
At least until the sun ceases to rise,
I will hide my voice
At least until they leave;
I will my my truth
At least until they cease believing;
I'll just hide my voice 'til then
That the world's frail and already collapsing.

As I write a thousand words
A thousand wounds come with it;
As I spill a thousand tears
Burning hatred come dry it;
My demons would otherwise claim me
But I won't let them take my sanity;
They'd ooze out of me unexpectedly,
But all that's left would be my insanity.

Broken heart, broken memories;
Things I long for but cannot be given;
As I see you happy without me;
As I feel your blades thrash my very core;
I'll lay still.
Still as I hide my voice:
Frail and useless,
*Pleading—
6/16/17

I guess a useless journal

Now slightly rhythmical
Jun 2017 · 966
Happy?
woolgather Jun 2017
My life is so perfect!
I'm so happy to have this many friends;
Sunshine fills my every day!
Everyone greets me with a smile;
Roads and singing cars,
All the things I see are beautiful!
But the most thrilling part is,
Love fills me up!
Everything in my world is joyous!
Read between the lines ******
Jun 2017 · 156
Mix
woolgather Jun 2017
Mix
Don't try and save me anymore
I've fallen so far behind
I can't go
Just leave me where I am
Don't pretend to care
Because I knew the moment I joined your little party
I was about to get lost.
Don't try and cry for me
I know what you really want from me
Just leave me where I am
Don't pity me
You've forgotten me now
So don't try to make me feel remembered
I've fallen so far behind
I can't go
Because I knew the moment I joined your little party
*I was about to get lost.
I can't think straight anymore

Thanks
Jun 2017 · 177
Dump #5
woolgather Jun 2017
I cannot contain the grief the grief much longer,
I ache and yet nobody cares.
**** me, please.
I write cyclically,
And I am aware of my flaws,
Yet I ache to let them know;
To rescue me.
The one I want to rescue me most is the most distant; it is futile.
Oddly logical; my sadness.
I hope to see you again someday.
Goodbye.

I don't know if I'm happy.
But I know I'm depressed.
Even if I smile,
I'd end the day wishing I was dead.
Everyone who talks is temporary.
The grief I feel is evergreen.
I may move, but I stagnate.

I'll stay here
Even when you're gone.
I'll stay here
Even if they don't want it.

I'm settling down,
You keep running in circles.
I'm tired now
But you still keep leaving me;
I won't stay for long
I'll just rot away.
I'm settling down,
But you keep leaving me.

I'll stay here,
Even when you're gone.
I'll stay here,
Even If they don't want me;
I'll stay here,
Even if nothing's left;
I'll be here,
Then cry, and bleed, and die.

I'll stay here,
Even if you're things are all what's left;
I'll be here,
*Then bleed, and bleed, and die.
I guess a useless journal

I keep getting pulled down when they move higher up.

That's nice
Jun 2017 · 153
Dump #4
woolgather Jun 2017
Red ribbons.
Such as my thread of fate is malleable,
They toy with it.
Twist and bend and cut,
To their desire;
Without consideration of me;
Or what I would feel.
To them, I am obsolete.
To truth, I am obsolete.
I cannot be saved.
I have accepted that fact.
All that's left of me is to suffer.
Good riddance.

What they are is unbeknownst to me.
What I am is unbeknownst to them.
They do not see the sadness beyond the smiles.
They do not see the broken soul inside;
And I ponder, it is for the best.

"What makes you think I'm so special?"

If I could sail the stars,
I'll take you with me;
If I could get the world's fortune,
I'd give it to you, too.
*Too bad—
I guess a useless journal

Longer and more useless
Jun 2017 · 219
Dump #3
woolgather Jun 2017
06/07/17

Once more I am in nowhere;
Surrounded by people who know nothing;
Nothing of the grief I hold;
As I stagnate in the standstill of my time,
Revolving are the worlds around me.
The black sheep begs the wolf to eat him;
But even the predators elude him.
Such a sullen fate;
Yet the black sheep is grateful;
**As he says his last goodbyes.
I guess a useless journal

Now more senseless than ever
Jun 2017 · 171
Dump #2
woolgather Jun 2017
06/06/17

I was forced to sit and watch;
As they spit the flames they bring about;
I was forced to sit and watch
As those I knew turn anew;
Seemingly void of the past that held them back;
Seemingly void of me.
Maybe it's an omen;
That people are better without me;
As they spit the flames they bring about;
I burn.
In jealousy.
In regret.
**In sadness.
I guess a useless journal.

Not even close to half-assed poetry.

