It almost seems like complements define who i am… ..whether i give myself the complement or someone else does….it’s so addictive…. “O baby your so ****…. smart… funny… successful…yada yada yada...maybe this is true…but it’s truth is only temporary and temporary truth is never really the truth at all….it’s but a stepping stone…to then live a complement as truth is to live a counterfeit… ….don’t believe me? Then ask a casket………Mirror Mirror on the wall……..complements aren’t what they say your are at all…..yet a complement still can help you grow…. they do have their purpose…but take a complement and leave it where it is…don’t wear it like skin…..don’t believe it is your identity….lest you wake up dead covered in lies…………..

Jerry’s soul is deeper than the galaxy….if you only had the courage to stare him in the eyes… If i could read a million books and acquire a million college degrees, i could still never attain what ive seen in Jerry’s eyes…...And ive seen what words cannot explain…… ive swam the depths of my own fears ---in Jerry’s eyes---in his eyes the world fades---tomorrow dies and eternity  begins…his emotions screams…his body fails….but my God his eyes!!…..my tears are falling….my tears are falling…not in pity but because in His eyes i saw the face of God……………i love you Jerry Happy Birthday…Christ is holding you.

A resting Child.....Asleep before the ball drops.......Sound asleep on the couch.....poor kid, when will he make it to midnight?...i can't seem to remember when i did...... but somewhere along the line time started moving faster...now it flies by....some where along the line i grew up and learned bitterness, pride and regret...i wonder what this child's dreaming over in this new years moon?...playing, candy and food i presume...he's asleep...yet i'm still awake.... pondering my chances at a clean slate........but this child doesn't need a new years kiss for he lives a new years eve each and every night..365 years to our 1 ...OOO Poor adult when will you fall asleep before midnight so to remember and reclaim what uv'e lost? ...A new year every night

Habitual hives under my skin…i don’t know where you come from…your cause pervades me even though I declared to figure you out 1,000 times….much like my emotions….

Itching and burning under my skin...waking me from deep slumber…then gone without a trace….what a gift of irritation…what a gift of understanding… my truth was but a helpless mirage….

OOO Hives thank you for showing my ignorance but yet still your only scratching the surface of my………..helplessness…carry on

I am a man that understands…
  I write…I read….but I truly do not know….i only ask questions
                       And hope for what I cannot see …
                      I wish to love in the midst of hate…..
                   Kindness and patience as my embrace…
                         Neither in pride nor strength
      For greater is He who is within my understanding…
                                The He who Knows all…
                                   I pray blind Faith……..

I don’t need reality because i can hold eternity in my TOY CAR Forever….i don’t listen to wrinkles and aged bones… why should i? i drive from death in my toy car forever…..every day I make it look better…better….and better…….my toy car forever…..i could save the world!…with my toy car forever...it needs my time and im almost there….if I just keep working..working..working…it will be ready….i’ll give it all my life in exchange for the fountain of youth….a delusion echoed from a little boy in a picture frame…. ….a frame resting in a casket……..he was old and dead….buried in the rusting fender of his toy car forever…………..toy car forever… toy car forever………………………..

Emotions can love and hate….kiss or ****... ….emotions smile and frown…..going up and down, making decisions based on how they feel…… And just like that someone is IN or OUT…and just like that forever turns to goodbye…

Emotions have absolutely no principals…no integrity…no loyalty…no longevity…no control…not even to the one who makes the choice! YES can be NO and NO can be YES in the same breathe…..

It’s emotional Anarchy!!! And O how our emotional highs are thought to be success and ours lows we detest. Yet in this ruse they are one in the same…only confusion remains….still we have emotion and a brain for good reason………. but my dear i beg in distain to refrain from decisions made from the cannibalistic emotions that shift….but instead on God’s unchanging Words and His everlasting gift……..Christ