You spend lone enough waiting tables
or washing cars
or standing behind a register
and you feel a part of you
that played thumb wars and jump rope
die just a little
yeah I know the plight of the proletariat is cliched
but that doesn't mean it's not there
you feel the disdain grow
and even more so
you get hungry
and no ham 'n cheese can fix that
hunger nor nutrition
but for any small sign that all of the toiling
might just pay off.
Well if I go another day without eating that meal
I might just crack
drive my car into oncoming traffic
take as many suckers with me
then they might remember my name

I looked at the boy
Who sits 2 seats behind me
He didn't realize how
Beautiful
He was

I winked at the boy
Who sits 2 seats behind me
He didn't realize how
Perfect
He was

I kissed the boy
Who sits 2 seats behind me
He didn't realize how
Wonderful
He was

I loved the boy
Who sits 2 seats behind me
He didn't realize how
Lovely
He was

I think about the boy
Who used to sit 2 seats behind me
I hope he finally realizes how
Beautiful
He was

Went on a run
*** drugs & rock n roll
Man i had some fun
But now I'm out in the cold

I tried to do things right
Tried too make things matter
But like a vampire i thrive on the night
And mixes up my life like thick pancake batter

Il get this game right one day
But in the meantime ill take my lumps
Cut me up another line, grab me a pill grab me a ****
And ill wash it down with a *** &a; coke
Thus life had no meaning no more
I'm going to make it back one day to that AA door

10 days its all that is left..
yet the horizon seems so much more..
I struggle with my other half..
who talks to me when i sleep..

too much and too little
this way and that way..
it all gets too much..but its really just 10 days..

10 days is all that is left..
i will bring the horizon toward me..
the struggle will continue..
but i wont listen..

"Keep quiet
why do you always have to yell?"
If I kept it down,
I fear you wouldn't hear me
well enough
"Just slow it down.
You're talking at a mile a minute."
If I talk fast it's only because
I fear I don't have enough time
to say what I need to say
"Do you have to swear so much?
it sounds ugly. It doesn't sound smart."
If I swear
It's only because I fear your loss of attention
"Why do you always sound so sad?
Just smile.
Lighten up."
If I sound sad
depressed
upset
it is only because
I fear for you