I'm very sorry
Jun 2017 · 105
Dump #1
woolgather Jun 2017
06/05/17

I know no one; it is very awkward;
They threaten to take our phones.
Such foolish tyranny.
Rambling people are  around me.
It is unsettling to say the least.
Loud.
I hope I make new friends though it seems highly unlikely.
The jester laughs at the fool's misfortunes.
I feel like myself more when I surrender to the voices in my head.
They know me better than I know myself.
I am ashamed;
As I profusely try myself.
**The words I write are uncanny
I guess a pointless journal
Jun 2017 · 698
I Won't Bleed
woolgather Jun 2017
I won't bleed
So don't worry about me;
I won't bleed
So it's fine if you hurt me

I won't feel
When you leave me
I won't see
The treacheries you'll be giving me

So let me rot
In my pedestal
Let them do what they want to me, it's fine
I don't bleed

I won't bleed
No point worrying about me;
I won't bleed
So hurt me

I won't bleed
My blood won't come gushing out
On the wounds and scars
You made for me

I won't bleed
So do as you please
I won't bleed
I'm already dead
It ran out a long time ago
Jun 2017 · 301
Ordeal
woolgather Jun 2017
The clock is ticking;

As I wait for you to open your ears to me;

As I wait to lay my heart bare in front of you;

Well, not really;

I have always said,

That I've grown ready of any predicament,

But I'm still scared;

Of how you'll see me,

After I let go of the words swarming my head for weeks.

I apologize in advance:

*I really just had to say it.
Isn't even a poem
May 2017 · 129
Hold
woolgather May 2017
I'll rest my heart and lay it down
Cause nothing seems to be working
The faces I see all turn to a blur
And that's also how they see me

It should be easy letting go
Even though I'm the only one hurting;
After all I'm the only one who knows
Don't let them see how you're falling apart

Don't bother chasing what was then
If it can't remember you
Don't love when you're the only one that knew
They say that just find the truth inside you
But I can't even find me
I don't even want me

So just leave me and I'll lay down
Cause it will never get working
All the people holding my past and my present
Seemed to throw it all away

Even if it's dark, try to hold the light inside you
Even when it hurts, try and let your heart grow
Even when it seems to be endless
Don't get drowned and drunk with bitter tears

Don't bother chasing what was then
Now is what will remember you
Love even when you're the only one that knew
Let them feel you
They say that just find the truth inside you
But If you can't even find you
I'll try to help you
I'll make you want you

They say that just find the truth inside you
If you can't, then I'll be the one to guide you
They say just find the truth inside you
Don't let the pitch black darkness blind you
Im dead
Apr 2017 · 595
Slice of Life I
woolgather Apr 2017
Born within a generational divide,
But some people will argue otherwise;
An affliction for movies of childhood,
*Like feeling the nostalgia I never got to experience.
I regret a lot
Apr 2017 · 179
Too Much for Nothing
woolgather Apr 2017
I'd rather stay and watch the stars tonight,
But I'm too busy thinking of free time.
I'd rather dance with you to a million songs,
But I'm too busy thinking of thoughtlessness;
I'd rather love you to the ends of the earth and back,
And see you smile as the sun arises,
But I'm too broken thinking of putting the pieces together again,
*And I'm too imaginative to think of us and you.
****

Now I can't write even half-decent poetry

Though when did I even begin to write even half-decent poetry
Apr 2017 · 212
Suicide Song
woolgather Apr 2017
I wouldn't know if this was just turbulence or
If it was cathartic comedy
I wish that I've known what wrong was my right and
That my memories were more than just cold
"He's just getting attention" I hear them say
Although that may be partly true
Cause when my dreams stopped painting pictures in my mind
I'd just stare at the dark like an empty cask
And when they would come for my body, it'd already get half-rotten and
I hope my memories won't be so

You'd always leave me cause I wouldn't say,
At least I've accepted that it's my fault
These words are from the moon that you never knew
Too bad that the sun can't shed a tear
And I know that you know that there are a million stars in the galaxy
But you're my only one
"He's just getting attention" I hear them say
Although I can't argue; that could be true
Cause when my dreams started painting my walls black
I'd have no other choice but sit still like an empty cask
And when they would come for my body, it'd already get half-rotten and
I hope my eulogy won't be so

I may not have left my room tidy
But I beg of them to think kindly

They would say save the best for last
I guess then I'm just not the best

Goodbye
.,
Mar 2017 · 257
Note to Self
woolgather Mar 2017
I'm not certain how to write anymore
since I woke up,
That us isn't real
And so I'll slumber to ****** every night
Mar 2017 · 145
Don't
woolgather Mar 2017
Don't try and question me when I start to get cold over you;
I started doing so by the time you said I was the one;
*And you lied.
Nothing
Mar 2017 · 160
Cynical Rebel
woolgather Mar 2017
I've always wanted you to love me,
Then I realized you'll never love me back.
Then again I tried to take hold of senseless hope;*
Then it came and I realized what I lack.
The will to move on from us that never happened
Mar 2017 · 159
Numbers and The Cyber-Devil
woolgather Mar 2017
One, two, three, four,
Who's that knocking at your door?
That stranger you think you've never seen before,
That guilt you painstakingly implore;

Five, six, seven, eight;
Makes you love what those you hate;
Senses coming undone as of late;
Innocent as ignorant as ignorant as bait.

