Colour Blind

I don't see the colour of your skin.

I see
the colour of your heart.

Is it dark and putrid or
is it the color of a soft and lilting tune?
Is it filled with warm tones,
or cold?
Hues of ice and snow,
or gold?

Do you give or take?
Do you love or hate?

I don't see race or faith,
I just see you-
your energy, your words, your actions.

I see you; I just simply
see you.

They are Demons In my mind
They drag me every where they want
Im tired & confused
Searching for a way to lose

Im staring to the blue sky
To the shiny yellow sun
Life Is beautiful I know
But not beautiful for all I suppose
People think Im happy
Even when there is a hell In my mind
I feel deep sorrow In my throat
But still I smile

There is something dead in me
I know there is no replace
Im caltivated by the life
this is no sweetest nightmare than the life.
They say you are young & beautiful
Try to change your world
But they donť know for me
Everything is already finished

Living, laughing & timid smiles
Is the all the thing I could  have done
Living like a happy man
Dying every day Inside
Demons , Demons every where
Still whispering in my head

Nasty, nasty , nasty life
You are caltivated by your life.

I tried to be your best
Even when you shattered me;
I tried to be your Idol
But that seems an Impossible thing

Please just leave me alone
You are not part of my heart& soul anymore
I hate you know, to beg a love from someone
Or ask them to  love me when they donť.

My mom thinks Im proud, uncharm & quite
Well, thatś   a subject for others to talk
I know myself deep inside
Im not like  those stuff they talk
They just see my face& say
Who will ever could love you then?
With such pride& style?
Lonely, sad, deep inside
Say something my cold heart
No one will ever see whatś  going on In these frozen veils.

Once upon a time I rememeber a face & heart
A plain girl with an ordinary face
Not beautiful as much as  others are
Her eyes was full of lights
Somepeople may call  It love
Someother  may thinking that she had  a hope In her heart.
She sat  lonely on her chair.
She had  a sweet smile on her face
Her black eyes was   the shiny pearls
Lighting like a beautiful black dress

She was  shy & hide her heart
In the most hidden parts
She was an angel without wings



She was  there to drew her world not like others
But like her own
But then a storm came one day,
There was a place  where love then came.
She was not that  girl anymore.
Love put Itś spells on her
Something was changed she knew It well.
Love put Itś spell on her

You told me you
              Couldn't find your way
                                     In your darkest nights
So I left you a star
               A star in every poem
                               To find your way home

I never told you
How much I love you
That seems an  Impossible thing

Me, you & we
Was the only picture I hade In my dreams
But then you left me alone
Breathless, near to death
You lighted a fire In my heart
&then; you watch me hurt

I wanted to have a place In your heart
But your heart was   full of passion
That was end to my purest love
You destroy all that desire

Now Im a cold girl
Not even believing in  love
You make my heart cold & swore
Love is forbidden rule.