cold are the nights left behind
by a slow walk of thoughts,
lights in the dark like timid angels
that shine on your skin
made of pearls and stained dreams.

it feels upside down,
the hole in your soul,
it feels like a burning ***
of molten stone.

long are the nights left to live
they remind you and hunt you
for what once happen
and shall never repeat.

with everything left blank
in a bed made of sorrows,
depression and dust.
with everything left behind
looking for your next good day
and continues to be in the past.

but your smile brought you back
your timid and fearful smile,
looking for a guarding soul
the smile that cries,
because its without a purpose, lost.

and your eyes, the perfect paradise
where angels and demons
have found home.
where pain and hope,
lost a thousand battles
where my soul shines back at me
with a loss for words.

yet your smile will bring you back,
the smile that cries aloud
for someone to smile back.

your soul knows no bounds,
believe me I've seen it all...
your soul is not broken, it's simply lost.

Dee, darling... angel in disguise
how can you be so tender
with such a broken past?
how were you tailored
to shine so bright above the dusk?
where did you come from?
and where would you end up?

Your heart puts to shame
the bravest soldier from times past,
yet you hide behind,
every word you let others talk.

You have a diamond for a soul
so why cover it with coal dust,
you past is not your future Dee...
try not to treat it like a fact.

Oh... but I've seen it all
and I've seen inside you, darling
I've seen the diamond, that you no longer get to hide.
I've brushed away some of the darkness
that was blinding you shut.

So hold my hand now...
lets go back home,
trust me, would you?
so I can make you whole.

You said we were done, and it made me loose my stand, my feet started to tremble to shake and fear took over me in just a second and I couldn’t breath, I didn’t want to live.

I couldnt hold your face any longer, I couldnt smell your hair, the hours will pass through me like a forgotten wonder, while I wonder where youve been.

I couldnt think of you as my angel, or hold your hands next to heart, I couldnt hold you close for forever, nor calm your tears with mine... because you are now gone.

Going through the motions now, meeting people, shaking hands, kissing my loneliness away, like a homeless dog tries to look for a heart, searching for what I dont want.

It feels empty now, it doesnt make sense now, none of this covers a hole now, the emptiness of happiness, singing songs of darkness.

And I go through the motions now, filling glasses with liquid poison, trying to forget, looking for the next erosion of my feelings, waiting for them to quiet down, I don’t understand.

My bed feels empty, since the last time you were home, driving down the street feels lonely since I last drove you back. Even the bar we went to, just that one time, it holds my heart with hooks of fire every time I drive past.

And it just feels numb now, everything seems off now, you are too far away, everything ***** now, you aren’t mine, everything is hard now...

You took my heart, and kept it since, I miss my heart, you took it all, we had it all, and you left me none... you have my heart now, I don’t want it back, I wanna have yours back, I want you to hold me now.

Going through the motions now, looking at the mirrors that don’t look back, going through life now, like a used cigarette left in the rain, slowly disappearing into every one else’s days.

But take my hand now, hold me close again, you and I are broken together, but our pieces fit so properly, you and I, the idea of that brings me pain and my smile back.

You and I, could it be? Could I hold you once again?, and never let you go...

Going through the motions now, every day feels further apart, every moment I don’t have you, kills another bit of my soul, every kiss I don’t steal from you, lets me see Im lost.

Its you and I now, but only in my dreams, ill hold onto that dream for now, while I prepare the rope and chair, its you and I now, or could that ever be? It doesn’t matter much now, I couldn’t see you even if you came, my eyes are shut red now, let me hold on to that dream.

Its all over now, good bye my sweet thing.

I need to go,
Need to stay awake
Night walks into the dark
Love songs that are mute.
Because when I fly I die
Turning my head at the shadows of the past.
Because when I die Im alive
Rebound from the ashes
Of pain and dust,
Drowned in the sorrows of lust
Pain simply lets me know
I can still feel.
You are the needle to my arm
The powder to my nose,
And baby, love I need my drug.

Your curves make my heart stop,
seeing you laying there
your pearl white skin
Like a canvas for my sins.

Your silhouette makes me tremble,
lost in the illusion of control
powerless, enslaved to your touch.
like a painter without a brush
I’m forced to used my fingers,
To explore your every inch
Every bit of skin that you let me have.

And then you kiss me,
What a marvelous temptation,
I switch from being intoxicated in love
to needing to have you in every angle.

Let me play with you slowly,
Like a musician playing piano
Over a late night hangover.
Let me inside you, let my fingers feel
Your every type of texture.
Let me hands run free...
Let my mouth eat you out of control.

Keep kissing me slowly,
your lips feel tender, and warm
pressed against mine, slightly open
I can taste your tongue
I can feel its timidness
wet and warm,
like your *****, when I play with it gentle.

Bring your mouth closer to me know,
Its time to feel it from a different angle,
kiss my body all the way down
until you have me inside you,
You do it so so slowly,
your mouth...
God I can feel you wet and **** mouth
Wrapped against my ****,
As you slowly go up and down
I get harder and less gentle.
Let me feel more of your throat,
I cant promise ill be careful,
Your tongue, playful
Matches the rest of you,
Especially in this form of paradise in heaven.