Nine, ten, eleven, twelve;
*****, rotten past you try and delve;
Hope of seeing light; lies that you helve;
Nothing but out-of-place dementia to shelve.

Thirteen, fourteen, fifteen sixteen;
Treacherous words that appear on a computer screen,
Making you think your soul's so clean,
Don't waste your time: you'll just decay and demean.

Seventeen, eighteen, nineteen, twenty,
These wicked foolery has been a plenty;
Mind distorted, assorted, nothing but anomaly;*
The Devil's desert: Sweet Misery.
A floating mind may have a heavy heart tugging it down
Mar 2017 · 553
Lost Will
woolgather Mar 2017
I lost the pen that writes,
The thoughts I can't speak upon;
The punctuations that told me when
To go or continue or stop
tHe SaNiTy Of ThE wOrdS i CoNjUrE
aND mAYBE aLSO tHE sENSE i oUGHT tO tELL yOU
***** LaUnDrY
mESSED uP fEELINGS
sWiMmInG bIrDs
fLyInG fIsHeS
uNSPOKEN nOISE
mIcRoWaVe
*MaYbE i JuSt LoSt mY wILL tO uNDERSTAND
In thoughts blurred by confusion

One may find abstract sense
Mar 2017 · 965
Humane Grace and Cyberspace
woolgather Mar 2017
"Look up from your phone, shut down that display,
stop watching this video, live life the real way."
These I've heard from someone, from somewhere I have seen,
Which is ironic, as I got them from my phone and my computer screen.

I have lots of online friends and I feel less lonely,
I also have real friends but they tend to leave me abruptly;
Without gadgets, we have to talk whilst making more than a glance,
With them, we talk even whatever the circumstance.

We talk to face to face, make mistakes, say sorry;
Type with a keyboard, pick your words, less worry.
Error isn't bad, I'm just saying it's embarrassing,
Especially when it's your error that'll make them go laughing,
With social media, I can have a second chance,
Unlike talking nonstop and talking without plans.
Though, frankly saying, still do be careful,
To what you type, what you post, it can be a handful.

They say with the internet, we cause quite a commotion,
With a status or a tweet that's emotional yet without emotion,
In the cyberspace, we are who we want ourselves to be,
In the cyberspace they hate, You can be you, I can be me.

Codes and programs aptly created,
Becoming a vessel, both beloved and hated;
Social media, a platform, where one can rehearse,
Social media, an enigma, both a blessing and a curse.

Born of the era of the neos we have witnessed,
When letters were once written, now they're typed and addressed;
When once we had to know where they're at,
Now we could just dial up online, just sit down and chat!

But as time flew by, faster and faster,
From its real aim, we grow farther and farther,
Once used to connect those who haven't been actualised,
Now also to those who can now make them compromised;
Those in front of you, or even just a block away,
Because of social media, you think they are in lightyears astray.

Type your "****", your " LOL", your "*** XD",
Type what you want, but does that mean you're really happy?
Go ahead and put that colon and parenthesis,
Make exaggeration of your nonexistent catharsis.

They say they're amazing, they say that a lot,
But sometimes what they are is something they are not.
I know in this space, that we're free as we would have ever been,
Thanks to the brains and the alloys far more than aluminum and tin,
Still remember that it's also a human sitting at the other side of your screen,
Just think about your actions; if you were them, what would it mean?

Don't fall to your own damnation, don't ruin the plot,
Don't let a digital presence degrade you and rot;
If it won't do you good, just stop where you should,
Or ask a real person to help you if you never understood.

Life does confuse us, life *****, sometimes,
When everyone around seems painted in crimes,
I get that you'd seek help to someone that'll differ,
But is that someone understanding you deeper?

Chatting with someone miles away won't be a recluse,
'Cause after all, what is even there left to lose?
It feels nice even from far away to feel loved, accepted,
But wouldn't it be so much better if they were to hold you, comforted?

Sometimes a wild guess has nothing to lose yet too much to risk,
Sometimes it's better to just move by yourself and start to frisk.
Before searching the ocean of people far and wide, of those good to preach,
Try looking around you, they might be just upon your reach.

They may say words that make you feel less blue,
But make sure those words are words thay stay true.
Because letters may be harmless, words can be blunt,
But when sharpened enough become a ****** stunt.

Phones and computers are ever-easy to use,
But make sure that with it, you fall to abuse;
It makes them addicting, I'll admit,
But we also have to know they have a limit.

Try to close that screen, try to look in front,
Try and talk to one another, no plans, no punt,
We're not a generation of idiots: smart phones, dumb people,
We're a generation of breakthroughs: smart phones, smarter people.

Sometimes we become too rash and get too rushed,
We use them too much then we become brainwashed,
But it's alright if we fall and abject,
After all, no one's made humanly perfect.

It's a paradox, truly, it really is,
That when you’re too busy looking down, you don’t see the chances you miss.
But for the chances you miss, the inevitability you take,
For the new chances that you're ought to make.

Maybe you'll still make, the girl of your dreams come true,
Get married, buy a house, accept each other's peaks and waterloo,
Love and then hate, then sail through this test,
Experience happy and sad and exciting and scary things, up until you rest.

It's okay to look down and type what you feel
Just don't forget to go out and experience everything real,
I still have a thousand words that I want to say,
But all of them point you to living your life in your real way.
Too long, I know
Mar 2017 · 586
Plot Twist
woolgather Mar 2017
Everything I do wrong feels uncannily right
(not really)
Mar 2017 · 508
Coffee and Tea
woolgather Mar 2017
Thought it would make me feel better,
Ended up making me feel worse.
Thought the pain would now be lesser,
Ended up more of a curse.
Thought the words would fade,
Ended up sharpening like blades.
Thought the cards had been laid,
Thought the final blow was made;
Thought my heart was already at ease,
Turns out I was never in peace.
Lengthy lines come out of the dormant,
Some intentional, some half-thought and made,
Some of it just plain,
Some of it just awry,
But all I wanted to say is, I'm sorry.
I've never cut out of my shell,
And I may never be able to be.
Depressed, Demoted, Oppressed,
I've never seen the world for myself:
The world I'm already living in.
I never meant to lash out,
I never meant to make you feel ******,
I never meant to tell you what things I should've never told anyone,
I never meant to compare our lives,
I never meant to upset you.
I never wanted your world to know who I am,
I'd understand if you wouldn't understand,
After all, we've never known each other.
And yet, I seem to feel you close to me;
Like you were beside me.
Now I've made a stupid decision and I don't know how to fix everything.
I have a thousand words to say to you,
But I feel like you wouldn't listen,
And that's fine.
This ain't poetry, this is an apology.
*I'm sorry.
Hi Jason, it's Nes.

I know we never know each other

If we wouldn't talk to each other again, at least read this

I don't know if you have a burden you've been carrying like I do, so I'm sorry I should've been more sensible

I wish I could've done something
Feb 2017 · 131
Raven
woolgather Feb 2017
Can't write very well because of you.
Leaped what has been leaped;
Now unsure how to get back to whence we started:
Was it truly a leap of faith?
Now you flew away,
As I see your figure in the sky;
Not that I've seen you close enough.
I don't know
Feb 2017 · 142
Sorry
woolgather Feb 2017
I tried to make poetry,
But I'm bothered by how idiotic I was;
You tried to help me, I just shut down,
*Now I just have this four-lined ****** apology.
Feb 2017 · 795
Uneven Hue
woolgather Feb 2017
You were red,
I was blue.
You turn lilac whenever I'm near,
Then red violet when you talk to me.
I turn teal when you smile,
Then uncertain as indigo when you call my name.
Then yellow came around,
You turned orange.
I turned green.
Whenever you're with me I turn you brown.
Now I disgust you.
Now I ***** you.
I strip myself of the hues I've made.
Now I'm just black.
Devoid of anything, of anyone.
Of us, of you.
Combinations aren't even right
Feb 2017 · 396
Conspiratorial
woolgather Feb 2017
I'm afraid to lure to you to me,
I know they won't like it.
I'm scared for you to know me,
I feel like I'm a ball you'll hit.
Foreign people, foreign disputes,
Pacing unrealistic promises.
Trying to make up absolutes,
Even though I'm the only one making crash courses.
Tying to talk to us again,
Attempting to rhyme;
Like sewing tattered linen;
Quite easy, but not easy on time.
I left just for me to return,
I typed just for you to know;
I'd never stop, I'd never learn;
Like a madman resurrecting someone from a barrow.
I just want to talk to you about random **** like we once did

Even though I know I'm not that important to you
Feb 2017 · 143
Can't
woolgather Feb 2017
I regret giving it everything I am.
I regret giving up everything they ought to be.
I regret the blades that passed my wrists;
But then, it's part of life, isn't it?
To destroy what you can.
Too delusional and depressed
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